When Sloan Casey was at her lowest point at 17, she met Alex Abrams. Though sheltered it was almost as if Alex brought her back to life through her struggles. But after falling for Alex, the last thing she expected was for him to ghost her.
But what...
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Fuck Halloween.
I hated Halloween so much in ways I couldn't even describe. I missed my friends and I missed my life a year ago. I kept looming in the past praying for it to return.
But it wouldn't, it actually couldn't and honestly it wasn't as good as my mind dreamt it up to be. I still lacked friends, and I just had myself. I just showed up to class, did my work and carried on. It was like I was robotic in a way.
Like everyone was networked to each other but I was in some shady internet provider that didn't work anywhere. I couldn't connect to people and it was because I was guarded. I knew people talked, wondered what was my deal. It's not like people didn't attempt, I just couldn't.
I couldn't find myself someone to hangout with. To go live my life with and a boyfriend was out of the question. I didn't lack attraction to guys, I'd get the occasional compliments and numbers. But I didn't want anything, I wasn't even horny anymore. I didn't feel anything but misery.
It felt like that glass was still shattered and I was frozen in time. To the night I lost him, the night I lost Alex and then days later Avery. My world shut down within an instant and my trust issues are through the roof.
My mom pitied me for it, an update on things that lacked any social interaction. She was worried as a mom should be, she mellowed out after everything. Dad just got closed off in reserved but mom got it. She lost her best friend, she knew what this pain was like.
For my birthday I was gifted two ticket to Lana and tonight, Halloween. I was supposed to go, but I would be going alone. I was excited, more than excited but embarrassed. I'd lie to mom later about my adventures, about was 'we' did not what I did.
I sipped the last drop of my cold coffee before throwing it in the garbage on the way up to my dorm. I hated Mondays with a passion so it paired well with Halloween.
I scanned my card and it denied my access. I groaned as I removed it from the sleeve in the back of my phone to scan it and it finally unlocked.
I threw my backpack onto the chair and dove into bed. I needed a nap, today was shit but if I wanted it to get better, rest would do me well.
Nothing last forever, not friends, not relationships and not even pain. It all eventually ends, everything must come to an end no matter how much we fight it. It's the reality, we are all basically clocks that simply tick an uncertain and unknown amount of time.
It was honestly exhausting.
"Liv?" I hear the door click and I close my eyes in hopes to fall asleep. The door slams and I hear her bag drop to the ground as she crawls onto her bed.
"Lila I'm sorry, I just have more important things to do. Look I'm sorry you feel that way, I just can't come why are you being so sensitive?"
