Addicted to You (Devils Right Hand MC #3)

Chapter 28

Hey guys! Sorry for the delay in posting. The semester started off with a bang and I wanted to take my time with this chapter to make sure I did it justice. With that being said, this semester is proving to be very difficult (I'm 2 weeks in and dying already) so updates will be more sparse. As always, I will try to post once a week, but there WILL be times this semester that isn't possible. Love you all!

Inspo song for this chapter - How Could You Leave Us by NF (linked above this chapter)

Gabby's POV

I didn't watch a lot of kids' shows while I was growing up. My mom was never the person to watch Disney movies with her kid. So, I grew up on adult TV. Maybe that's why I matured so quickly.

I remember so clearly, one day we were watching this movie with a tornado. I couldn't have been older than 4 or 5 so I didn't really understand what was happening on the screen, but I was entranced by it. A massive tornado ripped through this town and tore houses off their foundations, slinging them in the air. I watched a cow be thrown into the air now at the mercy of a freak act of nature. Sometimes I still think about that animated cow being throw around in the air.

I don't know why that moment stuck with me for almost two decades, but I do know how that cow must've felt. When the whole world shifts and you're pulled into this crazy shit storm that you have no control over. You are being whipped around and you can't do a damn thing to stop it.

A few days ago I was a simple bartender who was in love and happy.

Now, I'm a fucking cow in a tornado.

A lot of what has happened in the past three days has been unexpected. I never expected to get pregnant. I never expected the person I trusted most to betray me. But what I woke up to yesterday morning, was completely expected.

After my mom agreed to go to rehab, we talked for hours and then I fell asleep with her in bed beside me, but I woke up alone. The second I didn't hear her snoring, I knew what happened. I knew she went back because it's all she's ever known. She just left, probably when the withdrawals kicked in. She didn't say goodbye but that was her choice. She chose her path and now I have to let go of her.

However, it was unexpected that she left the money. Every single dollar was still in the envelope. Maybe that was her parting gift to the grandson she will never meet. Maybe she grew a conscious. I guess I'll never know.

I try not to think about her, I try to focus on my boy. The future my beautiful boy will have because I know what I'm going to do. Deep down, I've always known. I'm going to be a mom.

I snap out of my thoughts as Grace taps the bar in front of me. This is my second day back to work and it is the only thing keeping me sane. When I'm working, I can focus on something other than my shattered world, and that feeling is the only way I can function right now.

All of the boys are in the bar except Axe and Grease. They are always the last ones to get back, but I'm dreading it. I know we just have to get used to being in the same space, but it feels weird. Being with him but not being with him seems painful. But I need to talk to him. He needs to know what is happening with his kid.

As the door opens, I know who is behind it. Grease walks in first and my eyes follow him for a few seconds. He looks defeated. He looks like a dead man walking.

Finally, my eyes lock on his. This is it. This is the moment I've avoided as long as I can. I thought seeing him would change something, that I'd feel more angry or more hurt, but I don't. I just have the same dull ache in my chest. I guess my life is in such shambles right now that the other drama has overshadowed my apparent breakup and the betrayal that led to it.