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21, Remind Me Of Gravity

TWENTY TWO: Remind Me Of Gravity

Can you remind me of gravity 
Because when I’m with you
The law of gravity have no authority
I'm on cloud nine when you touch me
Hands of fire yet I let you burn me
Willing participant to my own demise 
It’s like I can’t see with my own eyes
Blind as a bat I let you guide me
Please don’t let this decision define me.  

CHEYENNE AMORE MARTIN

I haven’t talked to Chantel or anyone who was related to me for a few days. I wanted to distract myself from what happened. I already cried and had every kind of breakdown possible because of it. So, I was going to the Darling Valentina Waltz even though I wasn’t up for it. 

I deserved to get out of my dorm and I would never stand Austin up like that. 

I didn’t tell anyone what happened. I didn't like telling my friends about my family or anything like that. I didn’t want them to take pity on me.

Those letters kept coming through from some insurance company saything that I owed them money. I forwarded it back home because I am not in debt. 

I wanted to be stress free. 

I had just taken a hot shower with some of the best smelling soaps I brought with Aubree the other day and was in a temporary outfit that included a tank top and a pair of shorts. I had washed off all the sweat and tears. I was ready to focus on what I was going to do tonight. 

Tonight I wanted to treat myself as if I was deserving and I was. I always focused on everyone else and never myself. 

Yvette just got finished blowing out my hair and was currently flat ironing it. “I hope Austin likes being extra because the outfit I designed for him is.” Yvette says as she gives my ends a little bump as a joke. 

I laugh at her foolishness as I stare at the dress looking back at me. Yvette was a designer but couldn’t sew, Vivenne could sew but didn’t have any designs so they collaborated on this dress and suit for me and Austin. 

I thought it was a genius idea that the whole matching outfit had all different kinds of heart imprints. I didn’t know what Austin’s outfit looked like yet but I knew mine was going to turn heads. 

The dress was vermilion satin with a low square neck and showed a bit of chest area. The dress also went all the way down to my knees. They had to modify it since I never liked short dresses. The satin was soft but I could tell it was going to be very tight and showed every curve I have.

The dress also showed my back. I didn't like that. To solve the problem Vivienne and Yvette added a long trench coat that was made of soft fabric. I added big heart earrings to match along with a red purse I had. 

When Yvette was done with my hair I put on the dress and got into the conversation everyone was invested in. “Kyle was fucking crazy, he always had these side conversations on the phone as if he was someone important. Sex was mind blowing so he wasn’t that bad.” Vivienne was telling us about how Kyle, her ex boyfriend was during their relationship and so was everyone else. 

“Sounds like Love describing Joe.” Yvette mumbled not thinking about who could hear her. 

I sat quietly listening to the funny, crazy, or sad stories about the girls' ex's and overall I came up with about seven new Taylor Swift songs off the top of my head. 

We were over the topic of ex’s and the new topic was current relationships. Yvette was seeing Eduardo. I wasn’t surprised because they both had outgoing personalities and probably tested each other a lot.