Pretty Boy (N.R)

Chapter 1: The Remedy of a Broken Heart (XXXTENTACION)

I sit in my room alone, crying, feeling like my heart has been completely ripped out of my chest by the girl I love most hands.

I try not to be to loud as I don't want anyone to hear me. So many thoughts are running through my mind at a million miles per second. But, 1 thought sticks out the most.

The memory's of the night we met. All the thoughts of that night flood into my head. I can barely breathe. All I want to do is go back to her and say it's ok it doesn't matter what she did, that I love her. But, I know I can't. I can't show weakness. It's not what men do.

I grab my guitar, the only thing that can now provide me comfort, I start to strum a sad tune. Lyrics start to pop up in my head. The memories of the past few moments and the first time we had ever met mixing together. The lyrics pop in my head out of nowhere. I start to record so I don't forget what I'm about to sing. I never really sing unless I'm in the shower, but at the moment this seems like the only thing that is going to comfort me. I set my phone up and start to record.

⚠️Next part is just lyrics you don't have to read unless you want to⚠️

" Why am I so in love? Why am I so in love?
Why am I so in love? I don't know why Steady tryin' to maintain Same things that a blood bitch may frame My brain can't fathom what the hate say He say, she say, how 'bout me say? Get the Visa Headed to the islands ASAP What's that on my shawty wrist? That's a AP I'm the type to save a bitch, CAPE Feeling like ET, flying out of the Addy Fucking on shawty, she baddie Casual convo then at it I mean I'm better than better, maybe I'm lying I'm sadder than most of y'all with the money and the freedom, What is money really worth if it ain't love? I'ma find a perfect balance, it's gon' take time I heard shawty still in love through the grape vine Heard shawty still in love through the grape vine Heard shawty in love through the grape vine Mix a little bit of weed with a little bit of cash With a little bit of this, with a little bit o mif that We gon' be al-, we gon' be al- We gon' be al-, we gon' be al- Mix a little bit of weed with a little bit of cash With a little bit of this, with a little bit of that We gon' be al-, we gon' be alright We gon' be al-, we gon' be al-
Mix a little bit of weed with a little bit of cash With a little bit of this, with a little bit of that We gon' be al-, we gon' be al-
We gon' be alright, we gon' be al- Mix a little bit of weed with a little bit of cash With a little bit of this, with a little bit of that We gon' be al-, we gon' be al- We gon' be al-, we gon' be al- Why am I so in love? I dont know why Why am I so in love? I don't know why
She said I, oh, I, am falling for you, falling for you I, oh, I, am falling for you, falling for you I, oh, I, am falling for you, falling for you I, oh, I, am falling for you, falling for you Why am I so in love? Why am I so in love? Why am I so in love? I don't know why
Why am I so in love? Why am I so in love?
Why am I so in love? I don't know why."

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I stop the video and I wipe my eyes feeling a little bit better. I never really made my own songs I just sing other people's songs. This felt good though, like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I stand up and go into my bathroom, strip, and get in the shower. I feel the water rush over my tense muscles. I stand there for a good couple minutes before I start to wash up.

Once I'm done in the shower I throw on a pair of boxers and jogging pants. I go out to the kitchen quickly making sure no one sees me, I grab a bottle of water and quickly scurry back to my room.

I hop in my bed and lay down letting the cool bed consume me. I throw the covers over me and turn on the TV. I turn on Gilmore girls, I know it's a girly show but it's honestly kinda good. I sit and watch letting a little smile form on my face every time I laugh. But every time I smile I remember what she did to me. The pain she caused me in a matter of a couple seconds.