Vent book ( TW )

Idfk at this point

Im tired. I dont want to go back to school. This weekend was chill, and nice. I don't wanna go back. School is actually hell. I have to pay attention in lessons, feel like a stupid person because i cant do the work and i have to deal with all the drama. I wish i had picked to go to the public school. I hate my grammer school, with the stupid uniform rules, clever teachers that explain something once and dont give me any time to understand,and the smart students that deserve to be there. I had two options when i was in year 6. 1# go to the all girls grammer school i had done a test to go to (which means most people there will be smart and actually want to learn) nd be their with most of my friends from my old school (except one but ill get onto that) take and long bus ride to get there and back 2# go to the closer public school that wouldn't take very long to get there but it doesn't have a good reputation (idc about that much but whatever) most people there don't care about learning or getting a job, my brother goes there BUT (here is the legit only reason i wanted to go there) my best friend in the absolute universe went their and i had lived the past 5 and 1/2 years going to the same school with was going to that school, and I didn't think i could live without her. And i picked the grammer school. I sometimes wish wish wish I hadn't. But sometimes i think i chose the right school. I dont know at this point.