Love is blind

Julia

Sem and I have been living with Kimberly for four weeks now. The atmosphere in the house is not really great. Kimberly and I say little to each other and mostly try to avoid each other. I know it's because of what I said. I really hurt her with that. I just can't explain to her what I meant. Then I really mess everything up. Fortunately, Sem hardly notices it. Of course he can feeling the tension between Kimberly and me, but he really loves it here. Fortunately, how things are going between Kimberly and me doesn't change the way of how Kimberly treats Sem. They are still big buddies. In that respect, I'm glad I didn't go to a hotel with Sem. I just have to put my feelings aside even more and then I'm sure that things will get better between Kimberly and me.

It is Wednesday at the end of the morning when Frederick comes to me. "Julia I want you to pack your things and go home. Go and enjoy the weekend". I look at him a bit surprised. "What do I owe that to? ". He gives me a smile. "You've been putting in a lot of hours lately. So go home and enjoy your well-deserved weekend". Still a bit surprised by the early weekend I get in the car. I must admit that I can use it. Sem is on a camp with school this week, so maybe I'll go to a hotel for a few days. So that I can really get some rest. When I get home I notice that I don't see any staff walking around. Silvia is waiting for me in the kitchen. "Julia, sit down please." I just do what she ask. "Is something going on? ". She shakes her head. "Nothing bad anyway". I really wonder what's going on. I now also get the idea that Frederick didn't send me home for no reason. "Kimberly is waiting for you on the beach. It's really time you talk to each other, because the way things are going isn't going to make anyone happier." I nod. "You're right, but I keep screwing up". She shakes her head. "Julia you didn't screw anything up. You said something that was misunderstood by Kimberly. Something like that can happen". I sigh. "I did screw up. I'm lucky that Kimberly still hangs out with me after I kissed her in Italy. Now I was stupid enough to say such a thing." Silvia shakes her head with a big smile on her face. "I get so tired of the both of you sometimes. Julia you really need to go outside now. Kimberly must be wondering where you are. Now finally start talking to each other," she says laughing. I don't really get what's funny, but I'm not going to get into it. "Okay, I'll do that then." I walk over to Silvia to give her a hug. Then I'll go look for Kimberly.

How nervous I walk to the beach. There I see Kimberly sitting on a large picnic blanket. Looks like she prepared a picnic. "Hey," I say softly as I sit down on with her. "Hey". Kimberly looks at me with a small smile. I can tell she's nervous too. "What do I owe this to? ". Kimberly shrugs. "I can't stand how things are going between us anymore. Tomorrow I have to go back to Italy for three months. I don't want to go away from you like this". I'm shocked when she says that. I knew she had to go back soon. Only I didn't know it would be now and certainly not that it would be for so long. I don't know how to react to it either, so there is a silence. "Take it if you want something. I tried to put everything you like here," Kimberly says after about five minutes to break the silence. "Thank you ". We eat in an awkward silence. "Sorry, it's all my fault". Kimberly shakes her head. "Yes Sunshine. I should never have said it like that. I know I hurt you with it. I am really sorry ". She looks at me. "Then why did you say it? ". I sigh. "I wish I could explain it. It has to do with a feeling of mine, but I can't tell you. As long as you know you didn't do anything wrong". Kimberly nods. "Okay. You're really not going to tell me, are you? ". I shake my head. "Sorry, I wish I could. But please believe me when I say you did nothing wrong. It really is entirely up to me". She gives me a small smile. "I believe you. Let's forget about it? ". I give her a hug. "Yes please ". Fortunately, we both soon relaxed again and we talk about the past few weeks. It's not going the way we used to, but I'm glad we're talking to each other again.

We satoutside for a long time. It felt good to be with Kimberly again. After that Itook a shower and lay in bed for a while. I really had to process that Kimberlywill be gone for three months. Maybe it's a good thing, but I'm really going tomiss her. By the time I get back downstairs it is already dark. I don't seeKimberly anywhere, but I see a light in the garden. I walk that way. "CanI come lay with you? " I ask Kimberly when I find her in the garden. She islying in a bed that she has there. "Yes of course ". I lay on my backnext to her. I turn my head towards her. "Why do you actually have a bed in thegarden? ". Kimberly laughs. "Just look up". I do what she says. "Yeah okay, Itotally get it now. I thought there was a roof on this," I say as I look at thestars in the sky. "Just what you say, was. You can fold it in and then you havethis view. Sometimes I can lie here all night. It's so soothing". I really haveto agree with her on that one. "Would you like to lie closer to me? "Kimberlycomes lie half over me without saying anything. "What time are you leavingtomorrow? " I ask while playing with her hair. "Silvia will pick me up tomorrowmorning around eight o'clock," she says with a sigh. "And then you really areaway for three months? ". I feel her nod. "I'm going to miss you ".Kimberly looks at me for a moment. "I'll miss you too. I promise I will callyou every day". After saying that, she puts her head back on my chest. I enjoythis moment in silence. I also try to put this moment in my mind as best I canso that I can think back on it for the next three months.