Love to Hate You

Chapter 16

EZRA'S POV
I'm not sure what to think right now. I knew that girl wanted to fuck Jasper. Would he cheat on me?? Am I enough for a player like him?? Can I even believe anything he says to me?? I really wish I could smoke right now but I still value the promises I made to him.
"Ezra?? Babe.. are you here??" He sounds like he's shitting bricks.
"In the kitchen."
He quickly rushes over to me and gives me a tight hug. I slowly wrap my arms around him.
"I thought you left." He seemed genuinely afraid of losing me. Like what I thought about the situation actually mattered to him.
"I thought about it but I wanted to hear you out like the adult that I am." I said, letting him go. What I saw next broke something inside of me.
"I already explained it to you, E. I was just trying to take a drunk girl home safe and she attacked me."
"Is that why you have lipstick all over your mouth and your pants are unbuttoned??"
His hands shot up to his face and wiped his mouth. His fingers were stained red. His eyes went wide with the realization.
"I'm sorry, Ezra!!" He panicked. I quickly got up to leave.
"Ezra, wait!! Don't leave, please!! Wait!! It's not what you think, I swear!! She attacked me!!"
I stopped in my tracks at the sound of his desperation. He couldn't have cheated on me, right?? His story sounds like bullshit though.
"Did you fuck her, Jasper??"
He grabs my hand and turns me around to face him.
"No!! I didn't fuck her, E. She asked for help to get inside. Then she threw herself at me. Yes, she kissed me but I pushed her off of me. Then you called and I told you everything."
He cups my face in his hands and rests his forehead on mine. There was silence for awhile.
"Ok. I believe you." I finally said. He tries to kiss me but I stopped him.
"Wipe that shit off of your face first."
He doesn't even hesitate. He runs to the bathroom to wash his face. In the meantime, I began to cook some pasta.
He wrapped his arms from behind me and slowly kissed my neck.
"I've been meaning to ask you something." He says against my skin.
"What is it??" I said.
"Want to be my plus one to my sister's wedding??"
I turned to face him and wrap my arms around his neck.
"Are you asking me to meet your family??" I smirked.
"Yes. Is that ok??"
"I'd love to be your plus one, Jas but I don't think that's the best time to come out the closet. Stealing the bride's thunder is frowned upon."
He buries his face in the crook of my neck and hums.
"You will tell someone eventually, right?? I don't want to be hidden."
I could feel how uncomfortable the topic made Jasper but he needs to know that I won't stay his secret forever. I want everyone to know that I'm taken. That I have a boyfriend who I love. Even if he doesn't know it yet. I don't want to have to think twice about where we go together or who sees us holding hands.
"I will. One day. Just not yet, E. I need time." He said.
"Alright. Well, I want to take you out on a date."
Jasper quickly picked up his head and stood straight. "A date??"
"Don't act so surprised. Of course, I want to take you out on a date. Might even buy you flowers too." I smiled at the thought.
"That's the girliest shit I've ever heard you say." He laughed.
"What?! It's romantic. You're gonna love the hell out of those flowers."
"Alright but no roses. I'm not a chick." He said with a smile on his face. I was elated to hear him agree to a date. I kissed his beautiful face, starting with his forehead and ending with his lips. I was trying to be affectionate but of course, Jasper made it sexual. Picking me up with his strong arms. Which actually surprised me.
"Where are you taking me?? The food is going to burn!!"
"Who cares?! I'm only hungry for you." He laughs. The night was spent touching each other until we both were too tired and fell asleep.

