•Her• Rhea Ripley

safe with me

TW!! Self harm please look after yourselves love you all <3

• Y/n is falling back once a note she finds pushes over and Rhea finds out and helps her knowing what it like •

-Y/n pov-

Life was unfair to me from the moment i entered this world my dad left me and my mum hated me for ruining her teen years, even my grandparents neglected me for living the only person who loved me was my best friend Emma, we were friends since primary school and she knew all about my life and to help me escape she would let me stay round her house on night my mind want me dead, but with my luck Emma died when a drink driver crashed into her parents car her mother survived but Emma was sent up to heaven with her wings and her mum looked after throughout secondary school.

My life took a turn when i met the best person i have met Rhea Ripley aka Demi Bennett we where friends for a year then we both confessed our feelings and from then on my life was dark and grey but light and full of joy. We were 22 when we met and she was the angle God sent down to guide me.

I never told Demi about my past in self harm or my health as i felt like a burden if i did she was always there for me when i needed her and i was always there for her in return. Life was amazing these past 3 years we would go on dates to amusement parks and beaches she even took me to visit her family and they are lovely people, last year we moved in to her place with her dogs who where like our children and they where definitely treat like so.

As our relationship grew strong by the day more people in the media found out about me and Demi which wasnt a problem till the media expands to,thats when my mother found me i don't know how she did it but she did, she would always send me messages on every app i have she would text me messages like ' no one would want you' 'your nothing'  the message that scared me was 'you may think your safe but once i do find you y/n i will drag you with me and i will hurt you, your nothing you never where and never will be your girlfriend doesn't want a peace of shit like you' i didn't tell Demi which was probably my first mistake.

I woke up in the morning to a knock at the door i slowly got out of bed leaving a sleeping demi cuddle into the blankets i walked to the door and unlock it to see a note on the floor, i pick it up and shut the door again walking to the sofa unfolding the paper to see one word in the middle of it 'worthless' i feel a little feeling in my chest but i ignore it and flip the paper to see a drawing of looked like a silver shiny object making my heart drop a little, i had a past of self harm and the scars line my arms and the lower bit of my stomach i hated the look of them but Demi always told me how gorgeous i was and my worth to her.

I was staring at the paper for what felt like years my arms feeling itchy and a tang in my chest like a pain i felt this feeling too many times before a feeling i wished open no one even people that deserve it, my thoughts where broken when i felt something in my lap i move the paper to see Demi looking up at me smiling "morning baby girl" i put the paper by next scrunched up "morning dems" i say running my hand in her hair "what you up to" she asked and barry came over sitting by us and Luna sat on the floor "just sat here" i put a fake smile on "okay.." She said not wanting to push it any futher "want some breakfast?" She said getting up and walking to the kitchen " i am okay just need to get changed" i say getting up and walking to our bedroom carrying the note with me.

I sat on the edge of the bed undoing to paper once again and i look over it seeing another word in the corner 'mistake' i felt my heartbreak because on only person called me that mother she hated me for taking her teenage life away from her, made me feel horrible,disgusting she commented on how i looked what i wear how i acted ever little part of me degrading me at every chance she got. I felt the itching on arms now moving down to my lower stomach the feeling growing stronger stinging in my chest, i stood up grabbing the paper and my wallet walking to the bathroom in our room locking the door behind me breath shaking i look up to the mirror eyes wondering over my face my body me.

Tears collected in my eyes as i slowly unzipped the wallet to see a sharp blade smiling up at me my shaky hands picking it up, i put my wallet down and pocked the paper back up and in view as well as the mirror the blade shaking in my unsteady hands, only thing on my mind was the feeling of my red blood dripping out of me away from me like everything else i looked into the mirror i look at my arms they where soft unlike demi they have extra skin under them i looked down and my hips that stuck out on show another thing to hate. I guided the blade over to where the soft skin was under my arm i let out a breath and glided the blade over my arm warm red liquid falling slowly out my arm and the pain in my chest slowly getting looser but it wasn't enough my hand now made it way to faint scars on my lower stomach i traced over them my hands still shaking tear now falling from my eyes in one move a new mark was made standing out in red compared to the faded ones.

I put the blade down on the side i looked up into the mirror eyes red on blood running from the fresh cuts my mind feeling like a jungle i stare into the mirror looking at my features looking at what i was, my thoughts broke when i heard a knock at the door followed by a comforting voice "baby you okay in there" her voice soft and comforting "y-yeah" i managed to stumble out now thinking there is no way she is going to believe me "doesn't sound like it" my breathing became out of pattern again and i knew the only person who could and would help me is the other side of that door,but i don't want to think i am weak,worthless i quickly cleaned the now drying blood pulling my hoodie back on my breath still out of place and the world seeming fuzzy now "y/n! Please open up baby" i hear again the only voice i can hear, my hand made it way to the lock undoing it and just as i did so it flung open and revealed a panicked looking Demi looking at me. I went to the floor Demi soon following "baby baby i am here its okay" she said grabbing my hands as my head wasn't getting any clearer "breath baby breath" she said breathing in and out i looked into her eyes and grabbed her hands and tight as i could to ground myself "name 3 things you see okay?" I nod and take a shaky breath "your blue eyes.." "Well done" she smiles rubbing her thumb over my knuckles "your black hair.." she hummed in agreement " your black earrings" "good baby now two things you hear" her eyes never leaving mine giving me more comfort as my breath steadies "the clock.." She nods "and the...cars outside" "lovely" she smiles "one thing you can smell" she says "...your perfume" i answer and she smiles at me bringing me close into her side giving me time to stop it if i didn't want to "its okay your safe with me" she says tucking my head into her chest "..your to good to me.." Was all i said "you do the same for me baby" she said as we sit on the bathroom floor "now lets get up and go to the bed" she says getting up and slowly helping me.

We sat on the bed cuddling into each for support in a comfortable silence "so want to talk about it" she said her voice still comforting "i don't know" i said burying my head into her "i wont push you but i am here to talk" her hand playing with my hair "i did it again.." Was all i said knowing she wouldn't hate me....right "did what" she asked concern lacing her voice, i lifted the hoodie up to show my lower stomach avoiding eye contact it felt as if time went slow then i felt her hand on my lower stomach tracing the old and new scars with gently touch "oh y/n.." Was all she said then i felt a gentle kiss on each of the marks "if you feel like that please come to me..okay?" She asked looking up at me and i looked back "i am sorry" i mumble but loud enough for her to hear "don't dont apologize" her hand cupping my face "now please can you get me the blade and where you keep them, can you do that" she asked as i looked into her eyes and nodded.

I came back with the blade that had dried blood on it and the wallet i keep it in " thanks" she said as i sat down again and hand it to her, she goes through the whole thing taking any sharp objects out "y/n look at me" she said "if you ever i mean ever no matter what's happening who we are with were we are you tell me okay" i nod as she smiles at me "yes" i say and she give me a kiss "your safe with me" she said cuddling me into her "now lets get some food and we can do a horror movie marathon" she smiles and i smile back "sounds good"