Love is blind

Kimberly

Silvia and I are lying on the beach after having a great time in the water. Julia is just grabbing her sunglasses from the car. I was so surprised that she came into the water, but I'm glad she did. Surely that is a sign that she really trusts me and feels comfortable here. I was shocked at all the scars on her back. I just hope Julia didn't notice that about me. "When are you going to tell Julia how you feel about her? ". I look at Silvia who gets me out of my thoughts. She looks at me seriously. "I'm not going to tell her that." Silvia shakes her head. "Why not? I've never seen you like this before". Out of the corner of my eye I see Julia walking towards us again. I lie on my back and get up a bit. I lean on my forearms so I can admire her a little better. Because she is now wearing a bikini, her tattoos are also clearly visible, which makes her even more attractive. I hear Silvia laughing softly. "This is what I mean, among other things," she says. "Sil, don't blame me. She's not just beautiful on the inside. See what's coming towards us." I really have never seen such a beautiful woman before. I can't take my eyes off Julia either. "Then why don't you tell her how you feel? ". I sigh. "I don't want to lose her. I am far too afraid to push her away if I say how I feel about her". Something flies to my head. I turn my head towards Silvia. "That is not happening. Trust me," she says seriously. "I don't know, Sil. Now stop it ". Silvia nods, because she knows I really don't want to talk about it now.

Julia sit down next to me and puts a bottle of sunscreen on my stomach. "Do something useful," she says with a laugh. "Kimberly, would you please put sunscreen on my back? Yes of course Julia, that's no problem at all," I say as I sit up. Julia immediately turns her back to me, but looks at me with a smile. "Hey you wanted me to come so bad. It's also your fault that I'm sitting here shirtless". She looks at me with a sweet smile. "Julia, I can advise you to lie down." Julia turns her head to Silvia. "Why? ". I give Silvia a warning look. She gives me a look back that tells me not to worry. "Madam has followed a massage course". Julia looks at me again. "Serious? ". I nod. "So if I were you I would lie down because she really has magical hands". I have to try really hard not to hurt Silvia now. "Okay, I can't refuse then." With that said, Julia lays down on her stomach. I take a quick look at Silvia and shake my head. She just looks at me with a teasing smile.

"I think I've had everything now," I say after a long time. Julia opens her eyes, which she had closed the whole time. "You forgot a spot there," she says with a smile on her face and points to her back. I hear Silvia laughing. "See now that I was right". I see Julia nod. "You can also just ask me if I want to continue. Or will you also become like Sil? Who can pretend all day if she has problems with her neck or back. But that only bothers her when I'm around". Julia laughs. "Sorry, I can't blame her. So would you please continue for a moment? ". I shake my head. "I thought we had a lazy weekend. Look at how hard I'm working". As I say it, I have my hands on Julia's back again. She almost immediately closes her eyes again and has a beautiful smile on her face.

I'm massaging Julia and in the meantime the three of us are talking about everything. Only Julia has been silent for five minutes now. I lay on my side next to her. "Are you still awake? " I ask softly. I see Julia nod. I run my finger gently over some of her scars. Julia is still lying with her eyes closed. "Do you want me to stop? "I ask as soon as I see Julia's tears. She shakes her head. I give her a kiss on the shoulder, which brings a small smile to her face. I see Silvia standing up. She gestures for me to go inside to prepare the food. I can tell from her face that she knows what's going on. I do appreciate that she leaves us alone for a while. "Who the hell did this to you? ". I don't know if it's wise to ask this, but I can't stop myself. It's almost inevitable that Julia must be able to hear from my voice how angry I am. She opens her eyes and looks at me. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to," I say when it's quiet and we just stare at each other. She gives me a small smile and gets up to sit down. She pulls up her legs and puts her arms over her knees, resting her chin on them. She stares out over the water. I sit next to her in the same way, only I put my head on my arms so that I look at her. I'm not quite sure what to do. Julia didn't tell me to stop talking about it, but she didn't say anything else either. I decide to try again. If she doesn't say anything now, I'll stop. I don't think she'll want to talk about it then. "Was it Sem's father? ". It takes a moment, but then I see her nod. "Yeah, he too," she says very softly. "Who else? ". Julia closes her eyes. I can see she's thinking. "My foster father". I racing with anger when I hear that, but I don't want her to notice. I just don't know what to say right now. So I put an arm over her shoulders and pull her close to me.