If Only You Knew

Chapter 16

The next day Scarlett needed to go home to change and get ready to go get Rose a little later in the day. I tried getting her to let me stay home but she dragged me along with her to make sure I'm ok. Now Scarlett is upstairs showering and getting ready while I sit in the living room watching tv on her couch. Then there's a knock at the door so I walk over and peak out the window to see Colin standing at the front door. I unlock her front door and open it to see a smiling Colin. "Oh hey Y/n" He smiles down at me.

"Hey Colin. Here come in, Scarlett's upstairs getting ready." I take a step away from the door motioning him in with my hand.

"Thank you. Scarlett told me what happened, I'm sorry about what happened with Liv." He frowns as I shut the door behind him.

"Thanks Colin." I smile sadly, following him into the living room. "What brings you by?" I query sitting back down in the couch.

"Oh I just needed to drop this off to Scarlett on my way to work." He smiles pulling a small box out of his pocket and placing it on the coffee table. "It's a necklace I got her. She left it at my house so I thought I'd bring it over"

"Oh alright. Well she should be done soon if you wanted to wait here" I shrug looking down at the box on the table then back up at him.

"No it's ok I need to get to work." He pauses for a moment looking off towards the stairs. I watch as he takes a deep breath and looks back over at me with a serious expression on his face. "Before I go. Did Scarlett tell you what we talked about the other night on our date?"

I look at him confused for a moment before remembering the conversation the other day about Scarlett being nervous. "Right I forgot she was nervous about that. No she didn't say, I hadn't seen her until yesterday so." I furrow my brows confused now on why he asked. "Why do you ask? Was it something I should know about?"

"Uh" He runs the back of his neck getting visibly nervous now.

"What? Was it about me or something?" I ask as he looks around awkwardly.

"You should really talk to her about it not me" He laughs nervously starting to slowly back away. "I have to go. I'll talk to you later Y/n!" He spins around and hurried to the door.

"What? Hey wait! Colin what the hell!" I stand up watching him open the door. He waves bye before shutting the door behind him. "What the hell was that about?"

I sit back down in confusion on what just happened. A few minutes later Scarlett walks downstairs to where I am with smiling. "Hey, I'm done now." She walks over and notices the box sitting on the coffee table. "I've been looking for this! Did you find it?" She queries picking it up from the table while looking at me.

"Uh, no actually Colin came and dropped it off a few minutes ago." I shift awkwardly debating on asking her about the other night.

"Hm I must've left over there" She hums setting it back down on the table. Then she looks over at me, I must've looked uncomfortable or something because she sits next to me furrowing her brows. "Are you ok?"

I take a deep breath breath and turn my body towards her. "Uh.. about the other night.. what did you and Colin talk about? On your date night? You know, the important conversation he wanted to have.." I ask nervously.

Her eyes widen and she clears her throat chuckling awkwardly. "What? Um, why do you ask that?"

"He asked if you talked to me about it." I watch as she groans putting her hand on her forehead. "What is it? Was it something bad?"

"Not really anything bad" She shakes her head and stands up biting her thumb nail.

"What was it then? He seemed to think I knew about it." I stand up looking at her confused.

"It's not a conversation I want to have right now." She sighs heavily turning away from me.

"Scar, you can talk to me about it. Did you and Colin break up? What happened?" I walk up to her placing my hand on her shoulder.

"No we didn't break up. We just had a conversation!" She spins around pushing my hand away taking me by surprise.

"Then what is it?" I put my hands back down to my sides scanning her face.

"Damn it Colin" She curses under her breath. "We talked about... my sexuality."

"Uh.. ok.. what about your sexuality?" I ask confused on the topic of conversation.

"I... I've figured out that I'm bisexual." She states looking down at her feet. My jaw drops practically hitting the floor. "And apparently he could tell something was going on and wanted to have a conversation about it." She adds but my mouth is still wide open speechless.

"You... you what!? Wait why didn't you tell me? I'm so confused. How did I not realize?" I start questioning myself as she stands there nervously.

"I didn't even know! How do I tell you something that I don't even know Y/n?" She scoffs crossing her arms to her chest. I take a deep breath seeing my reaction irritated her.

"Sorry I just. This is unexpected. So... do you have a crush on a woman now?" I ask in the most awkward tone that could come out of me.

"I don't want to talk about it anymore. I need to pick up Rose." She starts walking away to grab her purse.

"Wait do you? Come on Scar, you can tell me." I follow after her closely.

She stops and spins around putting her hand out to stop me as well. "Stop! I told you I don't want to talk about it ok? I'm still figuring things out. I just need time ok? Besides you just got your heartbroken I don't want to add anything onto that right now."

"Ok I understand that. But I could use a distraction. You know you can talk to me no matter what's going on right? I'm always here for you." She smiles and grabs my hands, squeezing them.

"I know. But I really don't want to talk about it right now. Ok? Please just drop it for now" She sighs letting go on my hands.

I frown a little but comply. "Ok. But I do need to talk to you at some point. Not now though, I'll let you do what you gotta do." I smile walking towards the door.

"Thank you Y/n" She watches as I turn to face her once I'm at the front door. "Where are you going? I need to put shoes on"

"I think I'm gonna walk home. I don't live far anyway" I smile grabbing on to the doorknob.

"Wait! Is this because I won't talk to you about what happened?" She furrows her brows and frowns at me.

"No, no. It's not I promise" I walk back over to her and wrap my arms around her into a hug. "It's a nice day and I think I need to walk to clear my head. Besides you need to pick up Rose. I'll be ok I promise" I pull back smiling down at her.

"Ok... if you say so. If you need anything call me ok?" She grabs on to my arms smiling softly at me.

"I will. I'll see you later ok? Say hi to Rose for me" I chuckle letting go of her.

"I'll tell her. I'll see you soon" She looks into my eyes for a moment then hesitantly kisses my cheek. I nod smiling then leave out her front door and begin walking back to my apartment.