HIS VICIOUS LOVE

regret

Melodious voices of chirping birds pierced in his ears making him groan in frustration.his sleep was not completed yet.he wanted to sleep more . Turning on other side frustratingly he grabbed the pillow and placed on his ears in order to restrict those voices piercing in his ears.

Jungkook was trying to sleep  those Melichrous harmony of birds seemed like Callous noices to his ears .he couldn't sleep.  Groaning in anger in threw that  pillow somewhere in the bedroom and got up in  frustration.

He rubbed  his hands on his face in order to get the ris of his sleep . Just he was accustomed in these past few months .a morning coffee in his hand after he woke up . He threw his order to his wife . 

" Get my coffee Emma"

Getting no response. His eyes darted to scan his whole room and he remembered he was not in his home, he was in Switzerland with his wife. How could she get him coffee here. He was still in his drowsy state. Unintentionally his eyes fell on his other side of bed and he found that bedsheet was crumbled and there were small  stains of boll . He wondered whoes blood stains could be there? He was not hurt or feeling hurt anywhere.just then his widened in horror whe memories of last night flashed in front his eyes.in speed of light.  

Horror struk on his face when he recalled how brutally he was doing that inhuman act to her. How brutally he had forced himself on her . How cruely he raped her. Tears accumulated in his profoundly.his face paled.no…no he couldn't do something like this .no it wasn't him. He was not that monster.He clutched his head with his both hands in tight grip and shook his head aggresively tears stained his cheeks while flowing down his eyes.

" No…no i can't do something like this.it wasn't me . I'm not monster .i…i can't force myself on her..no ..no ..no"

' NNNNOOOOOOOO "

 He screamed in agony . It was hard to believe him that he raped his own wife. He did that inhuman act because he was fucking drunk and not in his senses but that doesn't give him any right to violate her like this .but in few minutes he composed himself  and his teary eyes again fell on those stained sheet and again tears made its way in his eyes. How could he do this to her ? He sobbed while sitting on his bed.

And her  thought crossed his mind.she was not beside him . nor she could be seen in the bedroom. Where was she ? He needed to find her . He needed to apologise to her for doing that irrational thing to her. He would beg for her forgiveness . whatever he did in his Inebriated state was not .he shouldn't have crossed his limits. He hurriedly got up from his bed . And called her name .

" E….E…MMA " 

His voice was shaking.with what mouth he would call her name. She would be broken completely . She would resent him no she would hate him more now. With what face he would face her now. How could he even stand in front of her.  

By not getting response. His mind concluded that she would be in the bathroom..she must have locked herself there . He thought. With his trembling legs he walked in the direction of bedroom and stood in front of the door.he called her name again.

'" E.. Emma are you there inside?'

He asked while standing outside . but got no response. Slowly he extended his shaking hand and knocked on the door but when he knocked the door opened slightly indicating the door wasn't locked . Without thinking anything he entered inside the bathroom only to find it vacant. His eyes roamed all over the place.shw was not in there too. Then where she  would be ?

Negetive thoughts crossed his mind . What if she left him ? What if she tried to do something to herself.? What is she again tried to take her life? He Knew how sensitive she was . She could do anything to herself. And here he had forced himself on her . How could he thik that she would present in the same room as him . After he forced himself on her. He shook his violently . Trying to shrugg of those negetive thoughts.

" N..no no she can't harm herself. She would be fine .She has to be fine. She  must have gone somewhere . I've to find her. I have to apologise her. I will do anything to get her forgiveness. "

  

" P.. please b…be .s.. safe Emma" 

" I will kill myself if anything happens to you .  I will not able to forgive myself Please forgive me.. this. ..is not me."

He broke down completely in tears.not even in his dreams he wanted something like this to happen. Composing himself.he thought to call her . He immediately grabbed his phone.and dialled her number. And Within seconds his bedroom was resonated with her ringtone. She left her phone here.

Now how would he find her? Where she would be ? He didn't even know if she was  safe or not . Or she had already done that irrational thing with her . Without thinking anything he immediately grabbed his shirt pants he wore them and went outside to search her..

He booked a can and was searching her everywhere. Every street and lane he was screaming her name in vulnerable state. From morning till night he was searching her madly . tears didn't leave his eyes .he was crying badly.

When suddenly he remembered. Trackers. He had installed the tracker in her necklace.how could he forget about that . His face glowed in relief when he found that he could track her and find her. He must have forgotten about it in all these.he immediately opened his mobile and traced her whereabouts. And the tracker was pointing it's red dot  location of river three.

All the negative thoughts clouded his mind. What was she doing there? Did she ,?  Even the thought of it made his blood run down cold.his breathing stop . All the colours on his face fell . thinking about it .he immediately told driver the location and Went three. His heart was beating faster in his chest. He wanted her safe at all costs..he prayed internally.

" God please keep her safe. I will bear her every punishment.she can punish me however she wants .i won't say a single word.but please keep her safe ."

At that moment the words of suga resonated in his mind.

" You lost completely when you're angry jungkook. "

" You should control your anger"

" It is,  you  see complete red when it comes to lia "

His each word was true . He lost his control when he is angry.but he never thought that his anger would turn him monster one day .he was regretting badly.