The Beauty of Pain

Chapter 15

"Doc, you have to decide who to choose between the two. We need to act right away to save the patient."

I'm about to open my eyes when I heared people talking around me. Kaya nagtulog-tulugan muna ako. Gusto kung marinig ang iba pa nilang pag-uusap.

"This is so hard for me. Can CL decide once she wakes up? God! I can't. I want them both. I want the woman I love and my child."

It must be Luca. Yung boses niya na problemadong problemado at nahihirapan. He is talking to someone. I think one of my doctors. The are having a problem in managing my condition.

"Hindi pwede na hindi ka mamili. You know that. Alam na alam mo na if we can't both save them. You have to choose only one."

"Kinuha ko sayo ang case ni Dra. Riva. As much as I want you to be his Anesthesiologist hindi pwede. You are so affected and preoccupied. But you have to promise me that you will cooperate." Paliwanag ng kausap nito.

"I- I can't. I'm sorry.... mmmh... A-ayaw kung pagsisihan 'to habang buhay. Ayaw kung mamili pagkatapos magkamali ako. Buong buhay kung dadalhin sa aking konsensya." Halos magkautal utal ang bawat salita na lumalabas sa bibig ni Luca.

Kailangan ko na sigurong ipaalam sa kanila na gising na ako. Baka hindi sila makapagdecide sa kung ano man ang mga plano nila sa aking kalagayan. Knowing Luca. Baka hindi ko magustuhan ang pipiliin niya.

"W-what's the problem?" Kahit medyo masakit ang aking lalamunan ay pinilit kung makapagsalita.

Sabay silang napalingon sa akin. Luca hurriedly approached me.

"Hey, how are you feeling right now?" Puno ng pag-aalala niyang tanong sa akin. Malamlam ang kaniyang mga mata. It's not the same eyes I love staring at. Mas sanay akong makita na nag-aapoy sa galit ang kaniyang mga mata. O di kaya't matalim ito parati kung makatingin. Ngayon sobrang lungkot ang mga ito.

I smiled at him. He looks so haggard. Nangingitim ang ilalim ng kaniyang mata. Hindi rin ito nakapag shave manlang. He even lose some weight.

"You look, awful Luca." Nakangiwi kung sabi ko sa kaniya. Nangunot muna ang noo nito at inisip ang ang aking sinabi.

Natigilan ito, umiling at biglang humalakhak. Nangunot naman ang aking noo sa kaniyang reaction.

"Damn, my baby is back. I miss this side of you." He said while holding my hand.

He is looking at me with so much gentleness in his eyes. I saw some sadness and pain. But he is trying to his best to conceal it.

"How's my condition? Why are you discussing about it? Sabihin mo sa akin ang totoo..." Banta ko sa kaniya. Matalim ko siyang tiningnan.

"ahemmm..." Tumikhim yung lalaking may edad na. Naka coat ito na puti so I guess, he is a doctor too. My attending physician probably.

"By the way, baby. He is Dr. Manuel. Your attending physician." Pakilala ni Luca kay doctor. Tipid akong ngumiti dito. Tumango naman ito bilang tugon.

"Dr. Riva, it's nice to know you are awake now after almost a week of being drowsy and sleeping. But, maiwan ko muna kayo. I'll be back if my decision kana Dr.dela Vega. I'll explained everything. Dr. dela Vega here will also explain to you some information regarding your condition. I'll leave now." Ngumiti ito at nagpaalam.

Gumanti rin ako ng ngiti at tinanguan ito. Muli kung tiningnan si Luca.

"Did I slept for a week? Seriously?" Mangha kung tanong sa kaniya. Tumango ito sa akin. He grip my hand tightly.

"Partly yes. There were times you woke up but drowsy and we can't even talk to you. Then you get back again for being unconcious. We are waiting for you to finally wake up."