Only Tolerable//Tokio Hotel •Tom Kaulitz•

Fine Line Between Blind Faith and Hope

We were still the kitchen. I was sat between Tom and Bill at the kitchen counter. "So, when does your tour start?" I asked them. "It's a small tour." Said Bill.

"Yeah cause then we'll take a little hiatus and release the next album and do another tour." Tom said. I nodded. "So when does the tour start?" I asked. "Two days or so after your birthday." Bill said.

"Speaking of your birthday, I have an idea for your party." Tom said. This surprised me, it surprised Bill too. "You heard her yesterday, she doesn't want a party, Tom." Bill told his brother. Tom shook his head. I accidentally absentmindedly stared at him.

"Alice has changed her mind." Tom said, moving his gaze towards mine. We stared at each other until I broke away first and turned back towards Bill. "I changed my mind. As Tom and I were arguing, I realized that it was pointless not having a party." I said as I lied through a fake smile.

"I thought you too were going to kill each other." Bill said. I looked at him. "Then why didn't you intervene?" I asked. "I could hear you two yelling all the way down stairs. I didn't want to be brought into that." He said. I nodded. "What about me running out the door and not coming back till midnight?" I asked him.

He shrugged. "I didn't feel like running, and I know you Alice, you would of returned eventually." He told me. I looked at him. "Fair point." "So what was your idea for my party?" I asked, turning back towards Tom.

"I know how Bill loves having themes and all that crap, but how about, here me out, there is no theme." Tom said. "I like it." I shrugged. Bill looked at me then to Tom and then back to me. "Okay then. We can get the stuff for your party today if you want so we don't have to worry about it later." He said.

I nodded. "I need a shower, then we can go." I said. He nodded and I got up from my chair and went upstairs. I grabbed a towel and went to the bathroom. I started my shower. It was weird that Tom and I were being nice to each other, but we were only doing it for Bill's sake.

I rolled my eyes. This stupid fucking agreement. After I was done, I got the towel and walked out of the bathroom and to my room. I started looking for clothes to wear today. 

"Jesus, my wardrobe sucks." I said
As I opened yet another drawer. "You finally figured that out?" I heard from behind me. I rolled my eyes and turned around, crossing my arms over my chest. "What the hell do you want, Tom?" I didn't mean to be mean to him, I'm use to it, he even gave me coffee this morning.

I stared at him.

He was leaning against my door frame. "Something that has to do with the agreement." He said as his eyes left mine he scanned my body. "Ewe, fucking ask me after I get dressed." I said. He laughed. "Oh, please don't flatter yourself." He said, making fun of me.

I looked at him. "Is he really that stupid." Tom looked at me. He looked pissed. "What?" I asked, as I watched as he walked over to me. "What do you mean what?" He said. He was a few inches away from me. "I'm confused. You said something and then I thought of something and then you got angry.

"Is he really that stupid?" Tom said, mimicking me. My eyes went wide. "Oh my god...I said that out loud?" I said. Tom nodded. I laughed. "I've called you stupid before and it never made you mad, I just didn't think I said it out loud." I said.

"There was no agreement before." He argued. "Tom, listen, I don't want to to fucking argue right now, alright? I'm sorry. We'll talk after I get dressed, so can you please get out now?" I said. He didn't say anything, instead he swiftly turned around and walked out of my room, shutting the door behind him kind of hard.

I shook my head. What the fuck was that about?" I finally found something that was somewhat presentable and went down stairs. "Where's your idiot brother?" I asked Bill. He sighed. "He got mad, so now he's waiting in the car like a little baby." He said.

I laughed. "How very Tom of him." I said. Bill also laughed and we walked out of the house. After Bill locked the house, we got into the car. I had to sit in the back because of Tom. I truly hated him. "Hey, we should see if Georg and Gustav want to hang out. I haven't seen them in forever." I said.

Bill nodded. "That's a fantastic idea Alice! Tom, quit being a bitch and call Georg and Gustav." He told Tom. I silently laughed. I looked in the mirror and saw Tom roll his eyes, nonetheless though, he pulled out his phone and called the guys.

They could hangout, so we were on out to get them. "Georg! Gustav! I exclaimed when they each got in. Downfall to this, I wasn't only sat in the back, I was sat in the middle, between Georg and Gustav. "What are we doing?" Gustav asked.

"Getting stuff for Alice's stupid birthday party." Tom said, still being a bitch. "What's his problem?" Georg asked. "Shh, I think it's his time of the month, he's really sensitive right now." I joked. That made everyone laugh all except for Tom.

He sent me daggers through the mirror. I rolled my eyes. Eventually we made it to the store. At least Tom wasn't making me do anything regarding the agreement...except for have this stupid ass birthday party for a birthday I don't even want.

He never did ask me what he wanted to ask earlier, and I really didn't feel like bringing it up. I hoped he'd just forget about it all together, but there is a very fine line between blind faith and hope.

We entered the store and began whatever this was. I hated every fucking second of it.