HIS VICIOUS LOVE

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Emma

Whatever happened in this last week seemed unrealistic and impossible . I never thought my life would change like this . Nor did I think that I would experience that horrible thing that no girl in this world would want to experience . I would get raped and that too by my own husband. Though I never considered him as my husband.buy he could have at least respected that relation . He could have respected the sacred bond of marriage before forcing himself on me. The marks he had imprinted on my body would always remind me of that horrible act. Even if the marks on my body will fade with time but the fear , the hate he had imprinted in my soul, my mind would never fade . It will always remind me of his tortures. After that incident i am suffering from very dreadful nightmares. Every night when i try to sleep i couldn't help but get scared with the feeling of anytime he would reach here and take me with him again. I couldn't even sleep peacefully since last week . And when the sleep consumes me that incident stars clouding in my mind resulting in my nightmare. I wake up with sweat and tears in eyes. How i wish that someone could hold me at that time , someone who would console me , who would molify me but knowing I'm alone here it makes me feel cry that no one is here with me in my worst time .how i wish that i would be sleeping beside Hannah who would hold me tight and comfort me. All this happening to me because of only one person.

I would never forgive him for this. Never ever! He made my life hell in those days. And for what ? The crime which I never committed. The thing which I didn't do . I don't know what enmity Lia had with me when she filled Jungkook's ears . She instigated him . I hope he will learn the truth soon . I hope he will realize his mistakes and regret everything.

And i Know he will . Because in the end the truth will come out. After all, until when the truth would remain hidden. It has to unfold one day.

I sincerely thank taehyung for helping me..i Never thought that he would be the person who will help me. As I knew he hated me in the past . I don't know what made him hate me . But I think now he doesn't feel the same towards me. I will never forget his kindness. He helped me to get away from Jungkook without his knowing. He helped me to escape from that country. It's been weak since he left me here . He also informed me that my family is safe .

Staying in this place was also his idea. He insisted that I stay here. As I just wanted him to help me get out of Switzerland and then i would have managed myself.but he insisted that i should stay here. In this new country . He told me that I will be safe here. I really appreciate his efforts. After that I never saw him. He just handed me some money that would help me to survive. He also told me that he would send me more money if I want in future but refused him . I don't want to rely on him for everything. I'm searching for jobs here and it's quite difficult to get a job without any certification as all the documents are at my parents house. Until then I would have to search for smaller jobs here. I hope soon I will get a job. I miss my parents , I will contact them soon i Know the jungkook would have reached Seoul by now and everyone would know about my sudden disappearance. I know the news must have reached my parents and they must be worried about me. I don't want them to worry about me and feel dejected. Hence i will tell them everything , what jungkook did to me and how i ended up here.

Well this place is a small village in Denmark. Taehyung had chosen this place as it is a very safe place . With not much population . Friendly people and great ambiance. This Village is very systematic and tidy. And full of nature . I really felt peace here. Taehyung told me if I feel any difficulty in adjusting here. He would find some other place for me. But I don't think this will happen. I am already in love with this place .

Jungkook

It's been week since Emma left me. It's been weak i have been searching for her but not a single news about her is getting. My mind is not working properly these days all i could think about is her. I hope she is safe . Nothing would have happened to her. I miss her . I miss her so much . In those past six months i was entirely dependent on her for smaller things . Everday when i wake up i call her name for coffee. It was my habit to order coffee immediately when i wake up . And when i get no response i come out of my bubble that she is not with me now . She has left me ..

I know she must be happy whenever she is . Afterall which woman would want to live with the person who has tortured her. Who has forced himself on her. I still hope that some miracle will happen and Emma would be right in front of me . I don't know why but i don't want to live away from her. This one week was life a torture for me without her. I don't know what magic she has done on me that i still want her in my life . I know it's very selfish of me and very absurd but this is how i feel.

I know she wouldn't even see my face if i came in front of her after what I did to her . But if by any chance i find her i will not let her go away from me . I will do anything that will make her forgive me. She can punish me however she wants. I won't utter a single word but she will have to be with me.

I've attached to her in these past months and this attachment was growing into something new feeling in last few days . The feeling which was new to me .it's was very hard to fantom but i only know that the feeling was so good and i wanted to experience more of it.but to my bad luck all these things had to happen. I really regret forcing myself on her . I know I'm not a good person. I myself never thought that this rage of mine would turn me into a beast that i would end up raping my own wife.

Rape! even the pronounciation of this word fill my inside with rage. I always hated those people who take advantage of helpless girls. who would do this horrible act on them . But now I'm not any different from them. I'm one of them now . Who raped his wife .

Everything changed in this week my parents stopped talking to me . My mom does not even look at my direction.and it hurts Alot.. seeing her hartred towards me hurt alot . Even neon stopped talking with me completely.

And my hyung's the news somehow reached to them too. Jin was highly disappointed on me . He aslo beat me the day when neon told them everything. And i know i deserved his beating. And for rest of my hyung's they are even ashamed to call me their little brother. I deserve everything. I deserve everything that is happening to me afterall i myself responsible for all this. I was thier pride. But i with my own hand crushed thier pride. And nothing will change now .

I will have to live my life this untill Emma comes in my life again . I know only she can do Everything right. It Emma forgive me then i would not be hard get everyone's forgiveness.