Awake My Soul - Ereri

Chapter 30 - I Still Get Jealous

Levi didn't particularly feel like talking to any of his friends today, he was in a bad mood and everybody just seemed to get on his nerves. He sat there, fists clenched, his jaw still hurt like hell, even though it had already been almost a week since Eren had hit him. That little shit. Levi wasn't paying attention to conversation but looked up when he noticed Erwin walking angrily toward the table. And it seemed to be directed at Levi. Erwin's hands slammed down on the table as he reached it.

"Why the fuck did you break up with Eren?" He demanded.

"What! Why?" Petra and Hanji responded in unison. Levi groaned and ran his hand through his hair.

"Thanks dickhead." He muttered to Erwin, "How do you even know that?"

"Mikasa told me. Why the fuck?" Erwin broke off unable to understand what exactly was going on.

"I got bored." Levi shrugged; he wasn't in the mood for conversation.

"What bullshit!" Petra yelled. It was hardly ever that Petra cussed, so her colourful choice of words led Levi to believe that she was furious, that and her furious expression. Levi just sighed. "Why don't you tell us the real reason you broke up with him?" Levi scoffed at Petra's words and turned away.

"You know what I bet it was because you fell in love with him wasn't it. You fell in love and got too scared and ran away leaving that poor boy alone and hurt, just like the coward you are."

"Shut up, Petra." Levi said emotionless.

"No you shut up. Tell me what part of what I just said was wrong?" she questioned, "Huh? That's what I thought."

"I'm not really in the mood for a lecture." He acted bored, pretending like he wasn't extremely hurt and uncomfortable right now.

"Stop with that emotionless shit you pull Levi, hasn't it already gotten you into enough trouble?" Levi sighed.

"I did it to protect myself." He muttered.

"What? From Eren? When has he ever hurt you more than you hurt him?" Levi stayed silent. "I get that you're scared but there's a line where your fears start hurting others, where you start imposing your fears onto other people, and you crossed that. You crossed that line, set off the bomb and left Eren alone in the rubble. I'm sorry Levi, I love you to pieces but I can't support you on this one." She stood up abruptly and stormed off, throwing her satchel over her shoulder. Levi watched her go, saw as she tucked her hair behind her ear and shook her head. He looked to Erwin when he spoke.

"I can't even begin to comprehend what the hell goes on inside your head, but I'm with Petra. You should see what you've done to the kid Levi, he looks terrible. Mikasa tells me he isn't sleeping, isn't eating. He's a mess almost as much as you are." Erwin gripped his shoulder and walked away too, following after Petra. Only Hanji still sat there, staring at Levi fiercely. Levi ran his hand through his hair and sighed.

"I fucked up big time, didn't I?" Levi asked her. She pushed her glasses on top of her head and rubbed her eyes, before staring at him. She sighed and he thought that it was the most serious Levi had ever seen Hanji in his entire life.

"Yeah Levi, you did." Levi groaned and rested his head on his arms. He heard her shuffle around and the sound of paper.

"Well good news is that now's the opportune time to tell you my new theory." Levi groaned again, but louder this time.

When Levi had gotten into class he sat down with the group for their project. Petra wasn't speaking to him and Mikasa's eyes were shooting daggers. She didn't say anything though, probably because Eren had asked her not to. But she was mad, bubbling away under the surface. The two girls spoke to each other about the project, completely cutting Levi out. After about ten minutes he stood up and walked out of the classroom, ignoring the teacher telling him to come back. When he got out he sighed and sat at a table. He sat there, looking at the sky. His back was against the edge of the table with his elbows resting on top of it. He'd made a mistake, a terrible one. Petra had always been supportive of his choices in relationships until this moment. It was different with Eren. Everything was different with Eren. When Levi usually broke up with someone they'd pine after him, beg for him back. It was annoying. But Eren hadn't pined after him, hadn't begged for his love, but it was the first time Levi wished someone had.