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Chapter 14: Going To Illum

Y/N's P.O.V

I run back to the Ghost and see Kanan sat outside of the ship.

He sees me and stands.

Kanan: Y/N, you're back. What happened?

Y/N: We need to leave now! Come on!

We go back onto the ship.

Y/N: Hera, get us out of here!

A second later the ship takes off and flies away.

Kanan: Y/N, what happened back there?

Y/N: I... I... shit!

I climb up the ladder and go to sit in the main room.

I sit in the corner on my own.

A moment later I see Kanan and Sabine come in.

Sabine comes over and sits with me.

Sabine: Y/N, are you okay?

I shake my head.

Y/N: No. I... oh god.

I hold the broken lightsaber in my hands.

Kanan kneels down.

Kanan: Y/N, you have to tell me what happened.

I show him the lightsaber.

Kanan: Aalya's lightsaber.

Y/N: I saw her. Aalya. I saw the day she died. I saw what I did. And now it's destroyed. I couldn't save her!

Sabine: Y/N, you were just a little boy back then.

Tears run down my face.

Y/N: No! I know I could've saved her! If I had just been stronger and braver, if I had listened to her she'd still be alive! I could've helped her! I know it!

Kanan sighs.

Kanan: Sabine, can you give us a minute.

She nods and leaves the room.

Kanan: Y/N, it's time I told you what happened to me after Jacen's death.

He looks at me.

Kanan: When he died I was consumed by my rage and anger.... I tapped into the Darkside and I killed every single Clone. And for years, I couldn't forgive myself. I was a reck, kid. I had all this rage and I tried pushin' it down, but I couldn't hide from it. All I wanted to do was die.

He sighs.

Kanan: But then I met Hera and we had Jacen. For me, that was a spark of hope that there could be a future. That we could move on.

He stands.

Kanan: Get up, kid.

I stand up too.

Kanan: I can't change what I did, no more than you can change what happened to Aalya. It's in the past. But, Y/N you have to make the choice to move on.

Y/N: How?

He points at the lightsaber.

Kanan: You're gonna start with this. You're gonna build a new one. A lightsaber you can call your own.

I wipe away my tears.

Y/N: Okay.

Kanan gets on the comm link.

Kanan: Hera, set a course for Illum.

Hera: Kanan, are you sure?

Kanan: Yes. I'm sure. It's time.

Hera: Okay. I'll set a course.

After that we head to the cockpit.

(Two hours later)

(Planet: Illum)

We come out of hyperspace over Illum. Kanan said I'll be able to find my own lightsaber crystal here.

Hera flies us down and lands on the surface.

Kanan and I stand there as the ramp lowers.

Kanan: Y/N, you will be tested here.

Y/N: Yeah, I figured as much, but I'm ready.

Kanan: I don't mean just here. Every Jedi faces the Darkside. And it's very easy to fail.

I sigh.

Y/N: I understand, Master.

He nods.

Kanan: Now, go.

Y/N: Okay.

I look down at BD-2.

Y/N: BD, you stay here. I have to do this one alone.

BD-2: (Beeps.)

I smile.

Y/N: I'll be okay, buddy.

I walk off the Ghost and immediately feel the cold wind hit my face.

Y/N: Well, this is lovely weather.

I go straight ahead and come across a temple. It's mostly covered in ice.

Y/N: Whoa. This place is huge.

I'm thinking I've gotta climb up in order to get inside.

So, I go over and climb up the wall.

(Ten minutes later)

I'm now inside the temple and see an ice wall infront of me.

Just then the sunlight shines through and this causes the ice wall to melt.

Y/N: Okay. Time to find my own lightsaber crystal.

I rush inside and start looking around.

(One hour later)

So, I've been running around these icy hallways for at least an hour now.

I keep running into dead-ends and it's getting really annoying.

I slam my hand against the wall.

Y/N: Damn it! I can't find anything. No lightsaber crystals anywhere.

I turn back and slide down the wall.

Y/N: Great. I'm all alone with no lightsaber and I don't have a crystal to make a new one. This is just fantastic!

I sigh.

I need to focus and calm myself.

So, I close my eyes and focus. I then hear a voice.

???: Big fears have you faced, young one.

Y/N: Yes.

???: Mmm. For what lies ahead, ready are you?

Y/N: I am.

???: Come. See more clearly what you could not see before.

Y/N: Who are you?

???: A guide.

I open my eyes and see sparkles floating infront of me.

The sparkles go back down the way I came. I get up and follow it back the way I came.

Third person perspective

While Y/N is in the temple the other's wait on the Ghost for him.

They're all sat in the cockpit.

Sabine: Do you think Y/N's okay?

Hera: Kanan says he is and I trust Kanan's word on that.

Sabine: I get that, but you didn't see Y/N when he came back to the ship. He was really freaked out.

Hera: Y/N's strong, Sabine. He'll be fine.

She sighs.

Sabine: I hope so.

All they can do is wait for Y/N to return.