I remember

CHAPTER TEN

Saturday 15th December 2017

Lando POV

I'm standing at the bar with Max, sipping my drink. Looking around the room, it's full of my friends but the person I really want to see isn't here yet. Late as usual I think and I roll my eyes and chuckle at the same time.

'What's making you laugh?' Max questions.

'Just thinking about how typical it is of Sienna to be late. I don't think in all the time I've known her, which I know isn't that long in the grand scheme of things, she's ever been on time. For anything'

The door opens and I glance up. My breath catches at the sight of her. She's wearing a dress that clings to every curve of her body, her hair cascades down her back. If it was possible, she's gotten even more beautiful over the past few months.

'Bloody hell, Max. What is she trying to do to me? She just wants to be friends and then she comes here looking like that after I've not seen her in months' I exclaim and put my head in my hands.

'Well look alive, mate, she's heading straight for us'

Sienna POV

I can hear the beat of the music flow through my body as we step into the bar. I notice Lando straight away and I feel my palms getting sweaty and there are butterflies in my stomach at seeing him again. Time hasn't solved that issue for me it seems. He's standing with Max and for some reason he's got his head in his hands. He can't be that drunk already, I'm not that late!

'Hey Champ' I say, pulling him into a hug. I get enveloped by his scent and I sigh, he always smells so good. He seems pretty steady on his feet though so not that drunk then. Not yet anyway. I see Talia and Kat looking at me, over Lando's shoulder, smirking and I pull away from Lando, maybe abit too abruptly.

'Can I get you two a drink' I ask him and Max, signalling to the barman.

'It's a free bar Sienna'

'Oh, well in that case we'll have to go out again for me to buy you a drink to celebrate. You've had an amazing year, Lando, you need to milk that for all it's worth!'

'Yeah, it has been pretty good hasn't it? Not sure how I'm going to top it next year' he smiles.

God that smile, makes me feel all kinds of things. I've dated a few guys over the past couple of months but no-one has made me feel the way he does. He's a driver, he's a driver, he's a driver, I chant under my breath. I need to remember why I'm keeping my distance, I cannot lose my head as well as my heart and i'm going to work really hard next year on reclaiming that. 

We're around 5 drinks in, could be more to be honest, I've lost count, when I hear one of my favourite songs blasting from the speakers. I grab Talia and Kat's hands and drag them onto the dance floor.

Hey, brother
There's an endless road to rediscover
Hey, sister
If you ever think my blood is thicker

Oh, wear the liar's heart on my sleeve
For you, there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do

Oh, what if I'm far from home
Oh brother, I will hear you call
What if I lose all?
Oh brother, I will help you out
Wear the liar's heart on my sleeve
For you, there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do

Hey, brother
There's an endless road to rediscover
Hey, sister
If you ever think my blood is thicker

Oh, wear the liar's heart on my sleeve
For you, there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do

As the last few bars of the song finishes I take a big breath, I'm slightly sweaty from all the jumping, I dread to think what my make up looks like but I'm too tipsy to really care.

Suddenly the air shifts and I feel Lando approach before I see him. The air crackles with electricity and I feel drawn to him, all thoughts of keeping my distance forgotten. The music shifts too with the sound of Despacito beginning to play. We've gone from an upbeat dance tune to a sultry, pop song in the blink of an eye and my body starts to sway with the music. I feel a hand on my shoulder and I turn around to see Lando behind me. His eyes are slightly glazed over so I know he's as drunk as I am, but as his eyes fix on mine they darken and his hand reaches round my waist to pull me to him and my arms snake around his neck. He smells of a combination between his cologne and sweat, it's a heady mix and with the alcohol running through my veins my decision making skills are not what they normally would be. I let him pull me closer and we grind to the music in perfect sync, like we are puzzle pieces made to fit. My heart is racing and I realise I want him to kiss me.

Lando POV

The way Sienna is looking at me right now is driving me crazy. Our bodies are so close that you wouldn't be able to fit a piece of paper between us. I want to kiss her so bad. Our lips are within touching distance and as I go to close the gap between us she moves to meet me halfway and our lips fuse together. Initially I kiss her softly, tentatively, even. Just in case. But as she returns my kiss, I kiss her more hungrily, I'm kissing her like my life depends on it. It's better than I had even imagined it would be and I can taste the raspberry vodka she's been drinking on her tongue. As the song ends we break away from each other, both breathing heavily. I have a huge smile on my face but as I look at her, I realise she doesn't.

Sienna POV

The kiss was everything I had imagined it would be, better even, and I felt the whole world stop turning. However, as incredible as it was, it didn't change my mind and I suddenly realise that as we break away from each other I don't want to give him the wrong impression, I don't want to give him the impression that this will change anything between us, I'm not ready, I'm not sure I ever will be.

'I'm sorry. I need some air' I manage to croak out before I run for the exit. The door swings back with a load thud and the cold night air hits me square in the face. Why does the cold hitting you always make you feel more drunk? I take some deep breaths and sit down against the wall, my head in my hands. What did I just do? I'd been doing so well keeping Lando firmly in the friendzone and now I'd made things unnecessarily complicated and probably hurt his feelings in the process which I really didn't want to do, that has never been my intention. I can feel tears pool at the corner of my eyes, followed by a surge of anger at Pierre. Here I was, unable to move on, because of him. A great guy really likes me and I'm so scared I just can't get past it.

'Sienna?' his voice sounds so quiet after the loudness of the bar and I feel him crouch down beside me.

'I'm sorry, Lando. That kiss was amazing but it can't happen again'

'What? Why?' I can hear the hurt in his voice

My voice starts to break 'Because I haven't changed my mind about my no drivers rule and I can't promise you that I ever will. You deserve so much more and I can't expect you to wait to see if I change my mind, I can't ask you to do that. You need to move on'

'You're not asking me to do that, but I will. I would wait 1000 lifetimes for you. You're the one for me Sienna Davis, I'll wait until you feel it too, because I know you will. I'm just that charming' he pulls me to him and kisses the top of my head.

'Stubborn more like' I mutter just loud enough for him to hear.

'When you finally, get to love somebody, guess what, it's gonna be me' he sings before disappearing back through the door of the bar. Only Lando Norris would sing Nsync at me as a mic drop.