Love to Hate You

Chapter 28

JASPER'S POV
I decided to surprise Ezra with a visit. I really missed him. I reach his street with a smile on my face but that smile fades instantly. It feels like my heart has been ripped out of my chest. I park my car haphazardly and jump out of my car. My only thought is to remove that fucker's lips off of my boyfriend.
"Get the fuck away from him!!!" I scream angrily, pulling Liam away from Ezra. He stumbles back but I won't let him get away. I grip his collar with my left hand and punch him in the face with my right hand.
"Jasper!!" Ezra shouts but I don't hear him.
I punch Liam in the face again and he falls to the ground but I don't stop. I straddle him on the ground and punch him some more. His nose is bleeding, his lip is busted and his eye is closing but I don't care.
"Jasper, stop!! You're killing him!!" Ezra pleads and pulls me off of Liam. Now my focus is on Ezra. The pain is seeping in my chest.
Looking into his brown, worried eyes, all I can feel is betrayal.
"How could you, huh?!" I shout in his face and shove him away from me. He stumbles backwards but remains standing.
"Jasper, let me explain." He begs, his hands still trying to reach for me.
"I saw you, Ezra!! I saw you eating his goddamn face!! Just friends?! You fucking liar!!" My eyes watered. I won't cry though. He won't get to see me cry. I won't give him the satisfaction.
"Baby, please!! I love you!!" He had the audacity to say. His stupid beautiful face stained with tears.
"We're over, Ezra!! We're done!!" I shouted in his face.
"No! Wait, You don't mean that! Take it back! Don't go! Let's talk! Baby, let's talk! Please!" He begged. I stormed off to my car. I start it up and hit the gas, the tires screeching. This can't be happening. I must be dreaming, right?? But I knew it was all too real. I subconsciously drove all the way to Emilia's house. I banged on the door. My lungs felt like they couldn't breathe. Please, open the door. Please. A few seconds later, she opens the door and I couldn't help myself. I fall to my knees and hug her torso. Sobbing hysterically. She's stunned at first but then hugs me back.
"Jasper, what happened?? Oh my god. Honey, what's wrong??" She said. I couldn't speak. I just cried as I clinged to her body. She helped me rise to my feet and closed the door. She grabbed my hand and guided me to her couch. Sitting beside me, her small hands wiped away my tears.
"What happened??" She asked softly.
"Ezra...Ezra, he...he cheated on me." I said and whole set of fresh tears poured out of me again.
"I'm so sorry, honey." She said with a frown. I laid my head on her lap.
"I broke up with him." I whispered.
"It's ok. I'm here. I'll hold you. I'm right here. I won't let go." She whispered back, her fingers caressing my hair. I felt safe with her. She isn't judging me.
"Thank you." I closed my eyes and cried silently. Awhile later, I fell asleep.
When I wake up, I have a headache from all the crying. I'm still on Emilia's lap. I look up at her face, she's asleep. I sit up and check my phone. Thirty missed calls. All from Ezra. I don't bother calling him back. Emmie wakes up. An adorable yawn escapes her mouth.
"I'm sorry I fell asleep on you." I said. She just smiles and waves it off.
"I said I wouldn't let go." She said.
"Thank you." I said, sheepishly.
                            EZRA'S POV
I have grown to really hate hospitals but here I am, sitting in a room with Liam. His nose has stopped bleeding but he looks fucked up. Jasper really did a number to his face. I can't believe he broke up with me. Well, actually I can believe it. He caught me in the worst situation and he had every right to be angry. I just hope Liam doesn't press charges against him for assault and battery. That would really be the icing on the cake. I have called so many times. He won't answer his phone.
"Are you going to talk to me??" Liam said.
"No." I replied.
"My face hurts but it was worth it." He said. I look at him and frown.
"None of this was worth it." I seethed.
"You're just angry because you admitted you have feelings for two people."
"No. I'm angry because you fucked with my relationship even though I told you that I don't want you." I said, the frustration clear in my tone. He chuckles. I look at him incredulously. What the fuck is so funny??
"The way you kissed me back begs to differ. You wanted me then. How far would we have gone, if we weren't interrupted??"
"I was going to push you away. I just didn't get the chance. Jasper ripped us apart before I could." I replied, bitterly. He laughs.
"Bullshit. You had your tongue in my mouth. Why are you trying so hard to deny it?? I get that you're angry because he broke up with you. That was never my intention and I'm sorry about that but denying what we both know is true just makes you look stupid and you are not stupid. So, why deny it??" He said. My heart started pounding in my chest. I couldn't look at him. I'm really just angry with myself. I broke Jasper's heart. That's my fault. No one else's. I wasn't thinking when I kissed Liam back.
"I wanted you for like a split second. Kissing you was great but not for the price it cost me. I will never want you the way that I want Jasper. I would fuck you. I wouldn't marry you. But I'm not the kind of man to have meaningless sex. You and I will never happen, Liam." I said. The words heavy on my tongue.
"It wouldn't be meaningless. You care about me and I care about you. I mean you're sitting in a hospital with me." He smirks. Before I could reply, a nurse walks into the room followed by the doctor.
"Hello, I'm Dr.Kim and this is Nurse Abigail. What brings you in today??" The man in scrubs said. I thought doctors were supposed to be smart.
"His face, obviously." I said. Liam chuckles.
"I tripped into a fist. I'm very clumsy." He said.
"Well, let's take a look there." The doctor says and begins to feel around Liam's nose. He winces.
"It's not broken. So, that's good news. Did you lose consciousness??"
"No."
