Whiskey and Heartbreak(j.g.)

Chapter 26

I fixed my hair that was in loose curls and adjusted my lingerie as I sat in front of my computer on my hotel room bed. I clicked FaceTime and the ringing sound started as my computer connected to his. 

I seductively bit my lip as his face popped up on the screen. 

"Fuck babe... I was not expecting that but you look sexy." 

"I got it for you baby. Do you like it?"

"I love it I wish I could be there to take it off you though, like so badly"

"mmm how badly?" I asked as my hand slid down to my panties and started rubbing slowly.

"I would fuck you so hard right now"

"How hard? Tell me what you would do to me Kian" 

This was an almost nightly occurrence between us. Skype sex. Me and Kian started dating about two months ago. My say something video went viral and I'm currently touring for the entire summer all around the country. I haven't seen Jack since that night. I'd be lying if I told you I never think about him. After that night I was experiencing one of my lows for about 2 weeks. Music helped me out of it this time and look where it's gotten me. I'm out touring the country playing my music for my fans. 

Kian was there for me after what happened. I don't know exactly how it happened and it all happened quite quickly but he makes me happy and I'm happy I have him to keep my mind off of Jack. 

"I can't wait until you come see my show this weekend"  I said into the camera after we had finished our little pleasure. 

"I can't wait either baby girl, its been too long since I've gotten to touch you"

"You're taking me out on a proper date before any of that mr. I miss our date nights" I giggled 

"Of course. Only the best for my princess" 

I just got to the hotel in Houston,Texas and Kian is coming tonight. I'm so excited to see him it's been way too long. Jack's been on my mind a lot lately and I'm hoping being able to be with Kian again will make those thoughts go away. 

I got out of the car and went to the baggage claim stopping to take pictures with some fans that saw me on the way there. As I was waiting there in my baggy sweatpants, crop top, and messy bun I saw a tall blonde guy walking towards me. 

He dropped his bags and stopped walking opening his arms as I ran into them. He picked me up and spun me around while kissing me. 

"I missed your kisses so much" I said smiling as he put me down.

"You have no idea." 

We got in the car and drove back to the hotel sharing kisses the entire way home. I couldn't get enough of him right now. My smile hasn't left my face since I saw him. 

When we got to the hotel he informed me to get dressed into something nice for our date night so I slipped on my skin tight red dress and black heels. I did my makeup and curled my hair and once I was done I walked into the bedroom from the bathroom. 

"Wow" Was all he said as his mouth dropped open and he stood up and walked over to me.

"How did I end up getting the most beautiful girl in the world?" he asked as his hands wrapped around my waist and pulled me into his body. 

"I don't know you must be one lucky guy" I teased back and he kissed my nose and then connected our lips once again. 

The dinner was beautiful, candles, roses and amazing italian food. I rested my head on his shoulder in the back of the car as we rode back to the hotel. 

"Kelsey?"

I looked up at him in response.

"I love you" he almost whispered.

I froze as every emotion ran through my head. I couldn't move or form words. I couldn't shake the one thought that came to my head. Jack.

So I did the only thing I could and that was kiss him. I connected our lips more passionately than I ever had before but not in the way he was thinking. I was trying to feel something. I was trying to force my love for him because I needed this to work. I need to stay sane.

We went back to the hotel and made love. But to me it was just sex. I started feeling numb again and as much as I tried I couldn't take myself out of it. Kian fell asleep next to me but I was wide awake with thoughts running through my mind. Why don't I love Kian? Was I incapable of loving anymore? He's so good to me why can't I just accept it? Do I tell him how I really feel? I wonder what Jack is doing at this very moment. Who's he with? What's he thinking about?

My thoughts were enough to drive me crazy. So I pulled out my phone and scrolled through twitter. There was a video going around of when I jumped into Kian's arms at the airport that one of the fans must have posted. We looked like such a perfect couple. Little did everyone know I'm slowly questioning everything I've ever cared for. He makes me so happy so why is Jack the only one I can think of when Kian tells me he loves me?

I scrolled through twitter even more and saw something that caught my eye.

" jackgilinsky: I'm glad she's finally happy."

It couldn't possibly be about me... could it? I haven't spoken to Jack in almost half a year. The next thing I did was out of impulse.

"itskelseyyyyy: the girls with the biggest smiles are the ones hurting the most" I subtweeted him back trying not to be too obvious about it but hoping he would see it. I need him to know that I'm not happy. As much as that fucking kid has put me through, I still love him. I think I always will. He broke me more than anyone ever has but first he was the one that let me feel again. He showed me how to love again after thinking love didn't exist. 

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A/N: Okay bit of a plot twist at the beginning but just wanted to warn you guys this book is coming to an end within the next few chapters. I also love leaving my stories at cliff hangers so don't get too mad at me for it ;) <3