𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐛𝐢𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐧 | 𝐑.𝐖 ✔︎

𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐲 𝐬𝐢𝐱

Sorry for going ghost guys! I had
exams this week and needed focus.

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Rebekah Moons.

You haven't been in class for the past week, and I don't have to be a genius to know that it has something to do with you getting caught with me. I overheard Jean loudly talking about how you've came Ill and were sent home to Greengrass.. but I know that isn't true..

I don't really know why I'm writing this.. or whatever I'm trying to accomplish writing this. It actually feels quite odd putting these words on paper but I feel like it must be said.

When you told me that this wasn't going to go good I didn't understand what exactly you meant by that - Well, I didn't understand why it was such a big deal.

But I now understand, I've always knew that we're from two different standards, that inside of the Wizarding world that your considered better than I am.

You're presented as this perfect girl, like the ones in the movies.. your unexplainably beautiful, you get an outstanding on every assignment, You've got so much going for yourself.

Which is exactly why we can not be together- or no longer be whatever it is that we were - I don't want you to loose everything that you've worked hard for me. I don't deserve it.

And not because I don't care about you, Rebekah because I do.. I really fucking do care about you. There's not a moment when I don't think about you, where I don't find comfort in the false narrative where we could happily be together that I've created in my head.

Knowing that there's a possibility that I won't see you strolling inside of the great hall with some type of object that weighs more than you is like torture to my mind. And I know it may sound pathetic or desperate saying that but it's truth... Merlin I don't even know how I'm writing this.. but I know that I mean it.

I knew this is wrong, I always knew, and I knew that I shouldn't have kissed you in the corridor that day.

But I was just couldn't help myself,
and the feeling that I get with you was a feeling that I've never experienced before and I don't think no one would ever be able to top it.

And although all of this was a mistake, you were the best mistake that I ever could've made.

I don't think this infatuation Rebekah, I believe that this is something much stronger.. it happened so fast but that doesn't excuse that it should've never happened. But do I regret it? not one bit if I had the option, I would relive it all again. And despite how selfish it may sound something inside of me doesn't want this to be over.

But I know that it has too - we're not a good match and we'll never be.

You need to find someone that'll fit inside of your lifestyle, someone like Nott or maybe even Zabini. Although it'll destroy me to see you along side someone else it's what's for the best.. the type of lifestyle that you need.

Truthfully, there's apart of me that's underneath the impression that the only reason you took interest in me was to rebel against your family. To show them that you weren't going to be their perfect girl forever. That same part of me thinks that maybe she did it as a joke to fuck me up in the head. But Merlin I hoped that party was wrong.. wrong for the sake of my sanity.