Loved The Right Way (My Husbands Best Friend)

Chapter Eleven

On my way home, I stopped by the grocery store to pick up some things for dinner. My cell phone rang, and it was Terrence.

I took in a deep breath and said, "Hello."

"Hey, Adriana. Is everything okay?"

"Yes. Why, does it sound like something is wrong?"

"Well, the way you left out of my office today I just thought that maybe my cousin hit a soft spot. I know how you get when the L word comes up."

"Yes, her question did bring up some feelings, but I'm okay. I'm sorry that I ran out so fast, but that subject just touches me in a way that I don't want to be touched." I said as I picked up some milk and placed it in my shopping cart.

"Yeah, I kind of figured that."

"I'm Okay. It was just upsetting at the time. I do appreciate you calling and checking up on me. I told you that you don't need to try and fix the mess that your friend has made."

"I know, but you are my friend also, and I care about you. So, don't think of it as trying to fix something that one friend did. Think of it as trying to help a friend through a rough time."

"Thank you. I really needed to hear that."
"Don't mention it. Like I said before, I am here for you. Don't hesitate to call if you need me."

"Okay, I will," I said as I wiped a tear that had fallen from my eye.

"I have to get back to work. My first day has really turned out to be very impressive."

"I am really happy for you. I'll talk to you later." after I hung up. I put my phone back in my purse and continued to shop. When I finally returned home, I packed the groceries and started dinner. I finished prepping dinner around two, and it was time to pick up Little L, school dismissed at two thirty. I arrived a little early, so I decided to look at one of my shows on my tablet. Before I could turn on my tablet, my cell phone rang, again. It was Lamar. I was getting a little better at checking my ID now. I didn't answer it, because Right now I was upset with him all over again. Not five seconds later, my passenger door opened I looked up and it was Lamar.

"Why didn't you answer my call?" looking as if someone had told him his puppy died.

"Oh, did you call me? I guess I didn't hear the phone ring." then I picked up my phone and said "Oh I do see that you called. I guess I didn't hear it. Sometimes I forget to take it off silent." I said as I put this phony smile on my face. Seeing him was hard.

"Well, you might not have heard your phone, but I definitely know that you saw it." he said with a mean tone to his voice. "I was standing Right over there and saw you pick the phone up look at it, and put it back down."

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. Please forgive me." I said as I rolled my eyes. "What...do you want, Lamar?"

"I want you. I want my family back. You know what I want."

I shook my head, turned, and looked out my driver's side window. "Hump, here? You want to do this here?" I guess it was a smart move on his part he knew that I wouldn't act a fool in front of the school.

"Listen, I know that you are hurting, but I promise you I never told Crystal where we lived. I would never be as foolish as to show some woman where my family lived. Do you think I ever wanted you to hurt? I love you too much." He sat down inside the car. "Can I sit?"

I turned around and then said, "Sure." He really looked sincere in what he was saying, and he was just so damn sexy. I didn't understand why I was so weak when it came to him. I moved my purse from off the passenger side seat so he could have a full seat and placed it in the back. "I don't see how you think that this will make me feel any better. You still cheated on me, and because you never told her where we lived doesn't give you brownie points."

"I know what I did was asinine, and I hurt you, and that is something that you might not think that you could forgive. That is exactly why I didn't press the issue when you wouldn't talk to me. I wanted to give you time to cool down. My judgment may not have been the best, and I know that it was foolish, not to mention childish, the way that I broke it off with you. I want you to know nothing has changed since I last saw you. I still love you and know that you are the woman for me. That thing between Crystal and me, it was just...I don't know what was wrong with me, but if you can find it in your heart to forgive me, I know that I could be happy like we used to be." He said as he placed his hand on my leg and gently rubbed my thigh.

Oh, my goodness, he knew exactly what he was doing. He knew that every time he touched my inner leg, I was instantly wet. If we weren't in front of our child's school, I would have jumped on him and ridden him like I was in the Kentucky Derby. I moved his hand and said, "It sounds good and all, Lamar, but you have to put yourself in my shoes. What would you have done if you were in my shoes?" then tears came to my eyes, not because I was hurting but because I was yet again falling deep into the bullshit that for some reason everyone could smell except for me.

"I know that if the shoe were on the other foot, I would probably never be able to forgive you. You always allow room for an era, and that is one of the reasons why I love you so much. You are a better person than me. When I am with you, you make me a better person."

" I don't know, Lamar ..." I couldn't get finish my sentence because Little L came running to the car.

"Dad, Dad." Little L is always so excited when it came to his dad. It didn't matter if he had just seen his dad fifteen minutes ago. The reaction still would have been the same.

"Hey, how was school?" he said as he hugged him.

"It was great. Am I going with you, Dad?" he asked with excitement. Then he climbed into the back of the car.

"Awh, no, not right now, buddy, but I do want to ask you and your mom a question. I just wanted to know if your mom would still spend Thanksgiving with my family this year. Given the circumstances, I just wanted to run it past you guys to see what you think?"

"Please, mom, can we go with Dad, please?" he grabbed me and started kissing me all over my face.

How could I say no to that? I can't believe that he put me on the spot like that. "Okay, okay, you can go with Dad for Thanksgiving. I'm not going to go through."

"Actually, I thought that maybe we could spend his vacation together at my parents?"

"Please, mom, please?"

I can't believe he put me on the spot like that. I didn't want to disappoint my baby, so I said, "I tell you what. Mom will let you go with Dad. You can bring your bag to school on that day. Then your dad can drop you off at the house on that Sunday."

Doesn't that sound great?" he looked back at Little L.

"Mom, you're not coming?"

"Honey, I have to think about it. We will see when the time comes."