The Masquerade

Chapter 39

Kevin's POV

Star crossed!
One word that describes everything of and in my life.

I deserve all of that has recently happened.I take it all.

I had that tendency of prooving to myself that I can woo any girl from different walks of life.

To myself that my charms work wonder for me and that I am smart enough to play with the tenderness,giving no thought to the kind hearted people.

It just wasnt about temptations and bodily pleasures but about my own race to proove myself that I can do it.

I have always adored Adiva as a friend.I had been a casanova but I never made any advances,not unless I was concented.
I had my limits with it aswell.

Mike had that recognising instinct,he warned Adiva for right and I made my distance but she wouldnt let me retreat and I couldnt help.

I had that hunger indeed but I did it all woth my heart,whatever good and vulnerable moments we have ever shared will forever be cherished by me.

But I coulnt give her what she wanted,maybe that love.
I was never meant for that mushy stuff,never.

I tried,tried hard but with the time passing by,I failed at each step and only left woth me was my failure and a calling of my past life.

I had always been that bantering around,playboy,one night stands and then game over.

I had that urge of chase only till I didnt make sure that a girl will now chase back and I used to sit relaxed.

This is what I have done my entire life and this is what I am good at.

Time hasnt just passed for me,It has passed wonderfully well,for everything in it,what I had ever wanted.

I havent ever been denied of my wishes just what has made me this egoistic and conquering natured is a girl who I felt for with a tender heart of mine but she never loved me and left me for someother guy better than me.

That day,after that day,I have never taken No for an answer.

I have built whole my castle in air with no realisation that someday a wind with blow it away.

It seems like the only possession that I ever had is now blown away,all my respect,self respect,friends,trust and just everything.

I met Derby a long time back,when nothing in her ever fascinated me and as the time passed and the more time I use to spend in her company,the more I began a mogul of her minimalism.

I never knew I would be ao deeply affected by her or by any other girl for that matter to make that kind of difference on me.

It was different,something very different with her,I begin opening up the way I never did with any other.

She was indeed different,from any one I have ever known.

This day when I was humiliated and charged of accusitions,she stood by me and showed faith and trust in me.

That gave me nothing but a moral boostup,that I havent lost everything yet.Even after I had cheated the hearts of people,knowing everuthing,sh3 stood by me.

If it hadnt been for her,I would have lost myself forever in that moment and never recoverd enough to think about it qll.

This has helped me realise what she thinks of me,and has drawn her much more closer to my heart.

I have none but a reason in her to live,to change and change for the better.

And love her,with a punishment that I never maybe ask her of anymore.

Not that she stays with me or love me anytime.

I try to call Adiva,to apologise aftrr the realisations but she never pucked up.

Then a knock at my door startles me at this late night hour.

I open the door to find Derby on the door,she hugs the moment I open the door.

I cry my heart out and that was the time of our vulnerabllilities clashed and we melted for each other and into each others arms,soothing and comforting.
The silence promised of our truthfullness to each other,there was something different in that moment and on me that I announced Derby

"I cannot ever do good to you,I am a bad soul,meant for doing all dark things,I have robbed people of thier innocence qnd love without appreciation,I wouldnt do that to you,go away far far away from me"

"I havent come to leave you,we are sailing on the same boat,if you have cheated her,I have done quiet the same,I had been a friwnd to her,she trusted me but I never thought about it"
Nobody ever will understamd why we did thisbut I cam see we are meant to be together and I am not leaving you for anything you say"
She persists.

I hug her one mpre time and break down into pueces will all mt heart and pour out all that I have been harbouring ever.

She shushed me mid sentence and asked me peace out,and ahe doesnt need to learn any of it.

I was grateful,grateful doesnt even begin to civer what it was like.

She has given me new birth,new hope to live and change,her telling me of being with me and showing that confidence in me,brings life in me once again and I bud again.

Even aftrr losing my friends,faith,trust and repect,I can live for her to lover her and give her all in my power.

Yes,I am in love,the air around us changed and my mind just settled for her.

I finally have got the salvation but not completely until I make peace with my evil side of me.Until I apologise to Adiva about it.

She has harboured all ill of me,and I have done enough to deserve it all but now I am trying,trying hard to change and I shall maybe one day unspring myself lose of these ties.

I havent been masqueraded for the people but foe myself to know,what i really am.

Its because of Derby,I have recognised my hidden self and now I am suerounded by her protection,that fragnates with a hope of all new life,I long to love.

Author's Note:

It was kevin,telling about his side of emotions and feelings.

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