The Masquerade

Chapter 34

Daniele's POV

My life has roughly been a treadmill ride,I have been running to reach nowhere.

No goals,no aspirations,just that I crave a feeling so deep that it replaces the void inside of me,with which I have been living all throughout.

For somebody to fan the flame which is reduces to ashes.Forever,I have seen my parents turmoil fighting and living a life like a show with their masquerades on.

My grandparents were the model to teach me basic values of life.The only people I have ever loved dearly.

They made me feel my existance,The time I spent with them was few best years of my life.

When I was a kid,insane,I never knew that I had a virtual family and so I havd upon realisation learnt to live with the truth.It took years to manifest but I survived with these bruises,not only this,when my life begin coming on track,Fate didnt stop there,It hit me with another attack of my grandparents loss.

I never really loved someone after them.I thought of life being unfair to me and so did I myself turned unfair to world.

I never really cared about people,unbothered about emotions.
I was just a selfish beast living on worldly and bodily pleasures.

I thought of girls as ccommodity,giving me access to their body,which I could use and forget or explore another model in diversity.

My charm works wonder,It was never hard calling the shots for me,Girls literally threw themselves upon me and I never disappointed any.

I came back to Washington to my dad and according to the law,until I was 18, I had no access to any properry of my grandparents so I was living in my dad's house and he was paying my university fee.

I hated living at his mercy or love as he called it,so I enrolled for a virtual internship in some company and managed to work for them,earning some freelance work and good bucks.

Recently,after like 2 years now,I have rented my own appartment with one year of saving my bucks.

My mom hardly asked me anything,she called me up once to convince me to join for a party on some business purpose,I denied but then I agreed on her hard persistence and pleading.

Dad introduced me to a young lavishly decorated chanel gown clad lady who is formally the daughter of my dad's business partner who has equal share in the opening of other branch.

She was flirting openly with me,obviously she couldn't resist her charm.

We danced for a while,she was beautiful when I looked at her,fairly beautifuk with sculptured features but she didnt ring my bells or fascinate me,much like Adriana with her looks does.

One look and I lose my mind,one touch and my heart responds.

Noone really ever had that affect on me,but I really dont understand,why am I thinking about Adriana all of a sudden and comparing this girl to her.

She throws subtle hint at me,advancing moves but I dont feel like taking the cue.

To rescue me from this,My mom must have noticed as she calls my name.

I am dazed,pinned,caught and rebuffed to believe what my eyes saw,It was Adriana standing with her,adorned beautifully in her simple red dress,her hair falking off her shoulder but I see her lips part and her eyes wide open to see me there.

I myself havent expected Adriana here,since I heard from Francesca this morning about the guest list and she told me that Adriana mifht be catching up with her missed lectures in the evening,so I decided to come.

But I have never really though about tge consequences of Adriana catching me off guard and especially when I have been at trouble with myself aftrr our first formal argument when she asked about my parents some days ago in the cafe and I walked out snapping at her.

I assured her, she ll know when the time is right for her.
I never really thought of hurting anybody's feeling,nor did I care but tonight as I watch her standing so distant.

It felt like somebody its raining at the fire that I just lit after so much of my effort.I couldnt let that happen.

Never really did someone affected me an inch to bother but looking at her,I could sense the wall she was building around her,rick by brick she was laying the foundation so strong.I could just let that happen.

Something struck my head and I followed her outside immediateky after she has left,not that I was weak enough to handle her being distant but because at that very momeny I realised I could afford her leaving.

I couldnt afford to turn away the only source of sunshine that has ever let the garden bloom.

The one who had not touched my body and my senses but had touched my soul,and tread all along.

I couldnt battle more with my wits and wisdom,all I knew at that moment was to woo her to stay,Life has always been unfair to me,Each seed planted was somehow uprooted and I watched it all silentky and endured the pain throughout.

But I couldnt afford this loss,endure this pain of life taking away the only source of light and happiness that I live upto.

I stop her and hold her wrist,she turns to look at me and I tell her that I owe her an explanation but she wouldnt listen she begin walking and dinot allow mw even to touch her.

It was then my mind wasnt mine,my heart abandoned my soul and laid it in her feet for her to tenderly accept and liberate my being.

But she didnt,Instead she blamed me for playing those mind games with her,I tried harder to tell her but she never bothered.

I was left all alone at the street on both my knees,looking above with moistened eyes,and it was then he answered me,that what I have been doing with all the people past these years has been the same,breaking people's heart and now I know what It feels like.

As I watch her walking over me,I could feel her pain,My emotions in overdrive,In years I havent struck by grief.

I reach my car and forcefully push my hand past the window,breaking the glass and the bleeding hand,is much solace as it helps me divert from the heart ache that I feel.

I reach home and drink the night off,telling myself over and over that i deserved it and she deserves better than what I have done to her.

I feel nothing but the regret and numbness around and void with million voices accusing me inside of me.
Another crazy world tumbled up and intoxication takes over me.

Author's Note:

Hope it makes the story much clear,since now we know what both Daniele and Adriana feel like and to know what be their fate,stay tuned.

P.s-Any suggestion,what do you wish for their story to end like?

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