Only Tolerable//Tokio Hotel •Tom Kaulitz•

I Don't Know if I've Told You This, But I Love You Too

It's been exactly 4 weeks since Tom and I broke up and I moved out. Georg kept checking on me, and Bill would visit almost every day. I didn't feel comfortable going to the house with the possibility of Tom being there, and to be honest, I don't know if I'll ever be comfortable.

I would either live on the couch or in my room, reminiscing the good moments Tom and I had. Even when we were younger. I caught myself reaching up to my neck and placing my hand on my chest, touching the heart locket necklace Tom gave me for my birthday.

My smile faded when I remembered I didn't have it anymore, I threw it at him the day we broke up and we argued. I sighed. I shouldn't be sad, but it's Tom.

The Tom who was there for me when I needed someone and couldn't go to Bill, the one who helped me through enough bullshit for the past few months, the one who made me realize that the love he has for me and I for him is not found in someone like Logan or anybody else.

It's fabricated for us. Made up of a few broken pieces of of glass that was glued and put back together and then broke again and glued several different times, sure, but sometimes, the things that are broken so delicate and deeply, are usually the strongest still standing. That's what our love felt like, even if he didn't know I loved him back. I planned to tell him, but now I can't. I hope he knows. I hope deep down somewhere, he really knows that I love him.

I wonder if Tom thinks about me. I sat there on the couch, changing channels with no real goal on finding anything to watch. I had to keep my self busy so I wouldn't cry, breakdown, have an anxiety attack or anything. I just-I just had to try and let go, but fuck is it hard to let go of the person you love who you also just fucking got.

This would take some time.

[No one's pov]

The house was a lot more quiet and duller now that Alice was no longer living there. Bill was at a crossroads. Tom was his brother sure, but Alice was also his best friend.

Bill was pissed, not that they broke up, but pissed by the fact that this was hurting both his brother and Alice, and the fact that Tom has been an absolute dick since then. He hasn't gotten out of his room or left the house and Tom wasn't doing anything about it.

Bill was currently on his way up the stairs and to Tom's room. They needed to really talk, this wasn't good for anyone. Bill didn't bother knocking, he just opened Tom's door.

"What the fuck!" Tom said. Bill rolled his eyes and crossed his arms. "Oh shut up, we need to talk and your going to listen." Bill said. Tom rolled his eyes, but let Bill continue. "Alice misses you and you miss her, fix it." He said.

"I can't." Tom said. Bill shook his head. "Yes you can. You just have to choose weather or not you actually want to." Bill said. "I'm scared alright." Tom told him.

"God, you love her, alright, she loves you, I know that. You gotta fix things." Bill said. Tom shook his head. "No." "No?" Bill questioned. "She's your girlfriend!" He yelled. Tom got up. "No, she's just your best friend." He argued.

"God! Stop being a dick Tom. She's your girlfriend and she loves you. Now stop being fucking scared before you lose something your really gunna regret letting go of!" Bill yelled at him.

Tom's eyes went wide. "Your right." He said. Bill nodded. "Now go to Georg's and Fucking fix this shit." Bill urged. Tom nodded, grabbed his keys and left.

[Alice's pov]

I was on the couch still flipping through the channels when there was a knock at the door. Georg wasn't home so I got up to answer it. My eyes went wide. It was Tom. "Uh...hey, can we talk?" He asked me.

I slowly nodded and let him inside. "I'm sorry." He said. "Okay? Tom what is this about? We broke up, it's done." I said. He shook his head. "I do love you. I'm in love you." He said.

"Then why Tom, why break up with me!?" I asked. "Because I was scared!" He yelled. "Of what?" I asked. "Usually, when I love someone, they don't love me back, that's why I have a lot of lady acquaintances. I broke up with you because I didn't want to go through that with you." He said, no longer yelling, but using a soft clam voice.

"How can I know?" I asked. "I wouldn't of come back if I didn't." He said. I nodded. "I have to tell you something. I love you." I said. He smiled and kissed me. "Are we okay?" He asked me. I nodded. "Will you be my girlfriend?" He asked. And I nodded.

Tom then helped me get my crap out of my room and took me home. I called Georg and told him the good news. As soon as I entered through that door with Tom, I watched as Bill practically jumped down half of the staircase and hugged us both.

"I'm glad you too came to an understanding. I don't know what I would of done if this never did get fixed." He said. I laughed. "Well Bill, worry no more. Everything's gunna be just fine." I told him. He smiled and hugged me again.

I got my stuff put back in my room. I was sitting at my desk when I heard Bill yell.

"MANDATORY MOVIE MARATHON!" Bill yelled. I walked out of my room and saw Bill standing in the foyer. "But no one's sad or pissed off." I said. He nodded up at me. "I know, but I'm calling one as a celebration of you and Tom's getting back together." He told me.

I nodded. I turned around and Tom was coming out of his room. "You heard him." I told him. He nodded. We all went our separate ways to our rooms to gather the blankets and pillows.

I was getting the stuff I needed out of mine there was a knock. I turned around and Tom was stood in the door way. "I think this belongs to you." He said holding out the locket I was missing from my neck earlier. I smiled and let him out it on me. "Thank you, Tom." He nodded.

"I don't know if I've told you this, but I love you too." He said. I laughed and kissed him. "Really? I had no idea." I said sarcastically. He laughed and we gathered up all our stuff and met Bill in the living room.

This was good.

(A/N: the next chapter I write will be the last one for this book, so with that being said, I hope you enjoyed this chapter and the rest of them, happy reading :)