Alyssa

32. Thoughts

I could feel my heart at my throat as the car finally came to a stop. Sweat rolled down my forehead before getting smudged into my blindfold. My hands were tied behind my back making it hard to sit. I heard the open and close on my left before the door on my side opened, letting the fresh air hit my face.

A hand grabbed my upper arm gently helping me get down the car. I felt his hands gently removing the blindfolds, my eyes shut down on its own due to the direct rays of sun hitting my eyes. I adjusted my eyesight before opening them completely. He moved behind me before repeating the same on my hands.

I brought my hands in front of eyes before gently rubbing them, they might be a little bruised.

"Take two rights and one left, you will reach your home" I heard him speak as I continued to rub my eyes. Before i know it, I heard the car start and driven away.

I hastily stood up with the support of the tree, i was still dizzy from the drug he gave that I dont remember being in the car until few minutes ago.

After revealing about my parents, he brought out a needle which I failed to notice in his hands, before he stuck it in my neck. Black dots covered my vision as I heard him say "thats all you need to know" before my head hit the floor.

Next thing I know I am in a car, with my hand and legs tied with a blindfold on.

I slowly lifted my head as my eyes meet the sunrise. I watched the sun slowly rise as it's rays began spreading lights in the darkness.

I used to love watching sunrise but now I hate it. My desire to watch it on my birthday flipped my life upside down. The once happy girl who never cried, felt neglected or felt scared and was always confident and importantly being herself .......died. As of now, i am always scared, of myself and people, faced physically and mental abuse, was sexually assaulted and what not.

I hate it!!!

If only I listened to my parents warning me about the dangerous of the outside world. The dangerous sneaking out could put me in.

If only I listened to Mason when he strictly warned me not to take a step out of the house.

I would have been happy

I would be protected.

I won't be neglected.

I would be fed.

I would be their number one priority.

Most importantly I would have been safe.

In the arms of parents and brothers......

It doesn't take a genius to understand i won't believe a single word uttered by my so called well - wisher about my family.

But with the Ascano family, I kinda off do believe him but I still have my doubts though.

Taking a deep breath, I slowly began limping in the direction of my house as the sun completed rised. I had a bandage on my feet where the glass pierced which he must have put it on after drugging me.

With the support of the trees here and there i made it to my house thinking of the happy moments I had with my family. The family that truly loved and cherished me for who I was. The family that stood by my side in the high and lows. The family that i knew had my back no matter the troubles i got into.

Little does she know.......

The guard opened the gates as soon as he saw me. He came forward with his eyes and mouth wide open like he saw a ghost.

I know i look bad, he doesn't have to make it obvious.

"Ma'am can I help you?" He asked in a soft tone with his arms a little out moving like a snail towards me like he doesn't want to scare me by rushing.

"No I am fine. Thank you" I shook my head moving forward before passing him a small smile.

"But ma'am you are injured. If you aren't comfortable with me I can always call your brothers?" He asked with a worried look taking over his features. He looks more worried than brothers.

I wanted to say, calling my brothers would do nothing but harm me more but stopped myself. He maybe worried about me but he still works for my brothers. His faith would definitely stay with them and not a girl who came couple months ago.

"No seriously I am fine. I can go" i replied politely turning to walk away but stopped hearing him.

"But ma'am -"

"Fine let's go" i cut him off knowing i can't persuade him. He took me inside the cabin made for the guards and made me sit on a chair before bringing a new bottle of water near my lips, opening the cap of it.

I didn't realise how thirsty I was until i took the first sip of water causing me gulp down the whole bottle immediately in a go. I haven't had anything for like 20 hours. Not to mention the scary experience with him.

He took the empty bottle from my hand throwing in the trash can before gently saying "give me a minute ma'am i will be back"

I weekly nodded as he walked out of the little cabin. Too tired to take a look of the insides of the cabin, i pulled my knees to my chest laying my head on it, completely exhausted.

Not even a minute later the door of the cabin opened and in came the same man from earlier.

"Ma'am this way please" i slowly stood up and walked out to find a mercedes waiting with the back door open. Sliding into the car i was about to reach out to grab the door handle to close it but before i could, the guard hands reached out and did it. He quickly jogged to the drivers side and got in staring the engine.

I took a deep breath staring out of the car as the trees moved by. I didn't realise how long the driveway of the house is until now. I am sure I wouldn't have made it to the house if it wasn't for the kindness of the guard.

The car came to a smooth stop, I took a moment before getting out of the car. I got down, thanked the guard made my way to the house.

"Ma'am may i help you inside?" I heard him speak in a gentle tone but I declined his offer moving on my own.

Once inside, i noticed the complete silence of the house. Not giving it much of thought i made my way to the stairs where I was attacked by leo's hugs and kisses with him blabbering something in his language.

I am so mad at myself right now. How could I forget about leo. He was with me when I got kidnapped. I was so selfish thinking only about myself not caring about his whereabouts. I am such a bad sister.

"I am sorry leo so so sorry" i mumbled stroking his head sitting on the floor. I was so selfish. He continued licking my face not listening to a word i am saying. I held his head which were a lot bigger than both my hands, my hands disappeared under his fur as I kissed his head muttering yet an other apology.

He stopped his moments for a second observing me like he is tryna read me. He tilted his head observing my face before he let out a loudest howl i have ever heard from him looking up at the roof. He only does that when he is sad.

I hug him to my chest hiding my face in his fur sobbing uncontrollably. I cried for everything. The emotions I hid came out at once. I pulled away after a minute telling myself to be strong and not cry like a little girl. Marco's words rang in my ears telling me how weak i am for crying. I furiously wiped my tears away completely before finding leo looking at me.

"Crying shows weakness -" i was cut off by a loud voice from the stairs.

"What the fuck, Alyssa?" I lifted my head to see Alessandro coming down the stairs in his suit with his very visible dark circles. It looked like he didn't get any sleep all night.

"Where the fuck were you?" He growled tugging me by my upper arm harshly.

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Hey guys!!!

First of all : thanks for your patience. (Due to irregular updates)

And for reading with lots of grammatical error.

And second : the story is coming to an end.

Just bare with me for a couple more chapters please

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