wolfstar black family reunion

one week later

10th April 1972

Sirus pov

4am

I woke up to see it was 4am, I was really tired from the nightmares this week. For the past few days I have been staying in the dorm rooms after what reg said to me. He told me he wished I wasn't his brother, when he said that to me he tried to apologise for it but I just walked away from him. It really hurt to know he would say that to me and I just hated myself for it.

My grandparents and the others all tell me he regrets what he said. I didn't want to hear it and led me to have a panic attack. Remus told him to stay away from me for a while so I cam try to forgive him. When I was alone I just couldn't take it anymore and tried to self harm again.

I almost did it if it wasn't for remus who found me in the toilet and stopped me, he pulled me into his arms and I just had a mental break down in his arms. Mcgoncall and dumbledore who were behind remus and saw what I was about to do, took the sharp object away from me. Remus stayed with me so I could calm down, he knew this was caused by what reg said to me.

James and the others were shocked but also watched me in that bad place. When I eventually calmed down, I fell asleep without realising it. James and lily were really mad knowing this was caused by reg, when I woke up to see the remus back with some food for me, while james and lily had the snacks. They made sure I was taken care of during those few day away from him.

Dumbledore had madam pompfery check on me after that. She knew I was under alot of stres, so Dumbledore and mcgoncall did the only thing to help me clear my head, and told reg he wasn't allowed anywhere near me for a while. Reg was begging remus and James to let him see me but they said no, because I was in a bad place.

I sit up wanting to get some fresh air but felt someone arm around my waist and saw it was remus. I lye back down to sleep before realising that James and lily were cuddling eachother.I was shocked knowing lily and James were probably together. I knew I was going to ask them about this in the morning. Right now I wanted to sleep with the one person who made sure to make me happy was in my arms.

8am.

I woke up to see the dorm rooms completely empty, I lye back down not wanting to leave the room. I knew remus was probably in the great hall for breakfast, I hear the door open to see dumbledore and mcgoncall there. How you feeling today mcgonical said, alright just tired and hungry I said. Well that's good to hear and here's your breakfast for the day mcgoncall said.

They hand me the plate of breakfast, has my brother been asking to see me I said. Yes and he's been begging remus and James to let him see you mcgoncall said. I don't get why he keeps asking I don't want to face him right now I said, no one knows why he isn't taking no for an answer dumbledore said. I do think he misses you and he doesn't want to see you hurt mcgoncall said.

Hmm I don't know why he said that to me it hurts I said. It was something out of the ordinary but right now you need to focus on yourself dumbledore said. I finished eating as they took the plate away from me, everyday they would come and check on me. I hate the fact my parents are here and now it feels like I lost everyone in my family.

I go over to the window and saw how beautiful it was. I loved the outdoors ever since I was a a child, seeing how beautiful it was made me think back to the good old days. It was really quiet which I was suprised because it would usually be very loud here, I went back to bed and started reading a book that was remus.

10am.

I was still reading the book which I really liked, it was very cool and worth my time. I was distracted that I didn't hear the door open, I only realised when someone took the book away. I looked up and saw it was remus with a smile, you know I don't like it when people touch my stuff remus said. Can I have it I really like the book please I said.