The Masquerade

Chapter 42

Nancy's POV

My head is banging like someone is hitting it with a hammer,I open my eyes,they shut close,My vision blur,light scrunch my eyes shut.

I stress my mind to think about the last moment it could remember.Random flashbacks hit me,and I remember getting drunk to the extreme extent.

I recall how Adiva called up Kevin and the morning is not pleasing itself.The thought of over exposing a man to extreme guilts like he has committed some crime,disghusts me.

I feel bad for Kevin,I know I shouldn't be thinking about it,but I couldnt avoid.I try waking up Adiva and ring up Adriana to learn she is alright and that I need not worry about her,as she said she ll be back soon and then narrate me the whole missing game.

I pour the bottle of water all on Adiva in attempt to wake her up and drive back to the dorms.
We have spent entire night in the middle of woods,sleeping in car and now when the morning sun has washed the day past.

My heart yearns to call on him to know how he has been doing,but my mind decides against it.

We drive back to dorm and I wake up Adiva when we reach back.

I carry her to the room and she manages to stumble herself and collapse once again in the bed.
I dont wait for Adriana,since she assured me she ll be back,I find this opportunity to see Kevin.

I lock the room and sprint towards Derby's room to check if she is there.

I see her talking to the girls outside her room in the corridor and I take the cue.

I know where to find Kevin,I ring the bell at his door and there he is with sleep filled eyes.

He is passive on seeing me,he doesnot respond initially ut later allows me to come in.

We generally talk and he treats me again in his gentleman like ways,just that he restrains from flirting.

He excuses himself to use bathroom and change out of his only boxer briefs that he is wearing.

I inspect the things around and my eyes go on the floor is a wax of burnt candle,I immediately know what to make of it.

He returns back breaking my gaze from the floor.

"What brings you here?"He asks looking at me with one of his hand on his forehead.

"I,I really dont know,what brings me here"

"I dont get it?"

"I myself dont get it,I just feel,I am still attracted to you"

"Look,Nancy,I think I have had my share already,you now know me so well,I dont understand what do you expect

You need to understand Nancy,I am not the right one for you or for anyone,I have cheated,I am an asshole but unfortunately,I have fallen in love at this stage,I dont know,If I would ever be enough for her".

"Is it Derby you are talking about?"I ask out of speculation.

"Yeah,Indeed,

"I love her,I love her infinte,I love her like I have never loved anyone,she has made me realise all newer self of mime,I never knew.

"I owe her a lot,for my new life and start,I ll now start my life all over again with a fresh note and I dont intend on cheating on her"he answers.

My feet move out of the place,and I dont look back,the last ray of hope that I had is now over,there is no reason,I could ever look back to him.

I also feel that I have cheated on Ivan,I havent been clear with my affection for me,for all this time.

I feel guilty concious,of keeping Ivan in dark,I think,Its time to confess the truth to him and finally move on.

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I make my mind to now to do something big,to make up for all the the mess that I have made.
To make up for being untrue and selfish for my own reasons.

I have been fooled enough to even think,of the possibality of us being togeather.

I have forever ignored Ivan's feelings and used it all for my own selfish motives.

I owe much more to him.

I now make arrangements for even a better date at the beach side,and to propose him in all hollywood style with wine and dance.

I ring up Adriana to help me with it and she tells me she ll be back in another day and that she is out on business,and It shall take her another day to return back.

I was expecting for her to show up and help me with this,but I have much work to settle than think of her absence and business,So instead of thinking about her,I compel myself to think of something and finally I wear my working boots and set all the fancy table for the night

I invite Ivan to dinner and surprise him with the answer to his asked question,

I propose him all over again,asking him the same question,which he did and he instantly told me "I ll have to think hard about a reason to say no"

The air is all romantic with the candles and music soothing sensations and I finally feel complete like I have got some purpose of my life.

A direction to live life and to love someone,today i finally with all my heart commit to him about my love for him.

I shall now nowhere sway from my decision,because It was Kevin,who today made me realise what loving is and what love is like,Ivan has been so patient with me.

Loving me through entire poor times and always at my service whenever I have asked for him,even if it was for spiting Kevin.

He has entire time known my feelings for Ivan but never stopped loving me.

I envy Kevin and Derby being together but not anymore.

When I look at my state now,I feel I am lucky enough to not fall for the temptations and regret like Adiva.

Its the forst time,I have kissed Ivan,with all my heart and my soul melting at his touch.

I feel so confident about him,I dont doubt if it ll work between us but He holds my hand,taking it close to his lips,kissing it and keeping it on his heart.

He tells me,we ll last longer,you know why?

"Because we have together wandered and explored all the options to seek love amd ended with each other"

He sweeps me off my feet carrying me in his arms and I swear,I havent felt much loved before.

I shall cherish this day and moment forever and in ages to come,I know I shall doubt all my decisions but I shall never regret choosing this option.

Author's Note:

So here is how Nancy and Ivan meet after everything.

Love is in the air.

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