Its getting worse. Im trying so hard. Ive been clean 76 days. But its so hard to not take it all away. I keep laying awake thinking about how easy it would be. How simple. Do it once, just this once then never again but just once to help with stress. In lessons when i get stressed (this happens alot tbh lessons are getting hard to deal with) i just space out. Like i just stare at my pencil case or the wall or something and all thats in my mind is "get up, go to the bathroom and just do ONE cut. Simple." When having a conversation with my mum (her telling me to like pull myself together and lifes hard thats just the way it is all that stuff) i was just scratching my arm with my pencil. When i rolled my sleeve back up the sting of my jumper rubbing the scratches made me think of what i used to feel on the daily. I wanna do it so bad. Please please god it would be so easy. Before this i was just crying it hoping that would get it out. It didnt. I cry all the time it doesnt do shit.
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General FictionSo basically i need to vent alot and i feel super bad venting to people (even with permission) bc i dont wanna dump my problems on others sooo im doing in here. Also just so yall know i dont have any mental health issues or anything im just a dramat...
