unfamiliar feelings ~ Asuka x Shiroi (oc's)

{7}

"So, how are you feeling now? That must've brought back many bad bad memories.." I stayed silent, it was weird, I wanted to speak but I just wasn't sure what to say.
"Hey, now we got something in common! We both despise Hayashi." Shiroi said, making me laugh a bit.
"There you go, now you're smiling again. I've never actually seen you genuinely smile this upclose before...you look adorable like this." Now's not the time to make me hate you again, Shiroi!
"Thanks." I replied and she gave me a warm smile.

"Hey, just so you know: I know you still hate me and that's completely understandable but if you ever need someone to talk, especially about the past, Im here for you. When I was down there in the bathroom, I really felt...helpless and I was so filled up with anger but I couldn't move an inch until the anger really really left my limit. I know all of that is nothing compared to what happened in Junior High but I just want to let you know that you're a very strong girl."

Suddenly I felt tears starting to form as I heard her talk and I couldn't control myself anymore, my emotions all came out at once and all of a sudden I was sobbing my heart out to her. It felt weird, I just couldn't pull myself together anymore. I couldn't hide the pain I was suffering, I failed.

"Shh, it's okay it's okay." Shiroi hugged me as I cried into her shoulder.
"I-I just *hic* hated seeing that and remembering e-everything..it was so *hic* so painful...the y-years of constant bullying *hic* and-and everything...I just couldn't conceal my feelings anymore *hic* I-Im sorry you have to see this.." She patted my back as I sobbed more and more. Who knew I could sob so much?
"Dont apologize, dont apologize for anything. This isn't your fault. You shouldn't have to hide your feelings, its okay to be sad and cry sometimes. You were tormented by those girls, you have every right to feel they way you do." She was right yet I still felt ashamed for sobbing so much infront of her.

After a few minutes of silence, I was finally able to calm down and I realized the huge wet spot on Shiroi's uniform. I let go off her promptly and whiped my tears away.
"Im so sorry about that.." She looked at me and chuckled.
"Haha its okay. Are you feeling better now?"
"I think? It felt good letting all that out but its weird."
"See? I'm sure you feel much more relieved now." We continued sitting there in silence while watching the trees in our school yard. It wasn't lying when I say that this feels nice but I can't believe I broke down infront of the person I was supposed to dislike, but how can I still hate her after this?

"Shoot, we didn't go the exam, we're going to get punished for skipping class." Shiroi said out of a sudden and we both realized that we were fucked.

"Well, that talk with the the guidance counselor couldn't have gotten any worse, haha." We both got an F for not attending the exam and therefore not participating..that's a fair punishment I guess.

"Hey, Im sorry again that you got an F just because of me. We should've just went with Ichika instead stay on the roof. Im still thankful for you being there for me though, I really really appreciate it." I really did feel bad, she didn't deserve to fail this important exam just because I felt down and needed some fresh air.
"I already told you I'll be there for you."

Its been 2 weeks since she left her group and started hanging out with us and honestly, I cant believe Im saying this but Im glad she did.

"There you two are! So, how did it go with the guidance counselor?" We entered the classroom before Ichika approached us and started asking a lot of questions.
"Well, we got an F in this exam but since our other grades are great, it wont affect our overall grade in this subject as much." Shiroi said proudly with a smile on her face.
"What a relief! Well not about the fact that you guys got an F. So what happened on the roof?" More questions.
"Hmm, we'd rather not talk about it now, lets just start our cleaning duty, shall we?"

Thanks Shiroi, was what I wanted to say when I was pulled away from Chisaki.
"She's mine for today, we'll do the hallway together!"
"Huh? What-" I couldn't finish my sentence as Chisaki dragged me out of the classroom into a more quiet spot of the hallway.

"Let go! What is it? Why did you pull me here?" I pushed her arm away as she gave me a mischievious smile.
"Earlier I saw you and Shiroi on the rooftop sitting together and you guys skipped class....whats going on there?" Chisaki teased while giving me THAT look.
"Nothing you weirdo!" I replied back while she just started giggling.
"Hmm, yeahhh. You guys would look really cute together, hehe."
"What?"
"Just saying you know. Im sensing a romantic connection between you guys." I knew ignoring her wouldn't last so I just left her alone and started cleaning the hallway somewhere else.

"Hey! I was just joking!" I heard her yell from behind of me but I just continued walking.

After I finished cleaning, I went back to the classroom to get my bag. It was quiet and empty, as expected. As I took my bag I heard a sound coming from the door and turned around, it was Shiroi.

"Thank god you havent left yet! Me and Ichika are going to eat dinner in this really nice ramen place later, do you want to join?" Well, that's certainly not what I expected.
"Sure, I've been craving Ramen anyway. When and where do we meet?" I asked.
"I'll text you the info later, okay?"
"Mhm." I nodded before taking my bag.

We both left the classroom and soon after leaving the school, we had to part ways and I realized how excited and cheerful Shiroi was about the 3 of us eating together later...it makes me feel excited as well.