Shattered hearts (Severus Snape)

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I've been teaching at Hogwarts for three months now. Everything has been alright besides Severus ignoring me even more.

I was on my way to my office for lunch as all the students were in the Great hall when I felt someone put their hand on my shoulder. I turned to see professor Lockhart holding a strange rose.

"Professor kang, don't you look lovely today."

He said, handing me the rose. Its stems were a strange emerald green, the petals were a dark purple.

I took the rose hesitantly and puzzled as I noticed Lockhart's face became pale as he walked away. A large hand came from behind me reaching over my shoulder and took the rose from my hands. I turned around to see Severus glaring past me and at Lockhart as he ran away like a puppy with his tail between his legs. His black eyes looked down at at me as he dropped the crushed flower onto the ground.

"What are you doing...?"

"You should be more careful about taking strange colored flowers from someone. If I hadn't taken it from you and crushed it, it would have enchanted you into loving him..."

Before I could thank him he already left. I wonder why he did that for the rest of the day.

I plopped down into my chair and rubbed the back of my neck, I continued to wonder why Severus did that. But I knew he would not talk to me about it, this I took out my quill and decided to write to him. As I wrote to him, I told myself not to expect a reply because that was just how Severus was. He would ignore me no matter what I did.

Dear Severus,

I'm not sure why you did that for me but I am thankful for it. I want you to see how important this is for me, for you, and for us.

Now before you crumple my letter and throw it away, which I know you're tempted to do so, please know that I am here for you. We might not be as different as you may think, I really want to know you. I'm not asking you to fall in love with me, I just want you to treat me more like a friend rather than a foe. This bond is unbreakable, and it would be a shame if we keep glaring at eachother instead of smiling.

I'm willing to try and understand you, and I hope you can do the same for me. Severu, I'm not here to hurt you, but I'm here as your soulmate.

Yours truly,

Irene♡

Severus pov:
I was trying to grade my first year students papers but I couldn't concentrate, my mind kept directing me to her. Dropping my quill on the desk, I let out an exasperated sigh and learned against my chair, pinching the bridge of my nose.

I kept thinking of her endeavors to talk to me for weeks, and never once did I give her the chance. Sometimes I wanted to discuss the matter just to see her soft sweet face, but I was worried if I let her come too close, both of us would end up being hurt, and I was hurt enough.

She stopped trying to talk to me after we had that disagreement in my office, and I kept wondering if she was wanting a letter from me as well, or she was tired of me and that she wanted to give up on me.

Apart of me was dreading to know if she did finally give up on me, just like everyone else has. My eyes landed on her letter, the one that I had read a few times already but I never found the guys to write back to her. Taking the parchment in my hands, I started to read her beautiful cursive handwriting once again, word by word, that heart she made at the end, her sincerity was overwhelming me, but.

I fell in love with Lily.

I wanted her to be my soulmate, but I knew she was not. She was bonded to another man but still, I prayed that she could be mine but it never became real...it was just a Dream.

My hand trembled as I picked up my quill and started to write her name, thinking if my actions were prudent. I found myself writing words that I never could say to her

Dear Irene

I know now how important this matter is to you, and it is important to me as well. I have been waiting for you for years, and then I stopped hopping for you, I was giving up until the day you came. It was too good to be true, and I know I shouldn't have walked away from you. Before I found you, or rather you found me, I thought I was doomed to live my life alone.

I want to leave my past behind me, and I want to do it with you.

Your truly,

Severus Snape

Staring at the letter I just wrote, I was not sure if she was the one I wanted. I crumpled the paper and it into the charms box with a sigh. If she wasn't my soulmate, perhaps I could have had Lily as mine, and I would not have to watch her run into the arms of another man.

I was convinced I hated her and there was no way I could be friends with her, let alone fall in love even if she was my soulmate.

I knew my life would be better without her existence. Huffing in anger I leaned back into my chair crossing my arms against my chest, telling myself that she was the cause of my devotion and I could never stand her.