Leah Williamson: The Bond.

Part 24: Falling in Love With The Right Person

Even though we won, that might've been one of the worst nights of my life. I normally get panic attacks, but never to that extent. Ella has always said they got worse when dad died, which could be true. It just makes me embarrassed sometimes. Well anyway, it was the end of camp, after an amazing summer. We had a short break before pre season commenced which is always tough. Alessia, Ella, Millie and I were taking the same car home. There wasn't really a point of us all going separate. Ella was driving, with Alessia sat in the passenger seat. Millie and I sat in the back, just listening to the playlist Ella connected.

"How you keeping now Abs?" Millie whispered. She really took care of me last night. She didn't need to spend most of the night helping me, but she did. "I'm doing alright thanks. Thank you so much for last night though, you really did help." I feel like I could break down. It's just very overwhelming.

We got home around mid day, and realised that we haven't been home in a while. Ella and I took a quick trip down to Tesco's. I came back to my phone on the bed, with a text message on the screen.

Leah

Leah
Hi Abby just checking up on you
Are you okay? You can talk to me about it

I'm surprised that she did text me. Yes, we did kiss but after seeing Jordan, I thought she'd forget about me. To be honest, I'm surprised she even likes me.

I made dinner for Ella and I, and we sat down at the table. It was a chicken stir fry, Ella's favourite. "What's wrong with you? You're acting all weird." Ella said, looking slightly concerned. She knows nothing about what happened, and I don't know how to tell her. "Nothing is wrong, don't worry." She gave me a small tap on the arm, "I know you're not, please talk to me." I just lost it. Before I knew it, tears were streaming down my face, with Ella's arms around my torso. "You're safe Abs, let it all out."

I told her everything. Every single detail. About Leah, about Jordan and about that night.  I do feel better though for getting it off my chest. She did advise me to text Leah back, so I had a shower before getting into bed.

Leah

Leah
Hi Abby just checking up on you
Are you okay? You can talk to me about it

Abby
I'm alright don't worry, just getting everything figured out x

A few minutes later, I hear a knock at the front door. It was late, and I'm always hesitant to open it late at night. Although, I did open it, to find Leah stood with a bunch of flowers. She instantly hugged me, making me feel ten times happier. Ella must've been asleep, as she didn't come out of her room. "Right Abs we need to talk." I knew this was coming. It was bound to be at some point, but I just didn't want to have this conversation.  "What did you think about Jordan seeing us?" Leah asked, but I don't know. I don't know what I thought though. I was really upset but at the same time I really like Leah. "Leah don't get me wrong, I didn't want Jordan to get hurt. We could've went about it better. That didn't stop me wanting to kiss you again after though."Leah stops and moves closer towards me, so that the space was now filled. I watched as her hand gently rubbed my cheek before leaning in. Her lips were the most gentle and soft thing I've felt. Fireworks. I don't think they'll ever leave.

We went back to my bedroom, where we laid, cuddling each other. We had an episode of friends playing in the background, while we just talked about life. "The world cups coming up, you excited?" "As if I'll be selected Leah, I'm too young for it yet." Leah just smiled, as if she knew something I didn't. That night, we fell asleep together. Safe in each others arms.

The next morning I decided to make Leah breakfast in bed, because she did drive straight to here after camp. After I had cooked up a plate of eggs and avocado, I wondered back into my room. "Morning Lee." The peaceful looking woman was still asleep, beautiful as always. I leaned over and gently kissed her cheek, allowing her to wake up slowly. "Good morning Abs." She said, in a croaky morning voice. Honestly it was perfection. We spent the morning relaxing, before Ella burst through the door. "Leah? What are you doing here?" "I came last night sorry, you were asleep." Ella walked into the room and sat on the bed. We all sat together, talking about the season coming and future tournaments.

Leah and I went out exploring Manchester later that day. We went to a coffee shop, which Leah agreed to, even though she hates coffee. We went for a walk around a forest, taking a route that was peaceful and hid from the public. We walked until we found a bench. "I really like you Abs." We just exchanged smiles. That's all that was needed. "I really like you too Lee." We shared a loving kiss, which was heated but yet not sexual. It just showed each other the affection we have for one another. Leah had to go back down to London that night, which was one of the hardest goodbyes yet. I will miss her, even though she was barely here. It felt natural, you know, being around her so much. Like it was meant to be.

I watched reluctantly as the car drove away, nearly bringing tears into my eyes but I will never admit that to her. Ella dragged me into her room for a debrief. "So.. what happened?" I took a place in her bed, pulling the covers over me. "Els it was amazing. I really like her. Seriously though. We went for this walk with a coffee and even though it was simple, it felt perfect." "Ooh sounds like someone's in love!" Ella shrieked. Was I? Was I in love already with Leah?

Later that night I decided to ring Millie, to updated her on how I was keeping. The phone call lasted around 20 minutes, in which I told her everything once again. She was happy, but obviously extremely cautious I didn't get hurt. It is nice having a mother figure once in a while. Someone who genuinely cares, and will listen to everything. Soon later, just before I was going to turn my lights off, I get a text.

Leah

Leah
I had an amazing time with you tonight. I do really like you. Maybe sometime you can come visit London? I can't wait to see you again.

Abby
I miss you like crazy right now! I will definitely be down to see you before pre season. I can't wait x

Leah
Thank god, I thought you wouldn't want to. I miss you too, I miss those hugs of yours a lot too x

Abby
I'm going to head to sleep now, Good night Lee x

Leah
Good night my love x

That's it. I had to be falling for Leah. But how am I meant to tell her?