Waiting For Us | Y/N x Ominis x Sebastian

21. Cold Tears

The whole night felt extremely long, I never felt so refreshed as all my sleepless nights finally caught up to me. I opened my eyes to see Sebastian asleep next to me. His wild hair was sprawled everywhere covering his tired eyes and freckled face. The dark shadows under his eyes had softened a bit as mine had. My head was leant against his chest, I listened to his heart beating softly. My exposed ear heard his light snoring echoing in the dimly lit room.

I subtly shuffled away — to let him sleep, but he held me tighter. "Sebastian." I whispered gently, trying to pull his arms off. "We can't get caught together in the common room."

"We're not in the common room." He mumbled; his head now in the pillow, as his arm felt blindly around for me.

I rubbed my eyes to look at my surroundings to see I was in his dorm room. "Seb—"

"Shush. You're going to wake the others up." He groaned; quietly sitting up. He barely opened his eyes as he pushed his hair out of his face.

"I can't be in here." I tried to be as quiet as I could be. I looked around the room at the three other beds. All full with sleeping students and the one right next to us was Ominis's. I could see the outline of his body as he slept with his back facing me.

He rolled his sleepy eyes and crawled over to me and looked at the room. "If you want to get caught, go ahead and leave. I'm sure another meeting with the Headmaster will go swimmingly."

"I can't stay." I said in his ear, surprised he brought me to his room.

"Mhm you're cute when you're paranoid." He chuckled and closed the curtains that hung off the bed frame, laying back down. "It's almost the morning Y/N. Get some more sleep and we will leave after they're gone." He pulled the dark green blankets up for me to join.

I felt this sense of dread rise up as I didn't want to be this close to Sebastian with Ominis a few feet away. I already messed up by letting him slither himself into me again. I just keep making mistake after mistake, the biggest being I'm in the wrong bed.

I knew how Ominis felt about me, I also knew how he felt about me being with Sebastian. It breaks his heart but I find myself doing the same thing over again.

I laid under the covers knowing I wouldn't get out of this situation until later. I stayed on the edge of the bed not wanting to intrude Sebastian's space and not give him any ideas. He scooted over and laid his head into my neck and placed his hand on my stomach. It was surprisingly gentle from his usual roughness. I stroked his arm as tears dropped down the side.

Deep down I love Sebastian, he is my best friend, but it is complicated. I don't understand what is happening with him. I run my hand up to his shoulder, closing my eyes trying to see if I could use my magic to understand.

There was something cataclysmic within him, I could feel it. It was in his bones, it was in her very soul. Twisted around inside him like a serpent. I sensed the anguish and conflict. It was like nothing I'd ever felt before. I tried to dig deeper but was met with a terrifyingly sharp pain in my own body: the same pain he was filled with.

I felt a few drops of tears trickle down my cheek as I stopped. What was that oppressive melancholy that I felt?

It lingered in me, causing that guilty feeling to fester inside. It was my fault he went alone in the Undercroft. I should have told Ominis from the start and all of this would have been avoided.

A sigh escaped my parted lips.

I couldn't imagine my life without both of them, but I remember the look on Ominis's face when we said goodnight. His hesitation to leave me alone, the pain in his voice and the tears falling from his beautiful eyes and down his porcelain skin in our secret room. I would give anything to be with him.