Love is blind

Julia

I spent a little longer in town than originally intended. I loved having some time to myself and to think. I really needed it too. The past few weeks have been emotionally tough. I also slept badly during that time. I missed Kimberly. We live together now, but we have never been so far apart. Last night I finally slept well again, but that can't be any other way with Kimberly in my arms. I was really so happy with Silvia's statement. I really don't know how I could have lasted three months without Kimberly. Especially since we've finally made up. I also really hope that we can now put it behind us and just get along again.

After shopping I was home just in time to sit down for dinner. Then the three of us moved to the living room. Kimberly is in the corner of the couch watching TV. Silvia is sitting at the other end of the couch, working on her laptop. I don't know what happened between the two, but ever since I got back I can feel a certain tension between them. I sat down in a armchair and grabbed my laptop. I want to do something quick for work, but I can't really focus on it. I've been thinking about Kimberly all day. I do that every day, but today is different. It's mostly because of what Silvia said. That made me think about Kimberly's behavior. Maybe I've been wrong all along or maybe I'm hoping too hard now. There's only one thing to know for sure and that's talking to Kimberly. She deserves to know the truth anyway. Maybe I'm making a very big mistake and this will mean the end of our friendship, but I have to take the risk. I'm just afraid I'll going to be quiet if I tell her, so I very nervously grab my phone. Maybe this isn't the best way, but I don't know how else to do it.

J: Hey Sunshine

I see Kimberly take out her phone. After reading my message, she looks at me questioningly. With a nervous smile on my face, I make it clear to her that she has to respond over the phone.

K: Hey. Have you lost your voice?

J: No, but not everyone needs to hear this.

K: Okay. Do you want to sit down somewhere quiet with just the two of us?

I shake my head at Kimberly when she looks at me questioningly. I'm already nervous. Let alone if I have to pronounce it, then I can't get my words out at all.

J: May I ask something?

I see Kimberly typing with a smile on her face.

K: You already do ;)

K: But come on. What do you want to ask me?

I retype my message ten times. I really doubt if this is smart, but I just have to do it.

J: Suppose you've been madly in love with someone for a long time, but you're not sure what the other person feels. What would you do then?

I see the smile disappear from Kimberly's face. I'm very afraid I shouldn't have said anything. Kimberly doesn't even look at me anymore. It also takes a while for her to respond.

K: Um, I'd go for it. I haven't heard you about anyone before. Who is the lucky one?

J: Hopefully I do. This person is my sunshine every day, sweet, caring, beautiful, romantic, sometimes a little crazy, sexy, my safe haven and Sem's buddy. I could go on and on, but we'll still be here tomorrow. So you're saying I should take a the risk?

Kimberly's whole attitude has changed. I'm pretty sure now that I did it wrong. I just want to tell her to forget that I sent something, but before I can do that I already have a response back.

K: Do what you can't resist. He would be stupid to reject you.

After Kimberly sends that, she throws her phone aside and stands up. "Kimberly". She shakes her head. "Leave me alone for a while," she says, very irritated, as she quickly leaves the room. Which actually does me good. My gut says she doesn't realize it's about her and is jealous. Anyway, I hope it is. "No, let me," I say quickly when I see Silvia getting up. "Okay, are you sure? I have no idea where that came from all of a sudden". I nod with a small smile on my face. "I do. I'll fix it". Silvia looks at me questioningly and sits down again. I quickly go after Kimberly.

Just before Kimberly wants to go up the stairs I can grab her hand. "Sunshine what is it? "I ask calmly. "Nothing. Just give me a minute." I think she's crying. "Julia please let me. Sorry for reacting like this," she says as I pull her towards me. "Why are you reacting like this? ". She sighs and remains silent. She hasn't looked at me yet. I grab her face so I can turn her face so we face each other. Tears run down her face. "Sunshine why are you reacting like this? ". She shrugs. I try to wipe away her tears a little. "Doesn't matter. Don't worry about that. Just tell him what you feel. Whoever it may be". I look at her with a small smile. "I tried that too, but she doesn't realize I'm talking about her. She is especially trying very hard to walk away from me." Kimberly looks at me with wide eyes. "What do you mean? ". I look deep into her eyes. "Dear Kimberly I was talking about you. You're the one I've been madly in love with for so long. You are my sunshine every day, my Sunshine. I never said anything because I was afraid it would destroy our friendship. That's also why I said I couldn't handle living with you. I've tried to put my feelings aside. In Italy I did not kiss you for no reason. It wasn't my intention, but I couldn't put my feelings aside at the time. I'm having more and more trouble doing that the rest of the time. That's why I have to let you know. I hope so much that this does not destroy our friendship". Kimberly stares at me.

I'm starting to get even more nervous now. "Please Kimberly say something," I whisper when Kimberly doesn't say anything. "Are you serious? ". I nod. "I have never been so serious. You don't want to know how hard it is for me not to hold you or kiss you again. You make me feel something I've never felt before. You make me complete and I can be completely myself with you". Fortunately, I finally see a smile on Kimberly's face. She grabs my shirt at the bottom and pulls me closer to her. "May I kiss you"? she asks softly. "I'd love to, but only if you feel the same way. I can't handle it if you do it for any other reason". I look Kimberly in the eye when I say that. They shine like never before. Slowly I see her face moving closer to mine. "I feel the same. Julia I'm crazy about you," she whispers just before placing her lips on mine. An electric shock immediately goes through my body and I feel the butterflies fluttering in my stomach. Our kiss in Italy already felt great, but it was nothing compared to what I feel now. I put my arms around her neck and hold her face as close to me as possible. Kimberly has moved her hands to my hips and presses our bodies close together.

Kimberlyputs her forehead against mine. We both have a big smile on our face. We bothneed some time to catch our breath. "Have I been so blind? I never thought I'dhave a chance with you". I nod. "I thought exactly the same". We justkeep staring at each other. "Shall we go back? I think Silvia is wonderingwhere we are by now." Kimberly nods when I say after a while. "Yeah we have to.Can we keep it between us for a while? I have to realize it myself before weare flooded with questions and comments about how blind I have been". I look ather with a sad face. "So I have to keep my hands off you all the time? ". Shestarts laughing. "Do not be afraid. I do make sure there are times when weare alone". Which also makes me smile. "I hold you to that. I just want to tellSem right away when he gets home tomorrow, if you don't mind." Kimberly's smilefades a bit. "What will he think of this? " she asks, a little unsure. I gripher a little tighter. "I don't think he's going to have a problem with it.He's totally into you. It might be a little weird for him at first, but I'mpretty sure he's okay with it. Shall we go back to the living room now? ".Kimberly nods. Thankfully, her smile is back. "You know him best and if youthink he's okay with it I believe you. Before we go back I need one more kissto get through the rest of the evening. Then you'll go back and I'll have to doa happy dance before I can show myself in the living room again." Smiling, Ishake my head. "I'd love to help you with that kiss, but can't I see your happydance? ". She shakes her head. "Then you don't find me sexy anymore." I bringmy lips to Kimberly's. "That's impossible," I say just before ourlips meet. It feels really great to be able to do this now. After we struggleto separate, I leave Kimberly alone in the hallway. I try to hide my smile asbest I can when I come back into the living room.