daylight || mha

[ twenty-four ] honesty

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"meet me where you can break the silence, meet me where the light greets dark"

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He hated everything about today. But most of all he hated her. She who had acted so high and mighty about healing his wounds, so he would be able to win giving his all, and then she had the gall to topple over in her fight with Icyhot. He hated that he was on his way to being crowned the winner. He was undeserving of this spot. That was not the way he had wanted to win. It should have been her in the finale. At this point he would have preferred her beating him over whatever bullshit this was.

He let them put the restraints on him. Even the muzzle he took without complaint. Though as he was tied to the highest spot, he started struggling against it. There was nothing about him that had been victorious today. He had been fucked over not only by her, but Icyhot too. The bastard hadn't used his full quirk and had given up halfway through. As the podium was raised to the middle of the arena he pulled against the restraints. The cheers burnt in his ears; he would rather they boo him for losing. Their claps hit him all like individual slaps in his face. You're too weak, they didn't think you worthy enough of their strength. He wanted to punch the voice right out of his skull.

You've always been weak.

His mind fell right back to ten months ago. The ties and restraints pulled at him further. Like the sludge monster had. His loss of mobility enraged him even further. The black impenetrable goo crept further and further along, swallowing him completely. He could feel himself struggling to take one breath after the other. His throat was tightened forcing itself shut to not let anything through; out of fear that it could be the sludge monster. He choked on his own breaths trying his hardest to scream out loud. There was a loud ringing in his ears. One he usually only felt when he fired huge explosions in succession.

Everybody's eyes were on him. He could feel the glares of everybody in the stands. He didn't care. The one person he had wanted to look at him, wasn't here. She didn't even stand on the podium with him. That moron, he thought. He could curse himself over and over for not being able to stop worrying about her. The way her body had gone from being basket in this iridescent glow in one second to lifeless the next second, it had shocked the entire crowd. The gasps and murmurs rumbling through the crowd were still coursing through his mind. He remembered how he had jumped up from his seat without thinking and had wanted to run right down to see what was up. He remembered too, how Aizawa had run past him, Shitty Hair and Raccoon Eyes to hold them back.

"I'll check on her, Bakugo, you especially should focus on your own match." He had said.

Even as Bird Brain had stood in front of him, Bakugo had found his thoughts running away from his grasp to find her. He had gone through the motions of the fight, though he didn't feel like there was any point to it anyway. He had beat Bird Brain not long after the match began. After all, his quirk was pretty light sensitive. He'd figured that out seeing how it had reacted to Spark Plug's electricity, that it wouldn't do too well with the light of his explosions. And he had been right about that. As soon as he fired off enough of them, the fight was over pretty quickly. After all, none of these extras had her combat abilities.

With blurry eyes he stared ahead. Nothing felt right to him about this entire situation. He could feel himself wanting to sink into the ground when he saw All Might holding the medals. He felt unworthy of having the Number One hero present him the gold medal, when he hadn't managed to win it by beating everyone. It didn't feel like a prize for his victory, no it felt like his loss was thrown at his feet in the form of some chunky gold plated piece of metal. He writhed away from All Might's touch. If he could he would have screamed out loud that he wasn't deserving of this medal, that he wouldn't take it, even if he was forced to.