"Alright. Well, I can give you something for the pain and an ice pack for the swelling. Then you should be good to go."
That's it?? No Xrays or tests?? Really?? I'm flabbergasted. I could have done that at home. Such a waste of time.
"Thank you, doctor." Liam said.
"Be more careful about tripping into fists. It could be fatal next time. Have a good day gentlemen." Dr.kim leaves the room and the nurse hands Liam ibuprofen with a cup of water. He swallows it and hands her back the cup.
"I'll be right back with the ice pack and discharge papers." The nurse politely said and then exits the room. I look at Liam and he looks at me. He smiles like he knows what I'm thinking. I bet he does know. My facial expressions should say it all.
"Let's get out of here and go back to your place." He said, while getting up from gurney.
"My place??" I questioned.
"I can't go home looking like this and we still need to talk."
"Alright. Let's go." I sigh. We leave the room and walk down the hall to the elevators.
I push the button with an arrow pointing down. We silently wait for the elevator doors to open. I pull my phone out from my pocket and try to call Jasper again. It rings and rings then goes to voicemail. I don't know what I would even say but I know I'd beg for forgiveness. I want him back. I miss him. I don't feel whole without him. Ding!! The elevator doors open and we step in. I push the ground button. The doors close. I glance at Liam and he looks...uncomfortable??
"This might be a stupid question but are you ok??" I ask.
"I don't do well in elevators. I have a fear of getting stuck." He explains with his eyes closed.
"Shit. Why didn't you say anything?? We could have taken the stairs."
"I'm a grown man. I can handle taking the fucking elevator." He snapped.
"Right. That's why you're having a panic attack. Hold my hand and breathe." He places his shakey hands in mine and tries to breathe evenly.
"Ok. I'm freaking out, Ezra. I'm freaking the fuck out." He squeezes my hand tight.
"Hey!! Look at me. Focus on me, ok??"
He nods his head and looks into my eyes. I take in his beat up face. A black eye, busted lip and slight bruising around his nose but he's still attractive. Ding!! The elevator doors open. I break eye contact first and pull Liam out of the elevator with me. His hand is warm and I hold onto it all the way to his car. I let go and open the driver's side door. Liam sits in the passenger seat. I start up the car and drive home. I'm so ready for today to be over. I park the car and head out to the apartment building. Avoiding the elevators and going straight for the stairs. Liam follows me. We get to my apartment door and we enter.
"Do you want some water or anything??" I break the silence.
"No. I just want to talk." He said, taking a seat on my couch.
"Ok. Go ahead." I sit next to him.
"First of all, can we agree to be honest with each other??"
"Sure. I'll be honest." I said. I mean what could go wrong?? I already lost Jasper. He won't even pick up my calls.
"Do you have feelings for me??" He asks. Shit.
"I love Jasper."
"Ezra.."
"I care about you. I valued your friendship." I sigh, feeling frustrated. He smiles. I glare at him.
"Was your plan to break us up?? Did you want Jasper to break up with me??" I asked.
"No! I would never do that to you. I would have happily shared you with him. Not that I think you're a two timer or something like that. I just mean... I'm gonna shut up now." He said, fidgeting with his fingers. A blush on his cheeks.
"Yeah, that wouldn't have happened. I belong to Jasper. I wouldn't have given myself away to anyone else." I stated. He arched an eyebrow.
"Ezra, you did give yourself away. The moment you kissed me back, you gave yourself to me."
"That was a mistake." I shot back. He nods his head slowly.
"Fuck you, Ezra." He gets up and runs his hands through his long hair. I was taken aback.
"Excuse me??" I scoff. He turns around and cages me in with his arms.
"I said FUCK YOU. You are so full of shit. You forget that I know you. I know when you lie. News flash, you're a shitty liar, Ezra."
"It was a mistake!! I lost Jasper because of you!!"
"I don't give a fuck about Jasper. He's rude, conceited, selfish and throws temper tantrums like a child. Frankly, I don't know what the fuck you see in him. He looks like a basic bitch and he should be jealous of me. You know why?? Because he doesn't have all of you. A piece of you belongs to me. You can hate it all you want. That's the truth. You're attracted to me, you have feelings for me, you enjoyed that kiss and now you're angry because I'm right. I was just the only one with the balls to act on it. Now what do you have to say, huh?? Going to deny it??" He ranted, his face an inch away from mine. I scowl.
"Fuck you!! Don't you ever disrespect Jasper!! The only one green with envy is you because you can't have me!!" I shouted.
"Oh, is that right??"
"Yes!! Ye-" he shut me up with his lips on mine. The kiss was rough and fueled by anger. I shoved him off of me.
"Stop kissing me!!"
"Stop kissing me back!!"
"I don't want you!! I'm in love with Jasper!! I'M IN LOVE WITH JASPER!! I want Jasper's lips!! I want Jasper's arms!! I want Jasper's dick!! I want Jasper!! He is the only one I will ever want!! My heart belongs to Jasper!!" I screamed, as tears fell from my eyes.
"If that were true, you wouldn't kiss me back, Ezra. The lies you tell taste bittersweet and if I didn't know you so well, I would have believed them. But I'm done arguing now. I don't like seeing you cry." He said, calmly. I get up from the couch and storm off to my bedroom. I slam the door shut. I pull out my phone and call Jasper again. He doesn't answer. I call twenty more times. No answer. Fuck. I messed up. I ruined everything. I broke his heart and now he doesn't want me. I should have listened. I should have stopped being friends with Liam the moment it became a problem in Jasper's eyes. If I could just go back in time and change everything. The tears run down my face. I lost Jasper...my heart and soul... I lost everything.