Max and the adventure

Chapter 17 goodbye

Lets not talk about what happened yesterday. Its already  time for Lilath to get to the ship where the portal back to her home is. Lilath says goodbye to Moonchester and she gets her stuff, ready to leave, but still hesitent. I don't know if im ready to say goodbye, but its good thing to do and- the two wrote in my diary? I guess thats evidence that they are real. I wish she would have met Ray before having to go, but i guess beggers can't be choosers.„are you ready, Lilath?" I ask nearly crying.„can you come into the ship too?" Lilath sounding like she doesn't wanna leave us.„Of course!" Frank says comforting. „we should exchange phone numbers so that we can get back into contact" i say not being ready to split up as we do exchange them on a piece of paper. We go through a colorful forest, but by the sadness that i feel, the colors feel like they mix into nothing compared to the idea of having to split up after everything. It was a blast. There will never be anything like this. It takes as long as it did when we went  the opposite way. I just want to cry, its the only thing that makes sense here. We arrive at the ship with the portal to her house. We show the tickets, defeated. We go on the ship, its actually quite nice. Its sad that its gonna split us apart. This ship will be gone for a year. I'm not ready, i'm not ready i'm not ready. „Max, everything will be fine, we will se each other again-" She gets shot, if she would have been not there it would have hit me. „NO! NO! NO! NO!" I cry and scream out of the pain of loosing her forever, Frank also cries. She got shot by one of the bad guys, we notice that as the one flees the scene, before they get away, i notice familiar green eyes. I feel a part of me shatter, i can't comprehend death like that... i cry uncontrolable, you could hear it back in the place from where we started. It should have hit me. „please, stay calm-" Those are Lilath's last words, her breathing stops, her heart stopps beating. Its my fault any of this is happening. Its my stupid fault she is dead. If i would have been standing there, she would have survived. If only we would have used her shield that we have. If only,. I cry. I cry harder than anyone would for what others would call stranger, but shes not a stranger, shes a friend, one of the best ones i could have ever met. If i ever find a way to bring her back, i will. I would throw myself in front of her, i would break the rules of time to bring her back. Frank walks up to me and we both hug, giving each other the comfort we need in the moment. The fact Ray and Lilath never really met, but he killed her is... why did that even happen? The world feels more grey and lifeless without her. „this is not the way i let her story end" i say taking her body with me. I walk to the dark castle gently and dig a grave for her. Everything feels grey, its not the same without her. Moonchester walks up to me shocked and i explain the situation we bury her body and host a funeral. We aren't many, but atleast there was a funerel for her. „Im pitying her family, could you imagine their sadness?" Frank asks crying. „yes" i answer. I know exactly how they will feel ones they find out. My heart hurts having to see her like that, dead, lifeless. I should have been hit, I should have pushed her from that shot, i should have died instead of her. We cry and cry, we could fill up an entire lake with our tears. After long hours of tears, we bury her and carve her name into a big stone with her year of birth and death:

R. I. P.

     Lilath

1995–2023

„we mourn the loss of one of the best friends we could ever have found." Frank says while crying. What is the point of anything? Of everyone i know is either evil or getting killed, what is the point? What is the stupid point of living if only bad things happen. I can't truly relax, Ray is evil, Lilath is dead, Moonchester is by my best guess fictional, we don't talk about the fairies and the dragon warriors are spychotic maniacs. I honestly wouldn't be surprised if we are all going to die here. I'm still crying, I can't understand why Ray did this. Maybe they controlled him, or they brainwashed him, but i know that was not quite him. Rest in peace to one of the best friends i could have ever gotten. Why did she have to die? Why do bad Things keep happening?! It would make sense for me to die at this point. I look at her grave, crying. I can't believe this happened. It should have and would have been me if she wouldn't have been standing there. My heart hurts like it shattered like glas. All of its shards are hurting me. I wonder how long the fall would be to jump feom the original dark castle's roof. Probably enough to kill me, i mean, i created this world. I can't imagine a world without her now, but i understand that now a little too late. I hug Frank who is finally allowing himself to really cry. I wish this day never came, but i can't change the past. even if I bring her back, what will the consequences do and despite that, the damage has been done. Moonchester doesn't seem to cry, but i don't think that he can cry in the first place. We cry the entire day until the sun goes down and the moon comes. There is a lack of stars in the sky, as if there is nothing beyond what we know. there is a lack of color, making this place feel more off then usually. All of the sudden, I see a shooting star, but I fail, making a wish. I would have wished for Lilath to come back, but when i was about to, i lost my chance.

TO BE CONTINUED