Only Tolerable//Tokio Hotel •Tom Kaulitz•

All Because of That Stupid Agreement

Things were finally all okay. Bill knew about everything, Tom and I were back together, and we didn't have to hide anything anymore. On top of that, my parents have actually kept in contact with me.

It was only April, but my mom, along with James were very excited about him spending the summer with me. My dad was of course skeptical, but that was understandable.

Tom Bill and I were outside by the pool. "Do you remember when I first met you two idiots?" I asked. Bill and Tom both laughed. "You got lost on your first day of school and ran into Tom and I, then we started hanging out constantly." Bill said.

"You and I started hanging out constantly, Tom here cut a chunk of my hair off because I wouldn't let him cheat off me." I said glaring at Tom. Tom laughed. "It was funny back then, but I do apologize for that and all the other shit I put you through." He sad as he leaned over and kissed my cheek.

"That is my que to leave." Bill said. I laughed. Even though he was okay with the idea of Tom and I, he respected that sometimes we needed away from him.

"Y'know, it's really fucking crazy how we got here, if you think about it." I told Tom. "How do you mean?" He asked me. "I mean, like look back on the last 4-5 months. We use to hate each, like really fucking hate each other." I told him.

"Yeah, but weird hangs happen sometimes." He said. "Yeah, but not like they did for us. The story is complicated as hell. We hated each other for basically 8 years, then I get cheated on, need some cash, you loan it to me, then we make that agreement and a whole lot of shit goes down. Like I find that so fucking bizarre." I explained.

"Bizarre that your with me?" Tom asked, offended. I shook my head. "No, God no. That's not what I'm saying here. Im saying that it's bizarre how we ended up together. Like it's pretty insane." I said.

He nodded. "Yeah, you're right...do you think we'd still be together if it wasn't for that stupid agreement?" He questioned. I shook my head. "I have no idea, no body really does, but what matters is that we're together now." I told him.

He nodded. "Can I be honest with you?" I asked him. He nodded. "Of course. " "okay, after every went down with Logan, I was honestly terrified of ever getting into a relationship again...I think that's part of why I fucking waited so long to tell you how I felt because I was afraid the same thing was going to happen. Being cheating on your significant other is a really fucking shitty thing to do and makes people feel like shit. On top of all the other shit Logan did a-mist he and I's breaking up, I honestly thought I wasn't going to be able to live to see another day. Everything just go so fucked up and confusing so fast." I said shaking my head.

I didn't know I was crying until Tom took his thumbs and wiped the tears that were flowing from my eyes. "Hey, I'm not him. I'll never fucking cheat on you or hit you in any way shape or form. That fuckhead has major issues. An if he ever happens to show back up, I will personally kick his ass for you." He said. I laughed at that.

"Thanks Tom." He nodded. "Anytime." "This stupid agreement really messed with our lives, but in a good way." I said. "Can I tell you something?" He asked me. I nodded. "The moment I realized I was in love with you and that I loved you was when we came back from Logan's after you gave him the money. You were in the bathroom and I opened the door. You were sitting on the ground and you looked up and laughed. You were broken. Your eyes told me that. I'm so sorry for all the shit that I've ever put you through in the past and I'm sure I'll make plenty of mistakes in the future, and I'm sorry." He ranted.

I smiled. "Do you want to know the moment I realized I loved you?" I asked him. "Well yeah." He said. I smiled. "When I was having that anxiety attack after we gave Logan the money. Bill wasn't there and you were. I'm not shitting on Bill, its just, I never saw you like that before, but seeing you helpful and worried and sincere changed that. Of course you still have your asshole moments, but I love you anyway." I told him.

"I didn't want you to freak out. Anxiety and depression isn't something that should be taken lightly." Tom said. I agreed, too many people lost there lives and continue to lose their lives because of it and it was a growing problem. Its okay to not be okay sometimes.

"Hey, you still haven't told me the 10 things that you love about me." He said. "Well, I love how you turn negative situations into positive ones, I love how you joke about things, I love how you do that stupid thing with your lip ring when your thinking of something, you love things religiously, you always try and help those who need it, you're always there for Bill, you put family and the band first, you don't care what people think about you, you really care about your fans and genuinely want to know how they are, and your actually really sweet when you wanna be." I told him.

Tom smiled. "I love you." I smiled at him and kissed his cheek. "And you're only tolerable." I joked. "Oh yeah?" Tom asked. I nodded and before I knew it he got that smirk on his face and he picked me up. "Please, not the pool! I apologize!" I screamed in protest.

Then he threw me in. "Tom! You jackass." I laughed. "What's happening?" I heard Bill said as he walked out of the house. He looked to me and then to Tom. I shook my head and folded my arms. "Take one guess." I said. Bill laughed.

"At least you guys aren't fighting." Bill said from beside Tom. I looked at Bill hoping he would do what I hoped he was gunna do. He saw me and winked and before I knew it. Bill pushed Tom in.

"What the hell!" Tom said. I laughed. "Never mess with my best friend, Tom." Bill said, laughing with me.

Tom looked at his brother and then to me and laughed. "Hey, at least you too don't fucking hate each other anymore." Bill said. I continued to laugh.

"All because of that stupid agreement." Tom and I said at the time.

I'm Alice, Bill's best friend, and according to Tom, I'm his girlfriend. It's a wonderful feeling. And I meant that. Like I said, the love we have is fabricated to us and no one can take that away.

I'm Tom, Bill's brother, and according to Alice, I'm her boyfriend. It's a sublime feeling. I mean that. Our love is ours and will always be ours and no one can take that way.

The End