Only wanna be with you

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There where tears falling down his face now, he looked so vulnerable. Dark circles has developed under his eyes since we last saw each other. His skin was pale and his face looked gaunt. Maybe he did feel strongly about me. Just not in the way I wanted. But I couldn't hold that against him even though it killed me inside.

"You look like shit"

"I know. It's been driving me insane not having any contact with you or not knowing what was going through your head. MGK... well it hurt, still does. I can't get that image of you two together out of my head. Like it's taunting me" he rubs his hands over his face "then that song. Fuck, that song. It's perfect, it's us. But him. I hate that it's him. I hate the thought of him touching you. The way I crave to touch you. I hate that he gets to touch you "

"He doesn't."

"What? Are you two not a thing?" He furrows his brows as he looks up at me

"Nope, you put a stop to that with your over possessiveness"

"Oh, well good. He's not good enough for you" he huffs

"Will anybody be in your eyes?"

"Probably not " he looks down at the ground sighing "so are we on the mend?"

"Slightly, I'm still really mad at you."

"I know, but I will make it up to you I promise. Just you talking to me is enough" he stands up scooping me up off the chair and sitting me on his lap on the couch. "Please don't hate me, I'm a dick I know" he just held me tight, like if he let me go I'd evaporate. It was nice I had to admit. To know he needed me.

"Austin, can I get dressed? Im getting a bit chilly" I try to wiggle out of his grasp. He hugs me tighter but eventually let's go. I potter around gathering my stuff and discreetly getting dressed, not wanting to show him my naked body. It felt inappropriate and seedy. I wasn't ready for that yet.

"Rhi?"

"Austin?"

"Your beautiful, you know that right?" He sounded so sincere as he looked at me with sad eyes "Any guy would be lucky to have you look their way"

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We spent the rest of the night between the sheets. It was glorious and special. Like it wasn't just sex. It was loving and caring. Something I've never experienced before. Tender and affectionate. I hated leaving him in the morning, my stomach was in knots and my heart ached. I wasn't going to see him for at least a week. He had commitments in Kentucky and I was going back to LA. Luckily I was busy but it felt worse going to bed alone after connecting with him. I was used to sleeping alone but the bed now felt too big for just me. He text me constantly, FaceTimed when he could. But I still missed him. It was ridiculous to me after just 3 days together I was this hung up on someone. I couldn't help it, he was charming and sweet. He asked me about my day and wanted to know everything about me. Even the bad things. He was non judgmental and intelligent. Practically the perfect man.

I just couldn't bring myself to tell him about Austin. I was embarrassed. I knew he wouldn't make me feel that way but I just couldn't admit it to anybody. Also he may think bad of Austin. Even though I was mad at him I didn't want to be the reason people disliked him. He was a nice guy just not to me. We had a toxic relationship and it didn't need to be broadcasted to anyone. 

I had just got home from the gym after a busy day in the studio. I ordered myself some takeout and cleaned up my house while I waited. The doorbell rang so I jogged down to the door. A whistle sounded as I opened the door wide. I looked up shocked to see Jack stood with my takeout in his hand.

"Now I would have been jealous if the driver had got to see this instead of me" I grinned widely as I threw myself into his arms, wrapping my legs around his waist.

"What are you doing here? I thought you where in New York?" I kissed him deeply. He carried me in closing the door with his foot

"I got done early and I missed you. Glad i surprised you now" he sat me down on the island counter top, standing between my legs as he put my food down next to me.

" l missed you too. I'm glad you surprised me too" I pepper his face with kisses

"How do you look so hot in everything?" He eyes my gym bra and shorts.

"Shut up, I do not I'm a sweaty mess. Maybe after some food you can help me shower?" I wink at him.

"If this food didn't smell so good right now I would say fuck the food and lets shower now. Buttttt this foods got me starving "  he peeks into the bag of food.

"I got Japanese. Let me down and I'll get the plates"

"Stay, I'll get them" he kisses my lips before heading for the kitchen cupboards. Gathering the cutlery and bringing it back to where I'm sat. I cross my legs as he sits himself on the stool in front of me. I start to plate up as he leans his head in my lap. "I really have missed you. Can we just fuck this dating thing off and be official?"  It took me back for a few seconds. I paused as I scooped up some teriyaki chicken

"Really? You don't think it's too soon? Not that I do but I just thought you might..."

"Sweetness, I know when somethings good for me and I'm not letting time get in the way" he reaches up and caresses my cheek  "I really like you and I want to see where this goes but I don't want you dating anyone else while we do that. I want you all to myself beautiful " 

"Well if you put it that way, yes."