My tears start to flow when I'm in the car on the way home. When I got home I tried to wipe away the tears a bit. I take a look at myself in the rear-view mirror. I try to wipe off my smeared mascara. When I walk in, the staff dare not say anything to me. Knowing my father, he already informed them. I walk straight to my bedroom and fall on the bed. I can't talk about it. I don't want to believe that Vincent is gone. And that's all my fault. Finally, I fall asleep crying.
After an hour or two I wake up with another nightmare. I decide to get up and go to the gym. There I knock all the pain out of my body. Fortunately, I found my way in this, to be able to forget everything for a while. When I'm completely empty I go back to my room to shower. Then I put on my onesie and plop down on the couch.
The sun is just rising when my father walks in. "Hey Dad". He immediately gives me a hug. "I also had to give you this one from Julia". When he says that I feel a small smile on my face. My father joins me on the couch. "Are you okay?" he asks concerned. "Yeah. I had a good time in the gym. Sorry about yesterday. I didn't scare Julia too much, did I? ". I don't really know why I'm most concerned about that at the moment. "It's all right princess. I explained it to Julia. She understood your reaction". I look at him a bit startled. "What did you tell her? ". "That Vincent passed away three years ago and that you are still having a hard time with that." I sigh. "Nothing else? ". He shakes his head. "No princess. I have not told the whole story". I relax a bit. "Thank you Dad". He gives me a kiss on my head. "You know I would never do that. I leave that to you. If you ever want to talk about it yourself ". I shake my head. "Never ".
My father and I are having breakfast at the kitchen table. "Julia still has to shop for her wardrobe at the office". My father says it out of the blue. "So? ". I look at him questioningly. "Why don't you come to the office later to pick her up. I think she would appreciate your help and a little distraction wouldn't be bad for you. I can give Julia the afternoon off for that. I myself am already out at twelve o'clock for an appointment ". I sigh. It's not that I don't like spending the afternoon with Julia, but I don't know if I can face her after yesterday. "I don't know Dad". He rubs my back briefly. "I understand how difficult it is for you after yesterday, but you will meet her again anyway. I really think it will do you both good". "I will think about it ". My father gets up. He gives me a kiss on the head and then leaves for the office.
I decide to go back to bed. Hopefully I can catch up on some sleep from last night. I wake up at half past one. Fortunately, I was able to sleep for a few hours without a nightmare. I think about what my father told me. Maybe it is indeed a good idea to go shopping with Julia. I quickly change and in the meantime I call the head of my staff to ask him to prepare my motorcycle. I haven't driven in a while and I'm really looking forward to it today.
It's almost two o'clock when I get to the office. When I walk into Julia's office I see that she is busy behind the computer. "Hey". She looks up startled. "Hey Kimberly". She looks at me from bottom to top. As soon as her eyes have found mine, I feel myself blushing. I don't know why. I've never had that problem before. I turn around so she can't see. "Uhm... Your father is not here". Julia sounds a little absent. "Yes I know ". "Oh". Is all she answers. There is a moment of silence, until Julia breaks the silence. "Kimberly, I'm sorry about yesterday. I really had no idea". She says it in a very shy tone. I turn back to her. "It's all right. I just didn't see it coming. I'm guessing you're not reading or listing on the news and tabloids." I say it with a little laugh. I actually like it too. Normally everyone always thinks they know how things are with our family, by what they hear and read. Julia can also laugh at that comment. "You saw that right. I don't really believe in that. I don't believe things until I've seen them with my own eyes." My smile widens when I hear her say that. "I think that's a nice thinking. You don't want to know how many people judge me just by what they read," I say with a sigh. "I know what you mean. I've heard people talk about you, but don't recognize you at all". Judging by Julia's shocked face, she hadn't really meant to say that. "Yes I know. Everyone thinks I'm a bitch here. Because I am described in the media as an ice queen who never smile. Maybe they are right about that, but no one dares to talk to me with sincere interest. They all have already made their judgment, because of the lies that are being spread". I notice by pronouncing it this way that it does more to me than I always thought. "Well I haven't known you twenty-four hours yet, but I've seen that beautiful smile of yours a few times already". I feel myself blush again. "But what are you doing here if you know your father isn't here? ". How glad I am that Julia is turning the conversation in a different direction. I was just about to turn my face away from her again. "Well um.... I'm here to take you shopping". I see Julia looking at me in surprise. "That sounds very nice, but I'm still working". I look at her with a smile. "Order from my father. He told me this morning that you still had to fill your wardrobe here and that you could use my help. That we could do that this afternoon, because he himself is not present anyway ". The expression on Julia's face changes a bit. "Oh, I can do that myself this week. Surely you have better things to do". It sounds like she's disappointed. "Hey, if I hadn't felt like it, I really wouldn't have been standing here. I don't normally listen to my father that well. Quite frankly, I can't think of anything better at the moment than to spend the rest of the afternoon with you." Luckily I see her smile coming back. I think I see her blushing a bit too. "Okay. Only if you are sure". I nod with a smile on my face. "If you wait for me in front. Then I'll close everything here and then I'll drive after you ". Now I shake my head. Julia looks at me questioningly. "In the time that you close here, I will pick up something from my father's office". Before Julia can respond, I walk into my father's office.
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Love is blind
عاطفيةJulia Brown is thirty years old and mother of Sem. She hasn't had the best years. She feels like it's finally going to be her year or at least she hopes so. Kimberly Hansen is twenty-three years old. She is described as an ice queen and a bitch by t...
