Mr. Imperfectionist 2

20 - A Battle Against Heart

I walked towards my van while looking around to find Rex. I have to come clean with him. I have to tell him that I don't like him the way he likes me. Oh! This is going to be devastating.

I remember the time when I had to tell Mike that I did not love him. I cannot even fathom how heart-breaking that was for him. I mean, I'd be shattered if someone I like told me that they do not like me.

What should I do? Let Rex think that I like him too, just so that his heart doesn't endure any pain?

No, that would be so wrong. I can't let him think I feel the same way he does about me.

"Ugh..!! Why did I ever let him do things to me? Why couldn't I just control myself?"

My thoughts had engulfed my mind to such an extent that I never realised when my hair and makeup were finished. I had to get dressed in my costume now. The designer team brought my lehenga. Sheba, the girl who dressed me in my attire every day, unzipped the tall white bag, and I noticed that it was the golden lehenga that I completely adored. My eyes twinkled and my lips curved into a smile. While looking at the lehenga, suddenly the nightmare I had, flashed before my eyes. This is the same lehenga that I wore in the nightmare where I was locked in the cell and someone resembling Sabil shot me to death.

I gulped down a lump in my throat as the sweat balls started forming on my forehead. 'This is just a coincidence.' I told myself over and over.

Sabil is here at the shoot with me for the first time, and on the same day I have to wear this golden lehenga that gave me a nightmare.

'C'mon relax. Sabil won't let anything bad happen to me. I am going back to India the day after. Nothing is going to happen.'

The thought of going to India reminded me that I was going to separate from Sabil once again. More than the happiness of being with him after four years, the fact that we were going to separate again terrified me.

"Saanj, you are sweating. You will ruin your makeup." Sheba interrupted my train of thought.

My brow was moist when I touched it. "Oh, I am so sorry."

Sheba grabbed some tissues and gently dabbed my forehead and cheeks."You're going to need touch-ups even before the shoot." She said while dabbing on my forehead.

"Hmm.." I mused.

The makeup artist came and did the touch-up. As I climbed down from the van, I found Sabil, Emilio, Julio, and Guzman standing right in front. Everyone except Sabil smiled broadly as they saw me walking towards them. Sabil's face was serene, but his eyes looked sad.

"Hey," I said while looking Sabil in the eyes.

"You look..." Sabil began to speak but then stopped, his gaze never leaving mine.

I waited.

"Well, you certainly look like a goddess." Then his lips twitched into a soft but, sad smile.

I grinned broadly."Thank you, Sabil. Will you be right in front of me while I shoot?" I asked, even though I knew Rex would notice us. It might break his heart. But I wanted Sabil to stay in front of me until I finished. We had so little time before I left for India. I was being selfish, I know. I had to speak to Rex about Sabil. I didn't want him to be surprised when he saw him there, gawking at me from afar.

"Of course," Sabil said.

I blushed and looked down, unable to hold his gaze.

"Can I kiss you?" He asked.

I wanted to kiss him too, but I felt shy in front of my team. They have been watching me with Rex for so many days. What would they think if they saw Sabil kissing me?