The Masquerade

Chapter 41

Adiva' s POV

Going back to class yet again,was a mixed feeling.

Sitting under the same roof with the man,who I cannot tolerate any longer,whi I cannot bear to see any longer is giving me hard time.

On the other hand,getting back normal to Nancy and Adriana and shifting my room back with them givs me bit of pleasure.
Its same as it uses ti be with us.All the time into something or the other,pranks or late night chats.

I feel better with them both,Grateful to them,they have given me the space yet again.

I feel like drinking my thoughts and I convince Nancy for a night out.

To my surprise she agreed to it and we hired a car and set out on streets to the long way.

Stocked enough liquor for it to suffice our needs for the night.Adriana was long not found.

Nancy tells me,she must have been locked in the library,It often happens.

We roll out with our stock,loud music on,at the gateway on patrolling area.

I drink the fuck out of my life,I drink until I have no control over my wits and wisdom.

Nancy narrates me all her tales about Ivan's proposal.

"I dont know,I m still not confident about Ivan"

I feel deprived,lonely,void,I cry my heart out,I am on it.

We come back to discussing Derby and Kevin all again.

She tells me that it has been Derby spting on me and uodating Mike about everything I have tried to hide.

Everytime he has walked on me,specially when I intend to hode atuff from him due to his over protective nature.

I could stop myself from dialing Mike's number post midnight,without bothering.

I still think,he would take my call.

Indeed he does,I cry for good half an hour,apologising him and telling me how great of a person he is.

That he has warned me,yet cared for me to take my call,late at this time and ask me if I am alright.

He tells me,he hasnt been the one to cut connections,It was my decision.

I cry but my mind so tells me that I have no right to woo back a man,who I have left for nothing in life,after all what we had,It never was justified and I dont deserve him back and that I shall have to pay it back living all alone in the pool of my miseries.

I narrate him all from the start and all my grivevous tale of bad break up and he has all ears.

Without blaming it back on me,I drink and talk,it gives me strength.

He asks me my whereabouts and I disconnect me phone,crying hard at my miserablities invited by me.

I dont want to bother Mike to care for me not when he doesnot owe anything to me anymore.
I must not call him back when he is trying to move on.I already know,I have lost him and with every beat of my heart I wish he moves on for best and that I no longer deserve him.

I donot switch my phone off but wait for Mike to call me over another time,but to my disappointment,he doesnt.

I cry louder and harder,I feel like harming myself and I feel deep pain in my heart,so much that It feels hard to endure and I end up calling kevin,and Derby picks up his phone,I hear him taking it from her.

I hear all what was running between them in the background and my blood boils,Just as Kevin takes over the phone I shout at the top of my lungs

"You wrotten son of a bitch,you have spoiled my life,you have made my life a living hell and you have got another bitch for you to feed your hunger,such a motherfucking bastard,such shameless man"

"You ll cry the way,I am doing right now,you ll stand back and watch your life burning,you ll go through the same living hell,where you have no choice but to live with that misery.

I have lost everything because of you,but dont worry,I ll move on,I ll move on very soon and but you ll never have anyone with you,you ll die a bad death,a very bad one,I wont stop cursing you both until I live,just remember that,you bastards"

I hang up,my voice is temporarily lost since I was shouting at the phone.

After hanging up the phone,I tell Nancy of my firm decision to move on with it and she announces that its the best thing,I have ever decided.

It gives me courage and rings my phone yet again with Chris calling me and I take her call.

She asks me If I am fine and I narrate all about my calling Mike and then he never bothered to call back again.

To which she never replies and listens carefull like a patient listener.

Then I tell her about calling Kevim and my decision to move on.she appreciates it equally and tella me to keep safe and that she ll see me soon.

I tell her not to worry mother,I shall not drive tonight but rest there and then.

We actually are drunk enough to hold staring or drive back and with our eyelids shutting,and heavy eyes.we decided to rest in car.

Night was indeed heavy on me but I have made a determination to myself that I shall now survive and move on.

This is not the endi hold my breath and feel the life taking turn,even though my heart bursts again.

I havent dreaded a day like this,not even in a nightmare.

I fear what life has yet to show,I shut my eyes for the night and thereafter I dont recall anything.

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Author's Note:

So finally no scope with mike or Kevin back again,poor Adiva

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