Love is blind

Kimberly

I showered very quickly, but unfortunately Julia is already out of the bedroom when I come back. When I have just dressed I hear the shower in Julia's bathroom turn on. I grab a notepad and pen from the nightstand and sit on the bed. That's where I start writing.

Dear Julia,

Thank you for coming into my life. I was lost. I couldn't see the nice things anymore and didn't know how to enjoy life anymore. All I did was focus on my work. At least I could switch off my own feeling in that. It's been over a year now since we first met. From that very first day you already know how to put a smile on my face. You make me live again. You show me that there are so many beautiful things. I can enjoy the smallest things again.

I really don't understand how we've been so blind. I am so happy that I can now completely be myself to you without having to put my feelings aside, because that has been difficult at times. Not to tell you that you are my dream woman. That I'm totally in love with you, from the very first moment. I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways. Maybe just the touch of a hand. Thinking out loud, remember that was the song we first danced to? The first time I held your hand, when we introduced ourselves, I didn't want to let go of your hand. Now I know things I should have told you much sooner that I am madly in love with you. But I still can't believe I'm lucky that a woman like you, so beautiful inside and out, sees it in me. The only thing I have to watch out for now is that I don't go too fast. We've been close for so long and my feeling for you has been there all along. That feeling is already so strong that I want to say certain words, but I'm afraid that if I say them I will push you away from me again. That's the last thing I want. That's why I want to ask you to please tell me when I'm going too fast, something doesn't feel right or you don't want something. I will never blame you for that. All that matters to me is that you and Sem are happy. I will try to do that with everything I have in me.

Lots of love,

Your Sunshine

I can still hear the shower. I quickly run downstairs. "I'll be right back. I have to do something," I say to Silvia. She's sitting at the kitchen table. Looks like a whole breakfast is already waiting for us. I quickly grab a scissor from the drawer. Then I go into the garden to find the most beautiful rose. Then I quickly go upstairs again. This time I'm not going through the kitchen, because I don't have time for Silvia's comments right now. Once upstairs I no longer hear the shower. I quickly grab the letter and put it together with the rose in front of Julia's bedroom door. "Julia are you coming downstairs? Breakfast is ready," I shout after knocking on her door. "Yes, I'm almost done. Be there in five minutes," she yells back.

In the kitchen I sit across from Silvia at the table. "What? " I ask if she keeps looking at me with a smile. "You and Julia really found each other again, didn't you? ". I nod. "Since when was the extra step taken? ". I look at her questioningly. "What do you mean? ". I try to say it as innocently as possible. Silvia starts laughing loudly. "You may be blind, but I am not. I'm not deaf at all. You may think I was already asleep, but I have heard those smacking lips." I just look at her with a smile and a red head. "Have you finally had the guts? ". I shake my head. "Julia took the first step yesterday". Silvia looks at me a bit surprised. "Nice, I honestly didn't expect that. If I had known that I might have given her hints sooner, maybe she would have got it." I smile. "I've been stupid, haven't I? ". She shakes her head. "Not stupid, but blind. How did she handle it? ". I grab my phone and hand it to Silvia. "Read yesterday's conversation". Silvia starts laughing out loud again after looking at my phone for a while. "I can't believe you didn't realize it then. Was that when you walked out of the living room? ". I nod. "Yep. Julia was able to explain it to me in the hallway, " I say with a big smile on my face. "That completely explains why you were so happy afterwards. Why didn't you say anything? ". I shrug. "I had to realize it myself without comment". Silvia nods in understanding. "I can get there. Does Sem already know? ". I nod. "After I asked you to go downstairs yesterday, Julia and I talked. She was afraid that Sem might not support it. During that conversation, Sem called. Julia tried to hide her tears from him, but Sem realized right away that she had been crying. After finding out Julia and I had been talking he asked if we had finally told each other we like each other and if we are dating now." Silvia has a big smile on her face. "I knew he was okay with it. Sem and I have often laugh about the two of you. I think we're both going to miss that twisting around of you guys. But did anything else exciting happen upstairs? ". I shake my head with a smile. "Are you sure? Since you glo so. I don't want to know what it's like if it does happen." I feel my head turning red. "Yeah Sil, I'm very sure. I did ask her to take a shower this morning, but Julia wants it to happen spontaneously. And I actually agree with that". Silvia then looks at me seriously. "This tells me more than enough about how you feel about Julia. I already saw it, but this confirms it. Be honest, if someone else from the past had said that, would you have agreed? I don't mean to say that you would impose yourself, but you wouldn't have liked it". I shake my head. "Julia is not someone to have fun with. Sil I love her". Silvia nods. "I know. I can tell you it's mutual. How long has it been since you last had fun? I heard that before, but I haven't heard from you in so long." I sigh. "I can't even remember the last time. After Vincent passed away, there has been no form of intimacy anymore." As I say that, Julia just walks into the kitchen.