Love is blind

Kimberly

I wake up because someone gently pushes me against my shoulder. "Kimberly wake up". I open my eyes in shock when I hear that it is Silvia. "Shit. Sorry, I overslept". I quickly free myself from Julia's arms and sit up straight. Which also wakes Julia up. "Good morning beautiful. Sorry to wake you up like this. We fell asleep here and now I overslept," I say a bit stressed, when I see Julia's confused face. "Kimberly take it easy. We're not going anywhere". I look at Silvia in surprise. "What do you mean? ". She looks at me with a smile. "If you had keep your mobile with you, I could have told you last night that it is cancelled. There's something wrong with the permit to film there. They now want to film everything in the Netherlands, but it is not yet known when the filming will start". With a smile on my face I lie down with Julia again. She immediately grabs me tightly. "Are you serious? ". Silvia nods. "Very serious. Otherwise we would have been much too late. It's already half past one. I'm glad to see that you've made it up again. I'll let you wake up quietly now, if that's still possible. I'll make coffee for Julia and tea for you," says Silvia when she's already on her way inside.

I roll all over Julia. She has a big smile on her face just like me. As much as I like my job, I am very happy that I don't have to leave for three months now. "So I don't have to miss you? ". I shake my head and without thinking I give her a kiss. It shocked me myself. Since we normally only do that before going to sleep. The last time we did that was a few weeks ago. Since Julia and Sem have lived here, Julia and I have not slept together due to the tensions between us. During that time I only went to lie with Julia in the middle of the night once or twice when I couldn't calm down after a nightmare. Now I don't want Julia to take it the wrong way. I'm glad we're finally talking to each other again and now you'll see me screwing up again. I want to get up quickly, but Julia has put her arms around me. "Please lie here with me for a while." I rest my head on her chest when she says so softly. Immediately Julia starts playing with my hair. "Is it very selfish if I say I'm glad you're not leaving? ". I shake my head with a smile on my face. "I'm happy myself, but there go your quiet days? ". I had just arranged with my father that Julia could have a few days off so that she could take a break from everything. Julia has worked almost exclusively for the past few weeks. I think she did that on purpose because of the whole situation at the moment. Now that Sem is not here this week and I was going to leave, I had the idea that she could get some rest, but now I'm not leaving. "I think I can take a good rest now. I feel a girls night coming on for tonight". I lift my head to look at her with a smile. "That's actually a pretty good idea. Do you feel like it? ". She nods. "That is much better than sitting here all alone and missing everyone. I think it's time to get up now. I also want to go into town. A game that Sem really wants has been released today ". We stay in bed for another five minutes or so and then get up.

After wehad something to eat and got ready for the day, Julia left to go into town. Ijoin Silvia, who is sitting in the living room. "What?" I ask whenshe looks at me with a grin. "Why didn't you tell me?" I look at herquestioningly. "Now you expect me to know what you're talking about?"She shakes her head with a smile. "I'm talking about Italy". I'mshocked when she says that, but I hope she doesn't notice. "What didn't I tellyou about Italy?". I try to ask as innocently as possible. "You know very wellwhat I'm talking about. Julia said something to me yesterday. I think sheassumed I already knew. Why didn't you tell me you kissed?" I sigh."Because I didn't want to talk about it." Silvia looks at mequestioningly. "Why not? Was it that bad?" I shake my head. "Itwas the best kiss I've ever had." Silvia looks at me with a smile."Then what is the problem?". I sigh. "Immediately after the kiss Icould hear so much regret in Julia's voice. The kiss felt so great, butimmediately afterwards I wished it had never happened. It then became even morepainfully clear to me that things could never work out between us. I don't wantto say more than this. Julia and I put it behind us, so it's okay now." Silvianods in understanding. "I won't go on about it now. It's no use anyway, becauseyou're not listening. How did it go yesterday?" I don't know what shemeans by that, but I'm not going to ask her about it either. I don't feel liketalking about it any longer. Thinking back to that moment only hurts that Juliarejected me like that. "We have made up. According to Julia I did nothing wrongand it was entirely her fault. It was not meant as how she had said it. Weagreed to put it behind us, but to be honest it still hurts. I just don't wantJulia to notice that, because I'm glad we're finally talking to each othernormally again". Silvia gets up a bit irritated. "Let's stop talking about it. Ireally don't know what else needs to happen before you finally open your eyes.I still have a lot of unanswered emails that I'm going to deal with for now.I'll see you later." I really have no idea why she's so angry right now."Sil did I say something wrong?". She turns to me. "It's not what you say,but what you hear and see. I'm sorry for being so angry, but I just want to seeyou happy. I just don't feel like saying it. It's really something you andJulia need to understand. All I can do is tell you for the umpteenth time toreally talk to Julia, but you won't listen anyway. That's why I'm going to worknow. At least it's useful." Before I can respond, Silvia has left theliving room. If she's that annoyed, I'd better leave her alone for a while. Ireally don't know what she wants from me. She says Julia and I need to talk andwe did. It will all be up to me. It's starting to look more and more like Idon't understand anyone or misunderstand everything that is being said. Theseare really those moments when I miss Vincent even more. He and I always had onelook and then we knew what we meant. Tears come to my eyes as soon as I startthinking about him. I'm going to go to the gym. Otherwise I know I won't beenjoyable for the rest of the day.