Always Be Forever

Chapter 46: Snow, Why did you try to take your life?

2087, BCE, November 5

"Mom? Dad? There's something I need to tell you,"

I had started. Jason had just dropped me off at my parents place. I don't know why, but they probably think that I should tell them the truth. I'm not ready to tell anyone the truth. But I'm afraid. Yes, I'm afraid that someone's going to judge me if I tell the truth. "Snow, come on in. There's no need to stay near the door," David had told me. My hand was still on the doorknob, longing for Jason to take me back to his place. He took my hand off of the doorknob, and held my hand right there. "Let me make you some tea," Lucy had told me before heading into the kitchen. It was just off the living room, with an island in the middle of it. The dining room was to the left of it, with the living room in front of it. David took me to the living room, sat me down on the sofa, grabbed a blanket, and wrapped it around me, staying right there beside me as Lucy came back with some herbal tea for me. In the past, I would normally drink tea when I needed to discuss something with my parents. "Snow, just know that we love you and we would never judge you," Lucy had told me before reaching her hand out to me. "What's wrong?" David had asked me, having his arm around my back. "Do you remember when Tiffany went missing?" I had started. "I remember seeing the headlines," Lucy had commented as the tears were slowly starting to fall from my eyes. "Okay. Do you remember when Jason and I came by to drop off Leandro, and then a couple of hours later, Jason came to the door to get him?" I had asked. Oh man, I don't know if I can do this anymore. No Snow, you've already started; you have to finish now. You've already taken off the Band-Aid, now it's time to show the wound and what caused it to bleed. "Yeah I remember," David had let out. "The reason why Jason came up to the door after, was because I had blood on my dress," I had told them. I wanted to stop there. Lucy's reaction was not pretty. "Why was there blood on your dress?" Lucy had asked. "It was Tiffany's."

David had brought his arm back to his side instead of having it wrapped around me. I wish I could take back what I just said, but I can't. "What exactly happened?" David had asked, staying by my side. I thought he was going to go to Lucy. "Tiffany had threatened to tell the entire school about Leandro, and so Jason and I decided to run Tiffany out of town. We never planned on killing her," I had started, taking a sip of my tea, and then setting it down on the table. "A few days after she was announced missing, I had actually found her. Jason and I kidnapped her, soon after we dropped off Leandro, and since she was making a ruckus in the trunk, we had to stop the car. The nearest place was the river where she was found. Like I said, we didn't plan on killing her, but something must've happened in Jason's mind that caused him to change it. So we went to push her in, but before we could, a gunshot went off, probably from the other side of the river, and Tiffany fell on me," I had added. More tears were falling. "Causing the bloodstain to happen," Lucy had commented. "I had set Tiffany onto the ground and ran for the car. I feel like such a fool. I feel like I'm the reason that she's dead. If we didn't kidnap her, she would still be here," I had finally told them, watching the tears come out like a waterfall. David was now rubbing his arm around my back now, and held me in a hug. "Snow, I will always love you, no matter what. Is that why you tried to take your own life?" He had finally asked me. "Yes," I had let out. "On Halloween, Jason and I had met up with Alex and Chris, where we each told stuff that we wouldn't repeat to anyone. We decided to go back to where Tiffany was found," I had let out, stopping my words. My mouth was now quivering from it all.

Grabbing my tea from the table, I take another sip of it, and then set it back down, getting myself ready for the next confession. "When we got there, standing at the same spot where we were going to push Tiffany in, I couldn't handle the guilt that was rising inside of me. It's because of that guilt, that I jumped," I had finally told them before the tears were falling again, and I covered my face from the tears. Lucy reached her hand out to me from across the table, and grabbed my free hand. "Snow, always know that you don't have to bottle everything up from us. You can always come to us, and we will help. I know how you feel. I really do. I remember high school like it was yesterday. David and I both knew Jasmine, Cashmere's mom, and we stood by there for her, no matter what she went through," Lucy had told me. "She felt like she went through hell, and one of those reasons is because she didn't tell her parents. We don't want you to go through the same thing that she went through," David had told me. "I don't know why, but I always felt like you guys wouldn't understand," I told them. It's true; I felt like they wouldn't understand what I was going through. "Snow, we will always understand. We've been through high school and junior high; we know what it's like. You don't have to be afraid to come out and tell us," David had assured me. "Why weren't we called to the hospital?" Lucy had asked. That question was probably in her head ever since I told her I jumped. "I had changed Jason to be my emergency contact," I had told them. I was getting tired. David had let me rest on the sofa, putting a pillow there for me, along with the blanket that I had. "I'll come get you in the morning," David had told me before kissing me on the forehead.

Okay, I got to admit, that was probably the best sleep I've been able to have ever since the incident. In the morning, I woke up to the smell of pancakes being made from the kitchen. Lucy was in the kitchen, making them. David had come down from the stairs, putting his coat on and heading towards Lucy, grabbing a pancake and starting to eat it. "Everything okay?" Lucy had asked him as he grabbed one more pancake. "I had got a call from James, he needs me," David had told Lucy. "Is everything all right?" Lucy had asked.

"Jasmine's in the hospital."