The Sub Rosa [Completed]

Chapter 27

"Tell me about my children. Who was in charge of them? Who took care of them? Who put them to sleep after they cried so loudly at dawn? Who are you to hurt me like this? Please tell me about my sons; I am the mother, and I am entitled to the whole truth and nothing but the truth!"

Huminga ako ng malalim pagka't kinapos ata ako ng hangin sa gigil at galit rito.

"Speak!"

I'm surprised na sa kabila ng matindi kong pag-iyak ay nagawa ko pa siyang sigawan.

Sinapak sapak ko ito sa kaniyang matigas na dibdib. He wiped my tears but I can't stop from crying.

Umiling ako nang kinulong niya ako sa kaniyang bisig. Walang lakas na tinutulak ko siya at ang aking mga binti ay nanghihina na kung ako'y bibitawan niya ay mabubuwal ako sa sahig.

"We'll talk if you stop crying." He sounds worried.

May isang basong tubig siyang inabot sa akin. Inalalayan akong umupo sa dulo ng kama at agad na aking nilapitan ang mga kambal.

Masuyo akong humalik sa kanilang noo, payapa ang tulog nila kaya nagsisisi akong sumigaw kanina.

Hilam na luha, medyo sinisinok man pero ayaw ko nang umiyak para marinig ng maayos ang tungkol sa mga anak ko.

"How did you know me in the first place?"

Impossible na basta na lamang niya akong pinapasundan noon, na walang kasabwat at kasama sa lahat ng kagaguhang ito?

Humilig siya sa katapat na pader ng kama at pumikit.

"We met when you were in your teenage years, and I was already in my mid-twenties. Probably you won't remember that you spilled a cocktail on my shirt one time when you were on vacation in Argentina, as your attention was only drawn to Azrael Salem."

Tumawa ito sa mga unang sinabi ngunit kalaunan nawala ang saya sa tono at seryosong nagmulat ng mata na tumitig sa akin.

Hindi ko maintindihan bakit gusto ko siyang titigan sa mata. Basta ang pinipilit kong rason ay para huwag itong magsinungaling sa akin.

"I thought love at first sight wasn't true, but goddamn! You enchanted me, and I could not help but want you all to myself."

His brows met, and he sounded enraged as he told me he loved me.

Is he confessing to me right now? I have four husbands already; we can't.

Why am I even thinking that he could be my fifth husband? Shame on me!

Tarantado at Gago talaga.

I tried to look the other way to avoid his burning gaze, because that's what I should do! He is the father of my sons; he was, because I never knew I had sons. If I hadn't found out on my own, then I'd wasted another month not knowing my kids!

"I watched you cry while that damn mother fucker was kissing another woman. I killed those women who wanted Azrael because I could not stand you weeping and begging for him to love you."

I almost choked on it, even though I had just sipped on the glass of water.

Ang malamang siya ang gumagawa sa pagkawala ng mga naging babae noon ni Azrael ay talagang nagpagulat sa akin.

Ilang balde ang aking niluha noon sa tuwing makikita ko itong iba-iba ang mga babaeng kasama.

Ganun ako kabaliw para kay Azrael na inaaway ko lahat ng mga babaeng dumadaan sa buhay nito. Khalista was helping me, so as Seleucus and his brothers, Ptolemy and Lysimachus.

Hindi na dapat ako magulat sa mga kaya nitong gawin. He stole my eggs. Patunay na kung baliw na ako noon, mas baliw siya.

"I'd rather see you happy with other men than take your own life."