The Receiver

Value

Days went by, and weeks. I learned more through the memories now having a more understanding of colors. Seeing them in my daily lives but now I have more questions than answers.

I kept hesitating or overthinking everything from clothes,if they were allowed to choose their own mate,their own jobs. But the Giver just explained "It's not safe"

But when the conversation turned to other things. With a feeling of frustration that I didn't understand.

I found I was angry now, irrationally angry at my group mates,that they were satisfied with their lives which had none of the vibrance my own was taking on. And angry at myself, that I couldn't not change that for them.

I tried without asking for permission from the giver because I feared or knew that it would be denied, trying to give awareness to my group mates.

"Aruther" I said "Look at these flowers very carefully" they were standing beside a bed of geraniums planted near the hall of open records. But he just thought I was crazy and asked if I was okay? I just made up a lame excuse afterwards.

Then with Amelia though she took it seriously and tried to concentrate but still couldn't see anything. Even apologizing but I'm glade she believed me.

Every day during and afterwards she always took interest in it, asking me loads of questions. It made quite happy talking to her. It felt like she was the only I could confine in, wondering If we could choose our own mates would I choose her??.....