Only wanna be with you

8

The studio was the perfect place to be. It was enough of a distraction that I wasn't crying but it also help me to decompress. I got to put all my thoughts and feelings out on to the page and at the end of it I had about 5 songs written. I wasn't sure any of them were going be good enough for the album but I had found a new writing partner and had arranged Brian to come over with a couple other writers tonight to try again.  There where a few beats that I was obsessed with and wanted to get a song wrote ASAP. 

I ordered in a load of food and we all gathered around my dining room table chatting, eating and drinking. It had been a while since i'd had just a chill night like this. Even if we stayed in there was always so many people invited round. Well not at my place, I was very particular about keeping my house as safe as possible. I didn't want crazed fans knocking on the front door in the middle of the night.

It was strange writing these songs with people that Austin knew. Practically talking about our relationship but without saying who it is. There seemed to have a running theme with most of these ideas we where having, sex. Well that was what our relationship was really...He didn't love me the way I loved him. It wasn't going to be a breakup album, that was far too cliche for me but I wanted an empowering album. I wanted them to be poignant. For people to relate to them.

Austin had text me like 20 times today and I just left him on read every time. He knew he had fucked up and he obviously knew that I was finally done. Brian had put a video of us all writing on Instagram unbeknownst to me. That's when my phone blew up . Austin ringing me constantly for about 30 mins. So I finally text him back to 'fuck off and leave me alone' . He didn't fuck off, to the point where I just turned my phone off because I didn't want to deal with him. I don't think he had the balls to just turn up, especially with all these people here.

After everyone left and I had tidied up our mess. I lay in my bed looking up at the ceiling. I needed to get out of here. Get away from L.A. I knew Austin would be going to Utah soon , especially if I wasn't speaking to him. I needed to get out of this house where everything reminded me of him. I needed a holiday. I knew what I needed, family. I text Dre and Greg and decided to take Greg's family to Florida. That would distract me.

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I sat in the studio writing my own songs whilst listening to Austin lay down his lyrics in the booth. I had worn super low rise playboy sweats and a cropped vest with no bra and I knew Austin was struggling to keep his eyes off me. I had purposely been bending over in front of him or rubbing myself against him as I walked past.

"So I have this idea of a duet with a girl. Lewis has this amazing beat" he shouted over to me and Dre who where discussing my music on the couch. The beat started to play and Austin roughly sang his part and I was overcome to write the female part. Something sexy and flirty but strong and powerful.

'I cross my t's and dot my i's yeah I'm for real
He hold me down
That's my shit
He buy whatever, he know the drill
Don't need no pill
He whispered in my ear and told me feel

He love that I say what I feel
He feel what I say 'cause it's real
You couldn't forget, I never changed up on my set
And I only make calls to collect, that's why we connect
We can go half on a jet, baby we on to the next
Fuck all the stress
Fuckin' with bitches who's new to the game when you got you a vet
I know you like it when I act like I'm still shy
Then turn around and put that thing in overdrive
I'm down to ride
I'ma keep you on my shoulder
'Cause every cold player need a bitch that's ten times colder'

Dre practically picked me up he loved it so much. Lewis came over to tweak it slightly and see how it would fit in with the beat

"Dre can we see if we can get Rita Ora or Kehlani on this. They would sound perfect singing this" Austin lit up a pre rolled joint off the table.  Lewis noticed me go still next to him and gave me a sympathetic smile while Dre shrugged his shoulders in a 'what can I say' motion. I was fuming. Why not me? I fucking wrote it! Was I not good enough?

I sat seething for over an hour trying to write more but I was too angry. I was so embarrassed that he wouldn't think of me to sing it. Bobby and Jay arrived and and the song got brought up again. They too seemed confused as to why he hadn't gone with the obvious option of me singing it.

"Well I'm new on the scene and so is Rhi, we need someone established on it. Someone who we can get some hype off" he still avoided looking at me

"Makes some sort of sense but..." Jay wasn't convinced obviously

"Let's go get some food, we've been here all day" Dre squeezed my shoulder trying to diffuse the awkwardness

"You lot get going I'm going to stay back I'm part way through a song here" I smiled up at him. He didn't seem like he wanted to leave me but kissed my head and led everyone out. "Bring me back something tasty please"  I shouted up

"I'm going to stay here too have a smoke and finish up a few lyrics"  my eyes snapped up to Austin

"Okay guys play nice, I'll bring you back something to eat" Dre patted my head before he headed out.

As soon as he left Austin locked the door. I looked up from the couch I was sat on and he was watching me.

"Are you mad at me?" He pouted

"Yes" I snapped

"Please don't be mad, you know what I mean. It will be two newbies just talking about how much they want to fuck each other. Which is very true" he stands over me  "but don't you think someone like Kehlani who's really popular would hype me up?"

"I suppose" I begrudgingly agreed

"And she won't reap any of the benefits because it's you I want to fuck till you can't see straight" I bit my lip at his bluntness. He sank down into the seat next to me "Look what your doing to me" he grabbed my hand and placed it over his erection.

"I've not done anything" I practically purred

"Oh you know you've been teasing me. From those dangerously low sweats to your hard nipples. I can't cope" he sighed as I started to move my hand up and down along the outline of his member in his trousers. " I need you to fuck me like you said in those lyrics. Get your shy ass up here and look back at me while your riding me" I couldn't help but to submit, his words making me wet instantly. Knowing he's been fighting the urge to fuck me this whole time.

I stood up positioning myself between his legs facing away from him. I hooked my thumbs into the waistband of my sweats and watched his face over my shoulder as I slowly pulled them down. His eyes glazed over with lust as he let out a moan, his hands pullout his hard cock and start to slowly stroke it . I lowered myself down taking his cock out of his hand so I could line up myself. His hands caressed my ass and carried up past my waist, pushing my top up to cup my breasts. I sighed as I pushed myself down on his thick length, taking a few seconds to adjust before bouncing. I could feel he wouldn't last long, the teasing must have been better than I realised. I reached down and started to rub my clit, his hand drifted down laying over mine before he took its place. His calloused fingertips giving me a whole new sensation.

"Look at me, I want to see you cum"  I was grinding as hard as I could now chasing my high. I looked at him over my shoulder and it tipped me over the edge. "Ah fuck yes, soak my dick" he continued to rub my clit as he came, my pussy walls contracting even more as he sent shockwaves all over my body. 

Dre and the guys walked back a few minutes later. We where both in our original seats. "You two behaved?"

"I always do as I'm told Dre" I smirked as Austin's eyes met mine knowingly.