If Only You Knew

Chapter 8

A few days later I sit In Talia's living room on her couch drinking another beer while she just glares at me. "What? Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Why are you drinking so much? You don't drink like this unless you're upset" She queries keeping her eyes glued on me.

"I still can't talk about it. I said I wouldn't say.." I sigh and take another drink of beer.

Then Talia sighs and scoots over on the couch. "I'm guessing it's about Scarlett?" I look over at her silently then looks back at my bottle. "Why don't you tell her how you feel?" She asks softening her tone.

"Because she's..." I sigh setting my bottle on the coffee table and then leaning back on the couch. "She's not Bi. She's not going to want to be with me for a few reasons..."

"I'm sorry Y/n. I know what it's like to like someone and them not like you back. It hurts" She scoots closer and hugs me tightly. "You're not going to want to hear this... but maybe you should move ok?"

"Really Talia?" I scoff pushing her off of me.

"Hear me out!" She whines as I reach for my drink again.

"What?"

"Maybe it will be good for you. I know you really like Scarlett.." Her sentence trails off, I can tell she's trying to figure out how to word it properly.

She starts stammering so I set the bottle back down and turn towards her. "I get it Talia. Who would I even move on to? You know I don't really trust dating apps or anything"

"What about that Liv girl you've been talking to and hanging out with? She seems to like you" She shrugs leaning back on the couch.

"Liv? She doesn't have feelings for me. She's just excited to talk" I shake my head in denial making her scoff.

"Yea because she likes you! Just think about it, I'm not saying make yourself like her or anything. Just see how you'd feel about it" She chuckles lightly and gets up starting to walk towards the kitchen. "Want another beer?"

"No I'm fine..." I smile at her then look down at my lap. "Liv liking me?" I whisper to myself. Then I remember the conversation about her having feelings for someone. "Could that be me?"

Just then Talia walks back in with two water bottles. "Who are you talking to?" She gives me a weird look sitting back down next to me.

"Oh uh. No one" I chuckle awkwardly grabbing my beer bottle again and drink the rest of it.

"I'm sorry if I upset you" She sighs opening one of the waters.

"No you didn't, it's fine. You're probably right... i do want to tell Scarlett but I can't" I frown now tapping the empty bottle in my hand. She doesn't say anything and just silently hugs me again. "Thanks Talia.."

"That's what best friends are for" She chuckles and let's go of me. "Now let's stop being sad and sulky and let's actually have a happy time!"

"Alright. I'll stop sulking" I laugh grabbing the other water bottle that she put on the table. She turns on the Xbox and we start watching How I Met Your Mother on Hulu for a little while. Two hours pass and my phone starts ringing. It's Scarlett, I immediately answer. "Hey Scar"

"Y/n...?" She sniffles sounding like she's been crying.

"Scar? Are you ok?" I sit up getting a little worried.

"Yea I'm fine... can you come over? I need to see you" She says in a very soft and low tone.

"You need to see me? Is everything ok?" I query, noticing Talia looking at me confused.

"I had a bad feeling something happened to you and I got anxious. I'm sorry if you're busy you don't have to."

"It's ok I'll be right there. I was going to go home anyway so I'll come by"

"Thank you... I'm sorry again."

"Don't apologize. I'll be there in a few minutes. Bye" I quickly hang up and look over at Talia who now looks concerned.

"What was that about?" She asks as I stand up from the couch.

"Scarlett's getting anxiety because she had a feeling something bad happened to me. I'm going to go stop by and make sure she's ok." I put my phone in my pocket and grab my keys.

"Y/n"

"What? She's my best friend too, I'd do the same for you" I roll my eyes as she gets up and walks with me to the door.

"Bullshit" She scoffs.

"I would!" I turn to her crossing my arms and furrows my brows.

"Just get going. And remember what we talked about!" She yells while I start walking out of the house.

"Yea yea I will! Bye!" I wave to her without turning around.

"See ya later!"

I hurry over to Scarlett's house and as I pull up I get a message. So I look thinking it's her, but it's Liv.

Liv:
Hey Y/n! Just wanted to check in. I Hope to hang out with you soon 😊 If it goes well maybe I'll tell you who I have a crush on 😘😂

I send her a quick message then pause staring at what she sent for a few moments before snapping out of it. I get out of the car and hurry up to the door. I knock but there's no answer. So I check to see if it's unlocked and it is, "Scarlett!? I'm coming in!"

Just then I hear a quiet, "I'm in the living room..."

I shut the door behind me and walk quickly into the living room. Then I see her with tear stained onto her cheeks. I sit down next to her and she immediately latches onto me starting to get teary eyed again. "Hey don't cry anymore. I'm ok, I promise"

"Are you sure? Where were you at? You didnt get hurt or anything?" She looks up at me with tears in her eyes.

"I'm sure. I was at Talias hanging out. I didn't get hurt, I am perfectly fine." I reassure her while hugging her tightly.

"I was just so worried.. I don't know why I got so worried..." She whispers that last part before pulling me closer.

"Hey everyone has little anxiety attacks or moments of anxiety. But I can assure you I'm ok." I smile rubbing her back gently.

"Ok.. good. I just had this really bad feeling out of nowhere. I was drifting off on the couch and all of a sudden I had this horrible feeling." She explains, leaning her head on my shoulder.

"I understand that, I'm glad you called instead of freaking yourself out more. I'll stay here as long as you need to make sure you're feeling better ok?" I offer still holding onto her.

"Ok.. thank you. You're the best." She hides her face in my chest.

"Yea..." I sigh hugging her closely. What am I going to do.