Whiskey and Heartbreak(j.g.)

Chapter 17

I immediately sat up and stared into his anger filled eyes.

"What that fuck is this?!" he said holding up his phone that showed a screenshot of the video we had just made. The picture was of me and Kian kissing.

"Bro chill it was just a friendly kiss"Kian said standing up.

"Really?! Because I don't fucking kiss my FRIENDS" he said with his voice getting louder.

"I get it.. so since I fucked up and hurt you, you felt the need to hurt me back right?" he said his voice becoming more quiet and shaky. I sat there on the bed staring into his eyes as the stupid tears that I was all too familiar with lately started to form again. I didn't know what to say. I wanted scream at him, I wanted to hit him, I wanted to tell him how much he broke me but at the same time I wanted to jump into his arms and kiss him.

"Kelsey, talk to me" He said getting all choked up.

"I-I-I can't" I said with a tear rolling down my cheek.

"Please just let me explain to you" He said taking a step closer to me.

"No explanation could fix this" I said standing up and grabbing my phone.

"No explanation could fix me" I walked past both Kian and Jack and walked down the stairs.

"Kelsey wait!" Jack came running down the stairs.

"Goodbye Jack"

I walked down the street with tears pouring down my face. I finally called an uber to come pick me up and bring me back to the hotel. When I got there Jenn and Cassie were laying down in the room.

"How are you Kels?" Cassie said standing up. By this time I had run out of tears and was kind of just numb to the pain.

"I think I wanna go home early if we can get a flight" I told them both. We were supposed to leave in two days to go back to Boston but I couldn't stay here right now. I needed time. Alone.

"Okay I'll look for flights" Jenn said as she opened her laptop.

I laid down on my bed and drifted to sleep for a little while.

"Kelsey, wake up"Jenn lightly shook my shoulder.

"We found a flight for early tomorrow morning so were going to get some dinner and then we can come back here and pack."

"Okay thank you" I said getting up and going into the bathroom to wash my face.

I splashed some water on my face and threw a hoodie on over my crop top.

We got into the uber and drove to chipotle. I ordered my food and we all sat down in the restaurant. I started to eat my burrito bowl but I just wasn't that hungry.

Once Jenn and Cassie were done eating we all got back into the uber and went back to the hotel.

We all packed our bags in silence. Not a single word was exchanged for the rest of the night and I appreciated it. My friends knew me, they've seen me like this before so they know how to handle it. I have never had the best choice in men. I've gotten my heart broken countless times which has added to my depression that I have dealt with since I was about 12 years old.

My escape was alcohol. I had hit rock bottom with my last break up and Cassie helped me come out of my reliance on alcohol to numb the pain. Jack was the first guy to make me feel wanted again and now after everything that has happened I feel myself falling back into my depressive state of mind.

My friends know how to deal with me when I'm like this. They know that I need some time for myself so they left me alone with my thoughts tonight as we packed our things and went to bed.

The next morning I was woken up by Jenn's alarm at 530am. I rolled out of bed and changed into sweatpants and a hoodie and threw my hair into a messy bun.We drove to the airport, went through security, and got on the plane back to boston where I immediately fell asleep and slept the entire 6 hour flight.

I finally got back to my lonely apartment in Boston and set my bags down on the floor. I turned on my phone and went on twitter ignoring the 25 texts I had from Jack.

"@jackgilinsky: I'm sorry. Please."

Just reading his tweet was enough to make me feel sick to my stomach. I closed out of my phone and looked into my fridge for some food. I of course had nothing since I haven't been home for a week so I picked up my phone and ordered some chinese food for delivery. As I was waiting for the food to come my phone started ringing and it was Sam.

"Hello?" my voice was quiet and emotionless

"Hey why don't you come over we all really need to talk to you" he said. I didn't tell any of them that I was coming home early... not even Kian.

"I'm not in LA anymore Sam."

"What why? Where are you? I thought you were here until Saturday"

"I came back to Boston early."

"You didn't have to do that Kelsey.... We wanna fix things, Jack wants to fix things but you refuse to answer him"

"Jesus can't I just get some fucking time for myself?!" I raised my voice for the first time to Sam

"Okay. When do you come back to LA?"

"I don't know I gotta go my foods here. Bye"

I hung up the phone before he could respond and answered the door paying for my food.