The Sub Rosa [Completed]

Chapter 29

Warning: Slight matured content.

Hindi madaling manganak, pakiramdam ko nang mga oras na iyon mamamatay ako. Ngayon ako naniniwala na kapag ang isang buntis ay manganganak na ang kaniyang isang paa ay nasa butas ng hukay.

I'm so scared for my babies and for myself during that time.

Ang hirap mag labor ng halos buong araw, grabeng kirot, paghihilab, at tila nakakamatay na sakit sa aking tiyan ngunit lahat ng ito ay aking nalagpasan.

I successfully gave birth to three pretty baby girls. The three of them came out to me in normal delivery! The pain I went through was all worth it!

If someone would ask me about my vajayjay, well, it doesn't concern me anymore. Ang mahalaga maayos kong nai-luwal ang tatlong prinsesa namin. The pain down there became bearable as I followed the advice of my Mom, Tita Aurora, and Auntie Elora, the mother of Eraus.

During the first days, it felt like I was in an extreme state of anguish. I became so weak that I couldn't walk or have a bath on my own. Thus, the news that had reached me that something bad had happened to Ptolemy and Seleucus made me stressed for a whole month.

Seleucus's case was one of sudden vision loss, or, in other words, unilateral vision loss. The cause was the head trauma he got from the gunshots.
 
A bullet almost passes through his head, I'm grateful it didn't but unfortunately it hit some nerve. I know him, he wouldn't tell me but I feel that he's slowly drawing himself out of me and our lives. He won't eat, he won't say that he still wants to see us. He's been quiet and refused to be check up.

Bagong panganak lamang ako nun pero ramdam kong aalis na siya. Magaling itong magtago ng nararamdaman noon pa man, ayaw kong hintayin na magising nalang ako na wala na siya.

Dumating ang araw na iyon.

Hindi ako pumayag nang gusto ni Seleucus na umalis at magpakalayo sa akin, sa amin. He's breaking his promise to me that we'll be together through ups and downs, gray hair, and until worse. Despite the fact that my marriage with him and to them was invalid, I still acknowledge them as my husbands.

He was with me when I lost myself in the world, and now that I want him to share his problems with me, he doesn't want me to meddle.

Sasamahan ko siya sa kahit anong buhay.

Para hindi siya umalis sa tabi ko I tied him up. Of course with the help of his brothers and cousins! Alam kong pagiging makasarili yung ginawa ko pero kung ha-hayaan ko siya baka hindi na siya bumalik.

Nang pumayag na siyang magpatingin at magpagamot sobrang saya namin.

Syempre hindi agaran na nakabangon kaming lahat.

Ang mga therapy and sessions ni Ptolemy that could help him walk again without the help of his crutches, para sa kaniya hindi epektibo. He became impatient and always angry towards his personal nurses and doctors. I talked to him, we talked. Takot siyang aminin noong una na baka tuluyan na itong hindi makalakad.

I realized that we have so many problems. Masyadong mabigat at ang hirap resolbahin.

That's why I told Eraus, Azrael, and Lysimachus we needed to live somewhere far from the people who knew us.

We did everything that we could do. Palakasin ang loob ng dalawa and motivate them. Hindi ko sila sinuko sa mga panahon na sila mismo ang gustong bumitaw. I prayed a lot to the lord though I know that I'm a sinner. Nanindigan at kumapit ako sa kaniya.

Kalaunan tinulungan nila mismo ang mga sarili kaya napabilis yung paggaling.

There was less toxicity, and the results were that they healed, and afterwards Ptolemy could walk freely.