Shattered hearts (Severus Snape)

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Irenes pov:
It was my free period. I grit my teeth as a first year young student hugged me as she cried about Severus yelling at her for making a potion explode.

Anger bubbled in my chest as I walked to his office after she left to head to dinner early.

Without knocking on his door, I walked into the room and the look of surprise on his face was enough to crack a smirk. I crossed my arms against my chest and stood in front of him who was organizing his desk.

He dropped the papers in his hands, huffing slightly as he walked over to me putting his hands behind his back.

"Where are your manners, professor kang? Waltzing into my office without even bothering to knock."

I scoffed at his words, knowing that the first thing in his mind when he saw me was to insult me, hence I could care less about it.

"Where are your manners, Severus Snape? How could you scowl at a young student like that for an accident?"

I didn't notice that I kept walking closer to him, having to crane my neck upwards to look him in the eyes. I could tell he was flabbergasted to see how stern I was when it came to my students.

"Perhaps I did it intentionally to see if you're capable of being a good teacher..."

He spoke lowly, and I knew he was trying to piss me off even more. It was like he was entertained to see me burn with anger, and I just wanted to get this over with.

"You don't have to do that. I'm giving my best as a teacher."

It took everything inside of me to not break his nose when a small smirk formed on his lips.

"It never stops hurting does it...?"

He wanted to see me crumble before hi eyes, feeling the pain that he caused, and if he could, he wanted me to break into tears. If he really hates me, surely he could do it easily.

"What...?"

I knew his words were going to be harsh, as they were directed to me but I never thought how painful it would be to hear them from him.

"Giving your best when you know your best is actually someone else's worst..."

"Your pride is going to be your ruin, Snape"

"Really? I think you're going to be in ruin first, as you're too busy including your dreams and fairy tales until you forget that sometimes people just don't want you...you're a disappointment, miss... kang..."

He knew he had stuck me in the heart, tears welded in my eyes. I would not let him degrade me even more as I held them back.

Clenching my fist I turned around and walked out the room. I knew that if I stayed any longer I would have punched him.

Walking into the great hall for dinner, I bit the inside of my cheeks to avoid myself from scowling when I had to sit beside Severus. I did not glance at him, as I hoped he would ignore me like always, because I knew I could not handle any insults coming out from his mouth again that day. Tomarow was the weekend so me and Hagrid planned to spend the weekend together.

"Here you are, professor kang."

Severus said handing me a glass of red wine. He seemed like he was playing a different game with me now, as he started to talk to me instead of shutting his mouth like usual. I dropped my gaze on my plate when he started to talk about my teaching experience and how I was ruining the students futures. Not wanting to look at him.

His words felt like bullets Piercing my heart but I stayed silent, biting my tongue as it would be foolish to make a scene in front of the students. I gripped onto my fork as it began to bend, and I did not even realize it until Hagrid nudged me with his elbow.

"Are you alright Irene?"

I nodded, smiling at my friend who noticed how tense I was. His eyes moved to Severus, who wasn't satisfied with his words, not until he heard something from me, anything to instigate an argument.

"You're nothing but a burden..."

He mumbled, I pretended to be deaf to his words, insisting to keep my silence as Severus deliberately degraded me, masking his words with the thought of trying to 'help' me become a better teacher.

Severus raised his eyebrows when I dropped my belt fork onto my plate with an audible sound, surprising everyone as I stood up from my chair. I had listened enough to Severus, and before anyone could stop me, I was already leaving the great hall with Lockhart following right behind, a cold stare look was painted on my face as I glanced at the potions master.

The teachers whispered among themselves when I left abruptly. Severus felt a tingle of guilt that tugged on his chest, but he denied it, watching as I left the room in a rush.

He had forgotten that I was a part of his soul, and as much as he denied it, it hurt him to know that i was hurt.

Severus's pov:
"I wouldn't test her temper Snape, if she really wanted to she could break you in half easily..."

I scoffed at his words as I picked up her bent fork and stared at it. I wondered how she was able to do that, until it hit me, Lockhart followed her out of the great hall and she didn't seem to care.

I stood up from the table ignoring Minerva as she tried to stop me. I went to her dormitory as the door was locked, a wave of worry sank into me as I heard glass shatter in the room. I took out my wand hesitantly to unlock the door.

"Alohomora"

I quietly walked in as I saw shattered glass and papers scattered all over the floor, I peered around the corner to see Lockhart holding her. I felt my chest bubble with jealousy and anger as I watched him hug her as she cried.

"It will be okay Irene, the only thing you can do now is move forward from the past..."

My heart ached as I watched him comfort her as he stroked her long dark ruby hair.

"But I can't...all the memories, him saying those things..."

"Don't listen to what he says...you can make new memories..."

I gripped my wand until my knuckles became white. I wanted to take her away from him but I was afraid.

"I'm a monster...I never wanted to hurt anyone..."

I listened as she cried in his arms, I was confused on what she was talking about. I was about to leave when I heard Lockhart speak to her again.

"You're not a monster Irene, you couldn't control what you did. You will always be beautiful in my eyes..."

My chest tightened and boiled more from what he said, I should be the one to hold her I thought. It reminded me so much of Lily...she looked so much like her, her hair was darker, her eyes a different color. I left closing the door quietly behind me asking myself why I cared who she was with, either it was him or another.

It was breakfast time, all the students were home with their family for the weekend as were some of the teachers.

Irenes pov:
I sat down next to Severus as Lockhart sat next to me on the other side, Severus's eyebrows knelt together when he realized there were other empty seats but I chose to sit beside him. I always sighed in frustration when I had the sit there, but now as he looked at me, I smiled and there was not a hint of annoyance in my eyes.

"You're finally here, professor kang. I thought you would want to sulk in your room and think about what I said to you last night. I meant every word..."

Severus squinted his eyes when I didn't respond to him, as if I were numb to his caustic words to me. Everything he said was not affecting me that morning, and something stirred inside of him to see you talking to Lockhart instead of scowling at Severus.

It baffled him to see me ignore him, and his heart was aching to see me being so ignorant towards him when all he did was hurt me. He scoffed at his own thoughts, and anger rose in his chest when I continued to give him the cold shoulder.

Ironically, he did not mind it if he was the one who was giving me the silent treatment, but when I did the same twords him, it felt like a blade stabbed deep into his heart, and I plunged it even deeper when I did not even glance at him as he stood up from his chair and left the great hall.