The next morning, I woke up naked in his bed. I could hear the shower running. I got up and walked over to the bathroom to join him. I caught him in the middle of masturbating though. So instead I leaned on the door frame with my arms folded against my chest.
"Please, tell me you're thinking of me in there." I said, scaring the shit out of him.
"Jesus fucking christ, Ezra!!"
"Well, don't stop. I was enjoying the show." I teased.
"Privacy, E!!"
"You left the door wide open. You practically invited me in here."
"Ugghhh, did you need something or what??" His tone was heavy with annoyance but it only made me laugh more.
"You'd think you've had enough after last night but since you want more, I'm ready to please. So should I bend over in there or should I wait for you in bed??"
Jasper's mouth fell open with shock. His eyes glazed over with lust. This would be the first time we've ever gone all the way. Something just felt right about doing it now.
"Well, what are you waiting for?! Get your ass in here." He grinned like a schoolboy.
I knew he couldn't say no to me. I slide the shower door open, walk in and close it behind me. Wasting no time, he makes out with me and firmly grips my dick in his hand. I can never get enough of him. The way he feels against my skin sends shivers down my spine and fire through my veins. I close my hand around his dick and jerk him off. He moans as he bites my lower lip softly. The sounds of his pleasure like a siren's song.
"Stick it in, baby." I turn around and mentally prepare myself for the pleasurable pain. Jasper spreads my ass cheeks and angles the head of his penis against my hole. Slowly putting pressure until he enters my body. He moves at a slow steady pace, sliding in inch by inch until all of him stretches the walls of my ass.
"Fuck, babe. You're so fucking tight. I'm trying my best not to hurt you." He says against my ear.
"Rip me a new one. I don't give a damn. Just fuck me, Jas."
Not needing anymore convincing. He rocks his hips hard and fast. Moving in and out as he sinks his nails into my hips.
"You feel so good. So fucking good, E."
"Harder. Fuck me harder."
The sensation was euphoric and it was amplified by my feelings for him. Everything felt just right as he talked dirty in my ear.
"You love my cock in your pretty little ass, huh?!"
"Yes!!" I moaned as he dived deeper.
"Tell me you love me." He said.
Without thinking about it. I said the words.
"I love you, Jasper. I really fucking love you."
I closed my eyes as the high of being fucked so good took over my body.
"I'm so close, E. Say it again."
"I love you, baby. Come for me."
With a few more thrusts and grunts, he came inside of me as I came all over the wall. Weak at the knees, Jasper pulls out and sits down under the running water. I straddle him on the shower floor and kiss him with everything I've got. He pulls away and we stand up. Washing up quickly. Turning off the water, he has this odd look on his face.
"Did you mean it??" He questions me.
"Every damn word. I've known for awhile." I said honestly.
"How long??"
"Since the moment I saw you at the coffee shop."
He frowns and steps out of the shower. I follow close behind.
"Bullshit. You didn't even know me then."
I couldn't understand why he was getting upset. I've never lied to him but somehow it was hard for him to believe that I could love him at first sight.
"I didn't have to know you. I just knew. It just clicked." I explained.
"Ezra, if you said it in the heat of the moment, it's fine. Just don't fucking lie to me."
Something about those words just rubbed me the wrong way and I was trying really hard not to snap at him.
"I consider myself a really calm guy but you are really pushing my buttons right now, Jas. I would never lie to you about something so damn important. I love you and now that I've finally said it, I'm not going to stop saying it because I mean every damn word. The day you walked in at that coffee shop, I couldn't get my eyes off of you. I was 100% sure that I never wanted to lay eyes on anyone else ever again. I was in love with you since then. It was a happy coincidence that I showed up to my new job that same day and you were there. I took it as a sign. Now here we are fucking each other senseless. Driving each other crazy."
Jasper just stood there, stunned. I was annoyed though. So, I stepped out of the bathroom and threw some clothes on.
"I'm sorry. I ruined the moment. I'm a prick." He said, closing the distance between us.
"You're everything to me, baby. So get it through your thick skull." I said.
"You're starting to scare me, E. Quit talking about feelings already. I heard you." He said, while getting dressed in some jeans and a tee shirt. I sit on the bed and watch him fight with his thoughts. His face turning rosy pink. I wondered why feelings made him so uncomfortable. Who hurt him?? Why was he so afraid?? One moment he asks to be loved and the next he's pushing it away.
"Jasper."
He stops what he's doing and turns to face me. Our eyes speaking before our mouths get the chance but I say the words anyway.
"You're safe with me. Whatever it is that scares you about what you're feeling, we can work it out together. I swear it." I said.
He looks down to the floor and tries to cover his face with his hands but I saw the tears before they fell from his eyes. I quickly got up and hugged him.
"I hate you." He mumbles. I smile, knowing that he means the complete opposite of what he said.
"Yeah, I know." I chuckle.